Afternoon all , has anyone's eyes been affected this chemo crap my eyes go blurry and run with water. What with my nose. Get big gew drops I look like and old down and out. If it keeps up I am going to put a bloody tap on my head sick of the dew drops going in my tea. Pmsl.
It's taken nearly 3 weeks for my diora to stop, still don't fancy food, but weight going on at the rate of knots. Denis rusos and me will become friends. (Yes I know his dead) lol lol .
Next Thursday is my last T day I so don't want it. I cry think g about the side effects. So had enough now. If I was 30 younger maybe I could handle it a bit better, I read what you girls can do and I am so proud of you all.
How you manage with children as well I take my wig off to you. X
Off to see the surgeon Tuesday see what he or she has in store for me. Got told I can't have a breast reduction because I smoke. So me thinks there's going to be a row.
Have a good day.
Sue x x x
Well ladies what's happening it's been quite on here for a few days hope you are all ok. I am still very tired, been trying to sort the garden not much luck there I do about 5 mins then have to sit down for half an hour, oh to be 21 again.
Have any of you put any weight on? I can't believe I have put on half a stone, most of my food goes down the bog. I was so p------st yesterday. Then I read that chemo can't put on up to 20lbs.
If that happens I will need to get myself some big bloomers. I am defo not looking forward to my last T. Keep thinking about them rotten side effects I get, I feel worn out now. Got no enthusiasm for anything at the moment. My settee has become my second bed got a dip now where I sit down even the poor dog rolls in it when I get up lol lol.
Let eat me know how you all are girls.
sue X X X X
I'll be joining you for June rads. Had CT scan, planning and mark up yesterday ready for start 9th June. Had last FEC today hooray! Want to jump with joy but literally can't lift a finger, didn't quite get over 5th session so lots of sleep coming my way.
Wishing all the ladies on here a speedy recovery.
good luck tomorrow. I have lumpectomy booked for June 15th, followed by rads a month later. I too have found this last lot awful. Cumulative of 6 sessions, and I think in my mind last week I thought it's the last one and forgot there would still be side effects !!!!!!! I have been very tearful too as you look back at the magnitude of what we have been through. I think also it's still difficult to plan too much due to hospital appts etc. I hope you manage to stay upright Jan.....how strange, perhaps take water with it 😄
Em....I want some of your happy pills !
Big hugs to all Carol xxx
thank you xxx I didn't think about build up drinks, I will go and get some...... I've managed yoghurts today and a cheese sandwich !!!! I've gone down a clothes size which I am determined to keep to.
Take care xxx
Hi carol I can absolutely know where you are coming from, my oh cooked me meals and I took one look at them and could have thrown up. There's not much I can say to help you out here as I am 13 days from my 2nd T and I can't just about face food. My next one is next Thursday. I can't tell you what I lived on to be honest.
I am very tired I get hungry but just don't fancy food. It will get a bit easier. You might have to get some build up drinks as not eating has left me quite weak. I am getting some for next time. You need to try and suck ice lollies.
Keep your chin up girl.
x X X X Sue.
Sue, I hate beetroot soooooo much !!!! How funny....lucky you woke,!!!!
Well in tears today as my mouth is so sore, really fed up not being able to eat, and yes soooooo tired. I know I don't have to have any more. My doctor described the 't' like having liquid domestos burn your mouth. I have wasted so much food....think I fancy it but can't eat. Hope you're all ok and soldier through all this.
Big hugs Carol xxxx
Excellent news Sue, it makes it all feel worthwhile going through all this!
Sorry I haven't been posting recently, T knocked me for 6 again! At least there is only one more. To cap it all I then developed a wee infection and had to have antibiotics. I now have a stinker of a cold!! I am becoming paranoid about my temp as we are supposed to be going away for a few days on Saturday and I am worried that I will end up in hospital instead!?
Can't wait to get to the end of all this. At least with surgery it doesn't make you feel so ill.
Hope you are all coping well? Xxx
A big thank you ladies, sorry I have not put your names lol lol T! Is **bleep** I would sooner have 6 FEC. I don't feel better until 2 days before my next T!. Today was the first day I managed to eat a chicken salad for my tea. That's 11 days after having T!. I can look at food now with out wanting to throw up. As for the diorea well I still got it. It will be my bestest friend until the end, it's costing me a fortune in bog rolls so if you got any spare ones throw them my way. Lol lol lol
Now for a laugh, I cook my own beet roots love the stuff, put them on to boil sat down and promptly fell asleep so did the old man. I woke and said to him who the feck is having a bonfire,
i have never seen my old man move so fast, I now have 4 rock hard burnt beet roots and a saucepan with no bottom. Pmsl. My whole house stinks.
He had another trip to sainsburys.
love you all.
