Just a quickie as going to move up into my bed...
I too am feeling really sick over forthcoming chemo,hope its just that tho and not the bug my son has had!!
Saying that i seem to have a cough and a cold...will they still do chemo??panicking a bit now!!
Hope youre all ok??
Hello looking for help but not sure where I fit in? I'm a 4yr and 9mth survivor. 53years old On tamoxifen. Had a coil fitted in July and last period was 42days!!! I am crippled with depression at the moment and I'm wondering if its BC related? It sounds silly but I'm all clear in 3 months so should be on an upbeat surely?
Trying to lose weight and I don't drink much, sad aren't I.
I go to our local church's christmas fete and what do I win, a bottle of teachers whiskey, not only is that sad but it was the same bottle of whiskey that I won at the summer fete, you couldn't make it up, well you could but one one would believe you. The most I drink is a glass of wine with dinner on holiday.
What a horrible day you had. Sounds like you need chocolate and wine more than hot lemon and tablets. The waiting is really the worse bit of the whole thing.
Keep your chin up.....we're thinking of you x
Had a really sh...y day. Everything was going well until I phoned for a DLA form and was asked if my illness was terminal. I said that I had been diagnosed with BC but had my op and was beeing treated. She said that the special rules don't apply then and I would have to have the needs for 3 bloody months before I could get it, but she would send the forms out to get it started. I very nearly told her where to stick her bloody forms,except I was too upset to talk and just said thank you.
Can't stop crying, feel ill anyway as I have a cold and cough (hold your new boobs) very sorry for myself.
Going to dose myself up with cough medicine but granddaughter has the same as me, so I gave it to her to take home.
Oh well out comes the hot lemon and more bloody tablets.
Think I am low because of the wait to see the oncologist, I don't feel in control anymore. Should see him in the new year and then start the rest of my treatment, but can't book anything because have to wait for the appointments and treatment plan.
I want my life back. Ann R
hi my dear just letting you know i was diagnosed the same as you ,best way of coping is to be strong minded and positive ,ive had a left breast mastectomy in october 2010 ,the bc nurses and the surgeon was amazing ,im now on tamoxifen and so far so good no side effects have troubled me , the only trouble im getting is im haveing trouble sleeping on my left side ,but also ive had good support from my sister who has had both breast removed as breast cancer is hereditary, hope all goes well with you hun xx
Nope, still here - Santa didn't want me 😞 !!! Had my appt. with hair lady yesterday and got short brown wig - nothing special, but it looked fine on, was the second one I tried, and I decided that would do. Wig lady quite surprised at how brief my visit to her was...lol. Still can't see me wearing it often, so not much point in stressing over which cut is the most perfect, not for me, anyhow.
Starting to feel sick over last two days at thought of chemo starting on friday...
feeling sick over how much christmas has cost us even though we have little coming in with me off sick... wish the bloody insurance would hurry up and pay out.. or just contact me! Wish the bloody credit card company would do likewise... (one card issuer sorted and paying out within a fortnight, the other card has so far taken a month of paperwork with no result yet.... just what I need at the moment).
Still - eldest daughter's birthday tomorrow so will be all smiley and cheerful, and have managed to get all presents wrapped/cards bought, just nipping into Amesbury now to get birthday cake as feel too sick to bake.. bad mum. Also, my good mum (!) sent me a cheque for christmas, so hurrying to pay that into bank, make a small divot in the overdraft. Not quite a dent, but a good will gesture to the bank manager!!!
Will catch up with you all later and do proper replies etc etc.
Big love to all
I promised to leave Santa alone so they just let me out of gaol!
Mel- I'm really sorry to hear about your Uncle. 2010 has been a really c**p year for us lot hasn't it? How did the pre chemo tests go?
Anna - I agree with SJ that your daughter should take advice. Union or Citizens advice? Do you have a cancer support centre or something similiar, as mine do Citizens Advice sessions for me or my family. I hope your daughter is ok. My son got made redundant 3 times last year (twice by the same company as they took him back after a month but then sacked him again 3 months later!) and I know how awful it was for him and your daughter has other things to deal with. May her boss's soul .... (although she probably has sold it already).
Ali - you will feel so much better after the dressing is off and the soreness will go just as you decide that you will be uncomfortable for the rest of your life. Maybe, it is just me or has anyone else's inner 7 year old reappeared?
