Oh my goodness....brilliant !!!! Absolutely great news. Thanks for coming back to update Michelle, some don't and that is always frustrating as we don't get 'closure'.
That's good news Michelle, a date to focus on now and one less thing to speculate about! Just keep busy keep going and don't think about a day beyond the 30th, let us know how you get on Xx Jo
OK, a week......its gonna be a tough week Michelle...but just like everyone else here you will get through it x
I wish I could make it go for you Michelle, the swinging of emotions, but I know I can't and unfortunately neither will you are the moment. I think you just need to accept that this IS hard, this is psychologically draining
Michelle everŷthing you are experiencing now is normal, you may feel like you are losing your mind but I can assure you that's you aren't! Your body is in fight or flight mode it just can't make up its mind which can one to chose right now!
I poked and prodded mine so much I had a big bruise! And we all worry about money, my husband is self employed and I thought crap how the hell will we pay the bills as I knew he would want to have time off to support me, I can't have cancer!!!! But I did and we coped, we told those who needed to be told including our grown up boys , hard but necessary , they were amazing and brave and did me so proud ