Thank you all for your lovely comments and support. I'm doing ok, just the odd wave of panic. My girls were so thoughtful yday for Mothers Day and I kept thinking how much pain and upset I am going to cause them this week when I break the news to them but hoping if they can see me strong and positive this will help them accept it all. I just want to get on with the treatment but at the moment the op on 1st April still feels a long way off so I've decided the best way to deal with the waiting is to keep busy so I'm starting by redecorating our bedroom! Take care and love to you all xxx
Morning all. Thank you for your lovely messages, its so good to be able to talk to people to know exactly what you are going through. Am trying to keep positive and busy, but admit get waves of panic at times. My girls are 21,19 and 17 and I know will help me through this but how I wish I didn't have to put them through it. Telling them this week, want to wait until the elder two are home from Uni so at least they aren't getting the news on their own away from home. The family and friends I have told are bring amazing, poor Mum and Dad took it hard and hubby I think can't quite take it in. BC nurse phoned me yday to check I was OK and answer some if my questions, what lovely people they are. Really want to know the full extent and what the long term plan is but will have to wait 2-3 weeks after op for all results to be known so looks like mid to end of April before I know for sure. Pre op assessment next Friday and haircut, dentist and GP also so lots to do to keep me occupied. Off today to buy a post surgery bra, which might make it feel a bit less surreal. Love and hugs to you all xx
Hello lovely ladies
So today I found out I've joined your club too. I met with surgeon who told me the results of my repeated biopsy on the lump is malignant and so is the calcification. I have to have a mastectomy on 1st April with deferred reconstruction as until they know extent of cancer they can't say if chemo and /or radiotherapy is needed. Was kind of expecting it to be BC but not quite the extent. Was (and have continued to be) calm about it all which threw Consultant somewhat. Telling my parents was so hard and I know telling my 3 girls will be equally tough, feel terrible having to put them all through this distress and worry. The thought it of needing chemo is what is freaking me out most but guess I will deal with it if it comes to it.
Anyway, enough of my ramblings, just wanted to say Hi and thank you in advance as I'm sure these forums will continue to help me keep my sanity. Jules xx