Sue x X X
Brilliant news...yay. When you know it's the last one it does make it easier. I am really struggling with the sore tongue and mouth and really not managing to eat hardly anything, not even rubbish☹️ Trouble is its making me feel weak and listless.....I know that by the weekend the worse will be over but it's just getting through each day.
Big. Hugs to you all Xxx
Right I am back, my Tumor has shrunk from 2inch to half and inch and lyth nodes clear. Got to have the last T much to my disgust but hay ho it's the last one.
x X X X
Thank you ladies feeling very apprehensive 🙄 I am so hoping I don't have to have my last T! Just popped out to the local shop not been well enough for the past two weeks. Was only out for 10min and I feel like I have walked a marathon.
You all take care will post laters.
sue X X X
Good luck girls tomorrow. Xx
i have showered, visited my mum, done some knitting and taken the dog for a walk. Feel better for doing something......this last one has knocked me for six, boy what a long haul that has been. I have an ultrasound on Thursday although I know I have responded well at Easter, halfway point. Going to do some armchair exercises to build my muscles up in my legs. Amazingly I have lost weight so need to keep that off and just get fitter.
Keep me posted how you're doing girls. Xxx
Just finished some house work why does it feel like I have just cleaned Downton Abby lol now sitting down fecked for the day. Lol lol
Had a shower this morning and thought shall I shan't I, I am not a one to keep feeling me lodger but it got the better of me, to tell you the truth I can't find it 🤔 Now I not getting my hopes up but you never know.. Fingers crossed. As soon as I am back from hospital tomorrow I will post my results I am so bricking it girls. 🤓 Half a year nearly gone but it don't seem that long to me.
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SUE X X X X
Morning, well is Sunday I think lol the old man is off to a golf day. With a bit of luck his balls will get lost lol I hate golf. It's the day before I find out if this toxic waste that they are putting through us is working or has worked, feeling quite apprehensive got the hospital tomorrow, so it's tit squash day. And boy are mine big, if I laid on the floor I would look like a camel pmsl. That machine hurts.
I give up with the side effects, don't matter what I do or what I take there still there poxy things. Oh yes and girls don't fart and walk had a messy one lol lol think I will buy some nappies. Lol lol
at the moment I am living on yogurts, corn flakes, and new potatoes and gravy. 😝😝😝😝
i miss my food.
Love you all
sue x x x
Ha ha, brilliant.....I love the humour. My diet today has been half a bowl of porridge.....yuk, a yoghurt, and 4 small potatoe waffles, what is that about. Very tearful day, think that is the steroid come down, hate that. I have managed to get showered but that is about it, been pouring with rain in Hampshire all day. When is summer going to come? Hope you all have a good nights sleep. Hugs Xxx Carol
I feel so sorry for you, what a nightmare, haven't they given you anything for the runs???? I find my problem is terminal flatulance which my grandson finds amusing 😄. I take it you now have one more to go? ...this treatment does take its toll on us physically and emotionally. So many people have said how positive and upbeat I've been throughout but there have been many days when I would rather have just hid myself away from the world. I am busying myself knitting scarves for Xmas presents which keeps my mind and hands occupied.
You made me laugh Sue when you said you have put on weight........typical isn't it!! I joined slimming world a few years ago and I was the only one who put on weight every week !!!!!! I have just had my last 'T' which has knocked me for six.....the steroids are horrible and then the come down makes you feel sooooo low. My legs are like lead and my mouth is ugh. I love that we all support each other on here and we all understand what it's like to go through this. I hope you have a better few days and manage to stay away from the toilet,
Big hugs to you Sue and thank you for cheering me up this morning. Xxx
Hi girlies, as some of you have read my bits I put on here the last 2 T's have been horrendous, it's slowly grinding me down. Yesterday was the first time in a 9 days the bog had not seen my face. Saved some money as well didn't use a whole bog roll. I now what it's like to be force feed lol food seems to be a thing of the past. If I ever get my appetite back God help the Kentucky lol lol. I don't know what they put in this T it sure an't cannibis lol which now I am considering taking (joke by the way) just to forget the side effects.
One good thing yesterday, I had a letter saying I have got a CT scan booked on the 20th June, now panic me thinks hello now what, so phoned around trying to get some information as to why I have to have another CT scan. In the end I managed to speak to a breast cancer nurse she said it was for the consultant just making sure everything is ok before any surgery. At least I got my appointment to see the surgeon brought forward. So let's see how it goes.
Now now has anyone has this happen lol after nearly 4 months of diorea, how have I managed to put on 4 fecking pound. I must have lost that down my poor old bog. I will leave you now with that nice thought for a Saturday morning. Have a nice one.
lol lol lol
sue x X X X