Hi Millasmummy and Jen
I also have a large lump which isn't shrinking. I am having my third round of chemo on Wednesday. My oncologist seemed to be expecting it to shrink so I've also been getting paranoid and worried. I am really reassured by Jen's reply as no one told me the purpose of the chemo was to zap the stray cells. I've also had all sorts of weird sensations in the breast and was worried as it seemed to be getting bigger - my breast felt solid and inflamed.
I have been trying not to think about it - planning a cruise for next year, watching box sets and (a bit ashamed to admit this) watching Big Brother to remind me that there's sill a happy, shallow world out there. I'm also planning holding a tea party for when this is over.
Millasmummy, hopefully the next chemo will do its job. I spoke to my breast care nurse and she said treatment two was still early days. I tell myself that as my oncologist and the nurse don't appear too worried I shouldn't be either. The oncologist also told me that there are always other options - not sure what they are but at least they are there.
Its hard not to think about it and worry though. Hopefully we will both get the results we want soon. Sending you good wishes and a big hug.