I had lymphoma in '99 , breast cancer in 2005 and have just had a mastectomy for another breast cancer. I had just embarked on ordination training to become a hospital chaplain-ironic eh?!
Have just been told today that I must take tamoxifen.
Expected to take this news in my stride but am feeling really angry. Looking at the side effects ( and I appreciate that might get lucky and not have any !!!!!) it seems that this move will mess up my studies ( confusion? Inability to concentrate?) and any normal life.
At the same time am feeling guilty -I'm alive, I'm lucky, I'm able to turn down chemo.
BUT this is the third time and I'm SO furious. I want my life back!
Roller coaster eh?
How much will Tamoxifen blow things for me? I'm post menopausal ( first lot of chemo did that for me at 39) and doing a very demanding post grad course with practical placements.
Here I was trying to do somethng useful with my life , and...
Yes, I know this will be useful! But been there, done that!