Weirdly, my underarm has become a smell - free and virtually hair free zone. I wonder if it is the E45 as I am moisturising a lot pre-rads?
I had better do something as I have a day at home waiting in for the roofman. I fear my roof is leaking as the top of the Christmas decorations trunk was wet (ARRRRGH!) Roll on 2011!
Oh I forgot, havent had dressing changed since the op. I think something may have crawled up and died under my armpit! I feel sooooo sorry for the nurse tomorrow!!!!
Im back, had a few days off as no internet connection. Seeing onc tomorrow for results after WLE and SNB 2 weeks ago. Been feeling quite sore and quite down but all your threads have cheered me up! Christmas, well it has finally hit home that it is nearly here and Im not ready at all, think Ill pospone it till next year!
Oooh i forgot!! Wednesday i'm going to Haliford Studios?? for a wig fitting!! Such a busy social life i have this week...dressings today,pre-chemo tests tomorrow,wig fitting Weds and dressings,chemo on thurs and dressings on fri!! Yes girls i am only going every other day this week as it is FINALLY healing!!
Anna how awful for you and your daughter,and a woman too??
Do ask about not having the tattoos...
Why does everything always happen at xmas???
I have had a really s**t weekend....i did an emergency dash to my Aunt and Uncles early evening on friday(no i still haven't been given permission to drive,but needs must and its only about 50 miles)and was able to be there when my Uncle lost his 2 year fight with lung cancer at the age of 59.My Aunt who is 56 has also had treatment in the last year for cancer...what a family eh?
Lots and tears(and laughter) have been spilt this weekend and i am shattered!!
Tomorrow is pre chemo tests??? and thursday is D day or C day as it should be called!!
Sophie and Wendy have you run off with Santa???
They didn't ask me if I wanted tattoos they just did it and the one between my breasts is very visible with some tops . My advice is get in quick with saying you don't want them !!
Thanks, Tanya, for the tattoo replacement suggestion...
just in time! (I hope) as my appt is this aft.
Thank you, SJ, for your supportive comments.
My daughter's boss is actually a woman, a mother with young
children, which makes it all the more unbelievable for me.
(But it shouldn't, compassion is not confined to the female
I'm appalled for your daughter, poor you and her......b*****d!
If she followed the correct procedure for requesting holiday, I don't see how he can fire her, specially if he agreed to the earlier unpaid leave, without conditions (such as you cannot take holiday until such and such a date).
She should take advice, as I'm sure he cannot just fire her for requesting holiday, if she still has days left to take.
My eldest lost her job today. She's 24 and lives
in London and I am just gutted for her.
Her boss is the business owner and she did not
like the fact that my daughter took time off work
(unpaid) to come to Bristol and help after my
So when my daughter asked for time off at
Christmas (a month in advance)--in particular
to spend time with my 83-yo mother who is
here to help me with childcare during my
rads--she got fired!
I'm really upset. Tomorrow is my rads planning
appt and I just don't want to get tattooed.
It feels too invasive. It's such a small thing, in the
grand scheme of things, but sometimes it's the
small things that are hard!!!
Thanks for listening, guys. WHERE is everyone?
Did you all go off and start a new thread without me?
I think it is a bit tough dieting at this time of year but with BC...
Feeling guilty now as I always buy crackers. Still if I hide them under the bed, none of you lot will know! That's assuming that anything else will fit under there!
That good news so far, Sarah.
Am waiting for the Dr to phone to say about sick note. Next time I will get an appointment as I have been waiting since 8.30! To be fair, I knew it wouldn't be until after morning surgery but don't dare go anywhere in case. I am BORED!
All this talk of dieting while i am sat here with a bag of cadburys caramel nibbles! I seem to be like Sophie and enjoying too much chocolate and sofa time!! I have NO will power at all at the moment!!
I think ive over done it a bit today,I think it was the excitement of having a day off from having dressings changed!! I did a bit of shopping in town and then went to a friends for lunch and then took son to his martial arts and then picked OH up from work and have spent last 2 hours wrapping presents!!...Not very sensible for someone who is not supposed to drive or do anything really!! Suffering a bit now but have popped a few pills and will head off to bed shortly!!
Sarah i too would ask for a biopsy,I know what you mean about waiting but in the end you will have piece of mind.
