Oh sueW, I'm so sorry to read this and sorry you didn't get the results you were expecting. I can Imagine you feel the rug has been pulled from underneath you. Take time to process it all as you need to. Focus on the next step. X
I was in your shoes roughly this time two years ago. Consultant was convinced there was no spread to nodes after several biopsies and ultrasound seemed to indicate clear. I was gobsmacked when I found out at my results meeting that one node had a large macromet and my tumour was 4cm instead of 2cm and that it was now chemo instead of just going straight to hormone therapy as I'd been lead to believe. Never thought I'd get to the other side and enjoy life again but I did and I am. And so will you. None of it was as horrible as I imagined.
Your team will make sure you get the best treatment plan for your particular needs and there is loads of support here from those who have been through it all and those who are going through it at the same time as you.
Indulge yourself this evening.
I am so sorry to hear that you did not get the results you were hoping for. I know it might not feel like it now but once you have had chance to take it all in and you get your new treatment plan you will be able to move forward. This is doable and you can get through it, it might be worth going on to the Going Through Treatment section where there are threads for chemo and the lovely ladies on there will be able to help and support you
You are in my thoughts tonight and sending you a hug xxxxx
Really sorry to hear your news. I'm still a total newbie to all this breast cancer stuff so I don't have any words of wisdom or useful advice to impart but you'll get through this. We all will and we'll all be here to offer each other whatever support we can. Well, as much support as is possible over the internet. I know even when I don't really have time to post here or respond to people (sorry about that, life just gets in the way sometimes) I do find it a comfort to have a quick read of the forum in the odd snatched five minutes I might get.
Stay strong Sue xxx
I wish i could find the rights words to comfort you, but I really don't know what they are, except to say that I have 3 friends who had breast cancer all of whom had extensive treatment all of whom are still going strong 7 years later. I know it sounds completely trite but it is true it's amazing what they can do now. I am saying this having been told today that I have to have a mastectomy, and that at this stage they do not think there is any lymph node involvement, in the next breath the consultant said they cannot be certain. While I was axpecting it, I am still in shock. I just want to curl up and vanish. I know I cannot and I know I have to be brave and tell myself it could be worse I have to keep going for my children and grandchildren, but just tonight I am having a night off and feeling sorry for myself, I shall eat and drink whatever I want and hopefully get up tomorrow ready to face whatever is thrown at me. you are absolutely entitled to feel as you do, i don't know about you but for me it's the total loss of control, there is nothing I can do about it. The only thing I think I can do is keep as well and strong as possible, so I am in the best condition I can be to face the future. My thoughts and prayers are with you
Sue, I am so sorry to hear that and I don't know what else to say really only that you are in my thoughts and sending a big hug to you xxx