Just thought i'd mention on here that i've started a new poetry thread and theres a great poem on it, and not by me this time!
I started chemo 2yrs ago today and i have felt delicate and unhappy all day. Each milestone brings back fairly unpleasant memories and whilst i am in a much MUCH better place, everything is still not back to how it was before C.
Step at a time i guess
I haven't posted on the forum since the start of the year but I visit every few days to read everyone's posts and to keep upto date with what's happening - I have just read Tors poem and had to post as it sums me up exactly at the moment I have 2 more weeks of rads left and have done nothing but cry since yesterday even in the car today going to my appointment- don't know why I am like this but just reading your poem Tors has made me realise that I am not alone thank you xx
Thanks everyone 🙂
Feeling much better today, was having a tricky few days last week when I wrote this, any emotional blip seems to magnify and get a grip these days, but I know they pass.
I am in a different place to you, Old, grown up kids, benign sort of cancer that is not likely to spread.
but reading this I nearly cried, I have not cried yet through all this, but this nearly did it.
must be great to have this skill.
perhaps someone should get a book of poems together and publish it in aid of cancer research.
That is so well expressed, it should be published.
It really captures how most of us feel about BC. Hope it was cathartic for you too.
Today i think that I
have really had enough
No more smiling "all is well"
Cos I'm feeling really rough
My hair is crap, my eyebrows scarce
My breast is sore and wonky
My tummy's fat, my nails are cracked
I'm just feeling really shonky.
I'm 37 but feeling 60,
Menopausal wit hot flushes
Friends avoid discussing it
I think to save their blushes.
No more periods, no more babies
No big family for me
Though highchair, car seat, pram and cot
Are waiting patiently.
"Count your blessings", "You're all clear"
All very well intentioned
"You caught it early, you'll be fine"
The deaths are seldom mentioned.
Desperate to put time behind me
To be a few years older,
So i can try to live without
This monkey on my shoulder.