Night all,,,chocolate to finish 🙂 xx
Lol, it wasn't me who lost 4lb.. wish it were!!! Though I prob lost that when I had mx... but have piled it on since diagnosis, far too much chocolate and sofa time combined. Hey ho, plenty of time next summer to get back in shape - I wanted to lose about another stone and a half before dx.. having lost 2 stone over this summer, but think I'll be closer to needing to lose 3 stone in total by the end of chemo, at the rate I'm putting it on!!!
I'm just so weak willed at the moment, everything is hard work, and I really don't have the motivation. Besides, my chemo nurse told me to eat what i fancied through chemo, even if it's 'bad food'.. so I'm getting into practise before I start!!!
My Mii on the Wii goes up and down like the weather - one day I'm a portly little balloon character, and the next I'm just a little rotund..but at least my character is always smiling, and has long hair!!
Well done Sophie on losing 4 lb. I haven't been to class since the op, but am going tomorrow night. I did think ofweighing myself just after I came out, but I only have the Wii and that lies a lot (ha ha) seriously, it always weighs differently everytime I get on it even on the same day. Don't know about losing weight, I can say my bust was a g cup and now they are down to a b, so that may equal a pound or two. Unfortunately I haven't been sticking to my diet since comeing out of hospital, so not looking for a lose.
Julie I may ask my bc nurse about the exercise dvd. I usually go on the Wii a lot but not been able to do it since op.
Sarah, the op is good anytime. The sooner this thing is out of our bodies the better we can get on with our lives. There is life after BC. Take care everyone. x
I think I'd ask for it to be biopsied, just so I knew for sure what it actually was. It's all very well being told it's harmless, but I'd want to know what sort of harmless! Do know what you mean about it being more results to hang on for, though.
Yes, I'm looking forward to our Romsey meet up too! Just hope the coffee shop has decent heating, as it's freezing here today!!! See you at 11!
I know what you mean about Xmas, same with pay day for me, luckily I had gone out a cpl of weeks ago & got as much food items for Xmas as I could & a cpl of stocking fillers for the kids but nothing else yet.
Am going to try & crack on with it next week.
Have a busy cpl of days coming up,our coffee meet tomorrow, which i am very much looking forward to, my birthday on Friday 😞 & my daughters leaving do on Saturday as she will be moving on Sunday from Devon back to me 🙂 & then numerous appointments next week.
I mentioned to BCN yesterday that I am still worried about the lump in right breast that i originally went to clinic about that they have said is harmless after ultrsound & mammo but no biopsy but as its still there ( quite big & large) she has suggested that I ask consultant to biopsy it when i am asleep having op if only to put my mind at rest, not sure what to do as i dont want to get my head in a spin about it over Xmas but then again I would like to be able to put it to bed so to speak & get on with making the left one better.
Hope you have a good day today, see you tomorrow.
At this rate, Christmas in our house is just not going to happen! I always knew that it was entirely down to me...lol... OH is now realising just how true that was! Unfortunately, I don't get paid from either job until 23rd.. and with chemo on 17th, not sure how I'm going to brave Christmas shopping that close to the day! I have always prided myself on never needing to shop on Christmas Eve.... aaagh!
OH did say that we could go and use his bank card.. generous chap.. but every day I've suggested so far has been met with a look of horror that I actually believed him...
Eldest daughter is 15 on 15th, but luckily I had her organised long before bc struck...
How are we doing??....for some reason i haven't been able to bring myself to log on for a few days!
Still having dressings changed daily although they did let me have the weekend off(OH had to change top dressing on Sunday and went a bit green)but the smell i woke up to Monday morning was shameful!!
It was all cleaned up and redressed Monday and went back again today to have it done again and surgeon popped in to have a look.He seems pleased with it and even showed me the "hole" in a mirror!! He said it was tiny to what it was...how big was it then???Also still banned from driving but have been doing the odd journey!!Ssshhhhh!!
I pointed out what I thought was bruising that has appeared on my nipple and he said it was the dye from the SNB and was just more noticeable now all swelling etc had gone down.
Are we all ready for xmas??I am starting to think we may be bankrupt before then if my OH doesnt stop buying the kids stuff....and crackers??? The mans lost it!lol
Well thats enough about me...oh apart from my SNB scar is about 6cm!!
Hi Sarah, that is good news in the scheme of things - and I'm glad they took the time to explain things more thoroughly - it really does seem that once we know what we are facing, we get a new reserve of strength and just think 'bring it on'. The waiting is the awful part.
