As everybody else said already - it is normal. I am usually easy with relaxing and not worrying, but no meditation or relaxation helped to ease the fear I had while waiting. Those two weeks of waiting and not knowing if my whole body was already being eaten by cancer was the most scary time of my life. I still haven´t started treatment (surgery in 3 weeks, then chemo), but at least I now know what I am facing and can gather my strength, and I can sleep again. Once you know you can concentrate on the next step. I hope you´ll get your results quickly!
I know exactly how you feel. I too was told the two tumours were very small, and that it would be surgery then radiotherapy, and that they did not think it had spread to the lymph nodes. Up to the surgery I was focused on the actual operation, wanting the cancer out of me,, but for the past two weeks since the operation I have been torturing myself with the 'what ifs'. Sometimes I am very positive, but now I am telling myself that I should be preparing for the worst. I get my results tomorrow (Tuesday 22nd) and I just feel sick all the time now. JK, let's just keep hoping and praying for each other, and all the others on this site who are trapped in this terrible waiting game. I'll let you know.
jk you are perfectly normal!
We all found the waiting so hard, the constant worry, and I understand your point of not standing it that other people knew about you and you didn't.
Try not to google - I'm guilty, and just wanted to read positive stories, that made me feel hopeful, negative ones filled me with angst.
It's a tough time, especially if you're looking after children as well.You're nearly there, stay strong, you can do it - one more full day then you get your results.