Hi Joanne, it is a scary time and I felt exactly the same when I was first diagnosed. I have had several months of chemo and just finished radiotherapy too. it is tiring and I too found it hard to speak to people about it, in fact i was quite horrible to people initially as I didn't know how to deal with my feelings.
But hey, its human nature to become accustomed to stuff, both good and bad and you will adjust. Have you spoken to your breast care nurse? mine is great and so reassuring without being sugary sweet.
I am not usually one to go on internet forums but i write in something most days on the forum for my chemop which was February 2014 and receive so much camaraderie and support.
You will get there, be kind to yourself and watch out for the tactless comments from friends and family.I have realised they only want to help but sometimes they are anything but!!
Love Sue x
Joanne it is a relatively short time in your life to give you hope for the future. You really do need the support of others around you and one of the best ways is by using this forum. If you join the monthly thread that you commence chemo you will follow the journey with others going through everything that you are. We don't all have the same side effects and their are medications to take to ease any of the side effects. Don't keep all this to yourself share with others and you will find you get the strength to proceed! Good luck with your appointment next week and hopefully it will give you the reassurance that you need. x