When is your surgery scheduled for? Not sure if you meant surgery was 6th Jan, or results from surgery were then. Was it you going in on Christmas Eve? (I'm losing the plot here.. and can talk to you on Thursday anyhow!!)
Am back from appointment & feel more relaxed now as all was explained in more detail to me.
Tumour is invasive ductal & measures approx 15 mm so quite small, it is oestrogen & progesterone positive & herceptin negative, providing all goes well with lump removal & SNB they are looking to give me radiotherapy for approx 3 weeks alongside tamoxifen for 3 to 5 yrs. Will get result from surgery on the 6th Jan so am going to try & think good thoughts till then.
Hope you are all well, glad it went well this morning for you Gwendoline & hope you are feeling better Alimbutt. Sarah.xxxxx
Hi everyone. Am freshly tatooed and scanned. No problems and didn't bat an eyelid at being done by male radiologist (was asked first) but then again, I would show my boobs to anyone who asked really.
Fellow radiotherapites, are you going to try aloe vera gel, some people recommended it on another thread. The radiologist said I can put anything I want on as long as he has read the ingredients and ok-ed them (to check for metals apparently). The mind boggles!!!
Hope you are feeling better today, Alimbutt?
Off to get Christmas tree soon as ex has volunteered to carry it for me. I'm really getting stuff done. Wonder if I can persuade the family to move Christmas forward and then I could clear it all up by Sunday!
My scars are SNB 5cms and WLE 6cms they don't really feel sore now but they do twinge from time to time especially the snb one. No probs with aqueous cream except I don't like the smell can't wait to get back to my normal moisturiser! No probs with rads so far apart from getting there! Three down twelve to go. Hope you got to your early morning planning ok Wendy.
Just had my OH check length of scars...WLE is 5 cm
(sort of a straight line from nipple to armpit but
starts at edge of aereola.) and SNB is 3 cm.
I'm ok with looking at them but
haven't really touched them. Not sure how I'm
going to manage smothering the area in aqueous
cream (rads) but will manage somehow.
That's the thing about bc....we do somehow manage!
But having you guys out there helps a lot...
I'd be really surprised if you had two days like that
in a row. Just hang in there!!
Big hugs Alimbutt, the rough days really suck, but tomorrow will be better.
I dont know why my SNB scar is bigger, but the WLE is probably because when they got the lump out they then found there was a satellite one further over and lots of pre - cancerous cells around too. I reckon thats why they cut bigger cos they said it would only be about 3-4cm cut originally. Also it must depend on the surgeon.
lol ... Im the same with my kitchen knives - stick to my favourite which is the cheapest of them all but definately the best!
Good luck with your early start tomorrow - don't forget to allow a bit extra time for traffic at that time in the morning! At least you'll get a parking space easily in the hospital!
My lowest day so far since my dx. No real reason for it, just feeling low and badly done to! Have tried everything to take my mind off this blessed BC but nothing seems to work. Havent got an appt yet to see onc, op was last week and I feel really sore today. Had a fall out with my OH and no chocolate in the house!Roll on bedtime and hope to start tomorrow in a better state of mind x
Just looked at rads appoimtments again and the planning is at 8am! I'm usually still in bed thinking about getting up at that time...
I wonder why all the scars are different? Mine are all about 3cm long, even the WLE one. I reckon that my surgeon only has the one knife or else he's like me, I have a whole set of kitchen knives but I only ever use my favourite one!
Sophie - yes the SNB scar is under my arm - about 5cm in a curved shape and the WLE one is 9cm long (straight).
Having a happier day today as weight is coming off (about 4lb since seeing plastic surgeon Monday last week). Proper weigh in day is Wednesday at slimming world - but I started diet as soon as I got home from PS appointment.
Wendy - Good luck with rads planning Tuesday - will they do your first treatment at the same time?
Have a happy Monday everyone
My daughter is 20 & then i have 3 boys 16,12 & 11. thank you for your kind words.
Gwendoline i know exactly what you mean, i think us mums always worry however old they are, my dad still makes me ring to say i am safe, bless him & I am 40.
Sophie, she is indeed a star, dont know what I would do without her, she has been a tower of strength to me & i cant believe how brave she was when i was told as i am sure i nearly cut the blood supply off to her arm the way I was squeezing her hand.
I've got three scars. One for the WLE (luckily they did both of them in same place)and two for the SNB but they are only 3 or 4 cm long My sister-in-law's are only a year old and you can hardly see them.
