I was getting undressed and felt a pea shaped lump, with a much bigger lump behind it. I have an appointment booked for next week (tues 14th), for the mammogram etc. I have pain in my breast which comes and goes and im feeling very tired.
Im feeling a mixture of feelings at the moment, as i know it will all get sorted, no matter what it is. But its just the waiting and knowing of what it is and im starting to take it out on the people i love.
To top it all off, i have to go and have a colposcopy as my previous smears have come back with mild dyskaryosis. This is all within a few days of each other…
I feel nobody understands what im going through, i think i could have coped with one or the other, but im at breaking point.
Its having an effect on my relationship with my partner. Im trying to continue a happy normal routine for my son, but im thinking about it 24/7…
Everyone says all will be ok, but i guess i will just have to play the waiting game untill the 14th…
Sorry you’re having to go through this, waiting is the hardest part…always waiting waiting waiting! Everyone on this web site knows what you’re going through…welcome to the group!
I know its easier said than done, but please try not to worry in the meantime, the lump could be any range of things, a lot of lumps turn out to be nothing. I found writing a list of all my questions and thoughts helped to get it off my mind and useful when having the specialist appointment later on.
Have you had any other tests so far?
It really will be ok as you’ve made the most important step…getting the lump checked out!! It’s really stressful and I’m sure you’re feeling angry, tired, teary and every other emotion under the sun…try to stay positive, you’ll know before too long.
big hugs. xx
the waiting is awful. and unfortunalty does takeover your thoughts. you;ll be all over the place emotionally.
take it easy, and hope the outcome is postive xxx
The waiting really is the hardest part. Waiting for results.
It may be nothing and it may be something. If it is something, then take one day at a time. Don’t google and don’t look on the internet. It will scare you silly.
Wait and see. You may be worrying about nothing, but if it is BC there are so many ladies out there who have been exactly where you are, including me.
Life hasn’t come to a stand-still (although it may feel that way). There are plenty of ladies, like me, who are a few years out after surgery, chemo etc and are feeling fine.
You’re in a scary place right now, but it does get better whatever the result.
Dear ChannieB
The place you are in right now is a horrible place to be and having to deal with two lots of worries is even worse and I really feel for you. Waiting is so hard and stressful for you and also for those around you. I hope your partner can find it within themself to give you the support you need.
Hugs
Ruby xx
I would just like to second all the advice you’ve had on here so far - this really is a horrible time, and I know the next week will feel tortuously slow - but it will pass. Once you know what you are dealing with, good news or bad, things will become simpler. In the meantime, do keep on here for support and encouragement, and I’ll keep everything crossed for next Tuesday, and hope that your visits to this forum can stay brief, and that you will no longer need to be posting here by Christmas, because the lumps may well be nothing too sinister.
Hi Channibe, I had a double diagnois and I completly empathise with your situation, please don’t feel alone.
You wouldn’t be normal if you didn’t cry and shout and have a woman screaming in your head 24/7 !!!
You absolutly must take on board all that the others say above! It’s darkest before the dawn, as the saying goes; no one person’s journey is the same as any other, but we are all in this together. I do hope your results are not as bad as you fear.
I have just come home tonight from having mastectomy, at the same time they had to remove a lump from my tummy that was another type of cancer. Luckily a really low grade lymphoma, however the Chemo for the BC will wipe it out anyway! Two birds with one stone!
Hi Channibe, so sorry you’re having to go through this, but remember you’re not alone. This is definately the worst time, waiting and not knowing. As the others have said it will feel easier when you’ve been diagnosed and your given a treatment plan (if the news isn’t good). What you’re feeling now is normal. I went through this in August and I’m now half way through chemo. Be kind to yourself, rest, and don’t try to bottle it all up. Scream on here when you need to!!
Thinking of you and hoping for the best. Karen xx