sorry you are having such a hard time with it all, yes it would seem it is all ' normal '
I find myself focusing on the things that go wrong, getting really angry and frustrated, the constant waiting, but that's just me turning my anger at the cancer outwards I think. I could give you a list of things that have annoyed me and gone wrong but at the end of the day all the individuals I have met so far have been great and really tried to help me.
one thing for me is that I was diagnosed from my scan so I had no symptoms, no lump, no pain, I was feeling great, then it all changed. In one day.
If you want to rant, cry, scream just go ahead, you will get there in the end but the journey is so difficult. I have to just go with the flow.
Sorry to hear your appointment didn't go well and you felt that they didn't treat you well - that is awful and I can understand your frustration.
Hugs Jaye xx