Oh Sarah, how I remember that feeling of your child being a new driver. I made mine text me as soon as they got anywhere and I must have been fairly neuotic as they still do if they've been on a long journey at 26/23!
Alison - I found when the anaesthetic wore off the SNB was uncomfortable too. I found doing the excercises really helped and wondered if they helped clear the lymph? Listen to me, I didn't even know what lymph was before! I ate Christmas choccies too. Delicious but then took to cheaper maltesers.
Rads planning on Tuesday. I am almost excited about it! Something that doesn't hurt at last!
Going to hold you to the free signed copy of your book, Sophie.
Sorry you've had to join our bc club, but glad you have found
this beacon of sanity, support and good humour online!
I will be having radiation on Dec 24th, so I will think of you
having your surgery. I agree with everyone, better to get that
out of the way asap, even if it is Xmas Eve.
If you don't mind saying, how older are your children?
I have daughters of 24, 20 and 10 years old and a son of 15.
Guys, my meltdown day was Saturday (not Friday), buckets of
tears, wandering off the high street so no one could hear me,
looking for quiet streets to sob in...Amazing that this has been
my only big melt-down since dx 14 Oct 2010, have had many
calm, positive days.
Hoping you all have a good Monday out there...
Sarah, your daughter sounds an absolute star, so glad you've got such great support from one so young... I dread to think how horribly selfish I was at 20!
Nicola - your post made me curious - of course it totally makes sense to have two different scars if you had wle and snb - does the snb scar come right under your armpit? I had mx and anc, and it was all done through the same site, so I've got no scar whatsoever under my armpit, they must have gone up through the long incision across my chest. I hadn't considered the different scarring before!!
Am glad you have not had & are not in too much pain.
Lorraine, I keep looking at that user name & thinking how depressing but not sure how to change it, also am guilty of looking like some kind of spy,lol, was so desperate to get onto forums that i couldnt think straight but then saying that, I dont often think straight anyway as am all over the place most of the time.
Am glad everyone is feeling ok, I am off now to tackle clearing the spare room as have my gorgeous daughter moving home next Sunday which I am very excited about, she had planned to move before Thursday's news & am glad to be having her home as for the last 2 weeks she has been driving up & down to Bournemouth from Devon to be with me at appointments & of course like any mum i worry until she arrives/returns home safely as she is only 20 & hasnt had licence long & the roads have been so bad this last week, she has also been a treasure at taking her 2 small brothers under her wing & giving lots of cuddles & reassurance, i dont know what i would do without her 🙂
Any way, speak soon, hope you all have a good day.Sarah.xx
Just saw your post Sarah (not hard to work out how you came by your user name then!!) Ditto to everything that Sophie said about your surgery christmas eve - there's no better excuse to be waited on hand a foot!
I am waiting for mastectomy, and to be honest if they would just get on with it I would rather be in over the whole of xmas than wait till January!
I too had a rubbish day yesterday Sophie, not least cos I weighed myself and hadn't lost anything since Monday, and my hubby who has been eating the same slimming world meals as me as well as any biscuits, cake, chocolate, crisps etc that were in the house to make sure I wasnt tempted has somehow managed to lose 4lb. Grrrrr!!!!
And then he persuaded me that I really wanted to go to the archery shop with him to pick up his new bow (xmas pressie)which would only be 15 minutes in the shop (plus 45 mins there and 45 mins back!) while they adjust it (and then I could go to sainsburys and buy the fruit I was going out for as I am running low on the way back.) ... in fact we were 2 and half hours in the archery shop (very very boring for non archers like me!) and I was getting hungry and hadnt yet bought the fruit! (and my son kept saying can we stop for Mc Donalds on the way home ... Noooooooo!!)
Revenge is sweet though - he's gone to archery this morning, and I told him I'm wrapping up his new bow for christmas and no he can't use it today ... Tee hee!!!
I know I will lose weight though, Slimming world is really good and you don't go hungry (unless stuck in archery shop with no food!)
and I have lost weight with them before.
Thanks for all the encouragement and advise from everyone about the diet .. it all is a huge help!
Ann - 4 stone is amazing - I'm sticking to extra easy too, I will look on facebook and there are some fab recipes in the slimming world magazine too!
Anna - apparently the green dye causes quite a stir in theatre - they inject it and like magic it trails through to the nodes creeping across the skin. They started trialing it last year and are testing it on 100 women (I was about no. 55 so I don't think they have many people agree to it). I think its also used in cardiac surgery, and so far they haven't had any problems with it.
