Ah thanks for your lovely words Rozita! 🙂
It can be hard sometimes and i think i was just having a 'black' couple of days at the weekend.
Suppose the swimming kind of triggered things for me, made me aware of my own scarred chest area and back. But as you say, we are still here, so need to make the most of the good days hey!
Hope i haven't offended anyone reading this, if i have, it wasn't intentional, but some times what i would give to have two natural healthy breasts again. Never mind.
Here's to more good years ahead Rozita!
Can any of us truly say that we have lived the perfect lifestyles? No alcohol, no processed foods, no meat, perfect weight, perfect excercise regime? I think not.
The way I look at it is that it takes a combination of factors to create a cancer that takes hold, a perfect storm if you like. The genetic error has to occur to cause it in the first place, it has to defend itself against the bodies defence systems to keep on growing and so on, perhaps a generic link in your family helps it along.
So a bad lifestyle choice in itself won't cause cancer, some these other things have to be in place as well.
The helpline are there for you for as long as you need support, how ever many years have gone by since your diagnosis, people's needs/concerns change over the years so please don't hesitate to give them a call.
Naz I am sure the helpline have all the time in the world for you. Just like they have for all of us. There is no time limit on grief.
But I'm sitting here crying because I'm the overweight smoker and I got it too.
Hi Naz, I read your post earlier and have been thinking about what you have said. I too have days like yourself,when I see really large ladies and I think it's not fair! I have always looked after my weight and have never smoked and eaten a healthy diet! I returned to the gym last week for the first time after 18 months, I had a lumpectomy,stage 3 hert2 er+. I saw it as a small achievement in my recovery. I try to tell myself that all the women I see may have had some kind of health problem, or are going to! There will be women I see that may have already been through this, or may go through it, we just don't know peoples circumstances! I know it's really difficult but ,hey,you are still here, and well done for being confident enough to go swimming! This is how I'm trying to deal with it, I hope it helps a little.
Sorry you're feeling cross! Here's the link to BCC's publication 'moving forward - support for you', I hope you find it helpful.
Please don't hesitate to call the helpline if you want to off load to someone away from family and friends, the staff are here to support you. 0808 800 6000, lines open again Monday morning at 9am.
Also here's the link to the area of this website where the impact of BC is discussed further.
I just feel cross. I miss my breast more than ever and it has been nearly 5 years now! I hate how BC has messed with my brain. I went swimming today, and all i could focus on, was how NONE of the women had any scars going across their back and how everything looked 'normal' Just when i think i am done with grieving over my pre BC body, i get hit with a wave of sadness and pain. So sick of it all now, i just wish it had never bloody happened to me and to some fat unheatlhy smoke instead!
Just feel fed up today.