That's tough Buster. I had a couple of stays in isolation during my chemo days for infections. Hope you have plenty of things to occupy yourself with plus a good internet connection ! A life saver when it works. Also at least you are in the right place to mention your heart problem and get them to check it out so you can hopefully set your mind at reast - one less thing to worry about.
Thinking of you and wishing you a speedy end to the infection,
Best wishes, Gill x
I came back in to hospital again this morning with an infection needing iv antibiotics. Not sure where it's coming from yet. So stuck in for at Least a few days. Trying to keep my chin up xxx
We should be so grateful we are cancer free etc.etc.BUT still feel C**p.....this is so hard for us all.I have a swollen abdomen following my DIEP,after failed implants from double Mx.I struggle,look at myself,and people say,oh,I have a tummy,but mine is uncomfortable,and really wanted a flat tummy after all my surgery.
We need to be kind to our selves.Yes,haven't got cancer,or hope we haven't now,but,been through a horrible time,and lymphoedema etc is a reminder ......so yes,maybe we are cancer free,but have a wallow,have a wobbly,cry,eat chocolate and have a glass of wine or 3 .💓
Hi Goldie, I'm new to all this so it may not seem fair that I'm comparing us. But I totally understand how you must feel. I already see someone else when I look in the mirror. I don't always think of how I look then I see my reflection of my weird shaped reconstructed breast of 9 weeks without a nipple. I then see the very short hair. My face and chest after starting chemo are bright red! My armpit is like orange peel. I so took my not so perfect pre surgery body for granted. And I know what you mean when you cope. We do cope but have been forced to. We don't have a choice and its that that makes me scared. I'm scared now that I've let a complete stranger pump poison into me (first round was Friday) and am now reading of the risks of permanent damage to my heart that no one mentioned and I already have a problem with it that no one has checked on. I'm digressing I know but none of this is our fault and feeling 'hard done by' now and again is allowed and I'm only sorry I can't soothe your hurt but knowing others understand hopefully helps a little. Big hugs, you've come along way. Wish me luck in doing as well as you lovely ladies. Buster1 xxxx
Your post could have been written by me! I completely understand how you feel as I too have a fat arm, thin hair, weight gain- not to mention the aching joints ! I've had to wear a sleeve for two years now and it always feels worse in the summer when I can't hide it. To make matters worse if I ever do leave it off my arm is lily-white compared to the other one ! I think it is a constant reminder that we've had cancer and I can never think of the right thing to say when asked "what have you done to your arm ?". I know what I'd like to say !!
I'd love to say something to make you feel better but quite honestly I think the best thing to do is to have a rant on this site as we are probably the only people who can truly understand our complex feelings.
Big but gentle hug, Gill x
Well I think you do right to be pee-ed off, people do want to say kind things , but that doesn't stop you feeling sad and cross and how unfair this is. Sooooo, maybe time for a bit of counselling, maybe? if for no other reason you can have a bit of a meltdown in private with someone who won't try to say come on buck up or its not so bad?
It might be that you can go via you BCN, or if you can afford it treat yourself to a few sessions? Or phone the helpliners on this site, or, maybe keep having a good post here because we do care about eachother.
Hope you are ok, with love, Caroline