Whitfield, the whole thing as you say is horrendous. It really is especially in the early days. Waiting for results are extremely draining but the good thing is it gives the medics a full picture of what treatment you need. I had node involvement, high grade and her2 positive. Thought it was an immediate death sentence. I no longer think that as I have got through the treatment and doing my best to get fitter. I have met ladies who have had secondaries for over ten years and continue to get treatment. At the moment you dont have a diagnosis of secondary bc and it is normal practice when there is node involvement to do scans. Things will improve over the next few months once treatment starts, take your time focus on the future and do everything you can to stay healthy and fit. We all would like to think we would die at an old age however life is not like that. Cancer survival rates are improving all the time and the treatments for this cancer is good, so take heart. Good luck with the results. Take care.
Its sounds like you're having a tough time at the moment. Whilst you wait for the other users to reply if you need additional support do give the helpline a call on 0808 800 6000. Here you can talk through your feelings and concerns with a member of staff who will offer you a listening ear as well as emotional support and practical information. Lines are open weekdays 9 to 5pm and Saturday 10 to 2pm.
Best wishes Sam, BCC Facilitator