Alison - nearly four weeks on from my WLE my nipple still doesnt feel like my own (don't know if anyone else has that??), my lump was about 1 inch under my nipple and now the swelling has gone down I can see a real difference in size between them especially if I put my arms up in the air with no clothes on!!! (really must stop doing that or people will talk!!) Though with clothes on they look the same size. The pain from surgery didnt last long and wasnt terrible, it was worse on SNB scar. I still get some pain but it is the same occasional stabbing pain and achy pain that I had in my boob that took me to the GP in the first place!
Blimey I've written an essay!
- hope all is well for you all today
love nicola x
Think anesthetic worn off now as I am in a bit of discomfort, nothing major but just annoying as I really want to get on with things. My left nipple, as predicted is facing under my armpit and my right nipple facing south as usual, not such a bad look in the scheme of things. Sarah, had WLE and SNB on Wednesday 1st Dec and was home Friday. Had to stay in extra day due to sleep apnia problems but am really ok. Worse part now is waiting for the results. Pain 2/10, Discomfort, 2/10, Emotions well just started my period so away with the fairies as usual and eating as much chocolate as I can find in the house, even some Xmas present chocs that I bought for family!! Did I also mention to you guys that I have a prolapse? Oh well, appointment for pelvic scan 20th December, cant wait...not!!! Hope you are all having a good weekend, Keep smiling x Alison x
Thank you Sophie, hugs & love coming back to you.Sarah.xx
Good morning Sarah! This forum is an excellent tonic at times - it's also a great place for a rant to understanding friends!!
Well done on writing down your questions - now just remember to take them with you. I'll keep it all crossed for good news on the tests you have had done.
Christmas Eve is a bit poo - but if it were afterwards, you'd just spend christmas worrying about it, at least this way you should be home in time for christmas dinner, and you have a cast iron excuse for not being able to help with the preparation/washing up etc etc. And you prob. won't want to be lifting your arm high enough to put a stupid paper hat on.. so you'll get out of that too. Plus, all the hospital staff will be extra cheerful and concerned for you... so there are bonuses if you look hard enough... ((((hugs))))
You will have the odd 'down day', that's absolutely permitted. Yesterday was my 'rant day'.. and I've been forgiven already (and joined by a lot of others.. oops!!). Today is a much better day, and that's just the way it goes.
have just been reading through the posts on this thread, i think i have spoken with a cpl of you on a different thread but just wanted to say how happy & friendly your posts all sound & what a help it has been to me since my DX on Thursday.
Yesterday was my 1st down day since finding out & reading all your posts helped me so much & actually made me smile, so thank you all of you was just what i needed.
I have an appointment on Tuesday with BCN & have managed to organise myself into writing down the questions that have come to mind the last cpl of days, am obviously praying for good news on the receptor tests & am crossing everything, am not looking forward to surgery on Xmas Eve WLE & Sentinel lymph Node Biopsy but have decided not to not concentrate on the date as lets be honest is any day a good day.
Anyway thanks once again & please keep writing as it is giving me something else to concentrate on & look forward to.
Take care everyone much love to you all,Sarah.xxxx
ragamuffin - if I ever get a book written all the great girls on here will get a free signed copy, but I'll still make you all come to Waterstones and make me look famous!!!!
ooo well done Ann ill have to have a look at the FB page as i need to shed the post-treatment pounds ( well stones ) i was given the execise dvd from BCN but havent had it out the box yet ha ha xxJulie
Just got back to London after being away for two and a half weeks and "off line". Have just caught up by reading from page 8 to page 21.
Wow -what alot has happened and several new posters as well. Sorry to hear about all the problems but pleased to hear of all the positive progress. I see you have all kept your sense of humour in tact. Loved the stories of chocolates (my weakness) cigarettes (given up a while ago) wine and flashing- are the last two connected in any way? A boob with a life of it's own Sophie!!! Get that book underway please and I'll buy one from you when you do your book signing at Waterstones!! Now I know why my daughter does so much shopping on line -she is an Aries too. My "fun" is now about to begin- diagnosed on 20th of September -WLE and axillary clearance to be done on Dec 10th and thanks to all of you ladies I think I am as well prepared as I can be. There has been so much to read I can't remember everything but keep smiling everyone it will all be behind us by this time next year! Diana X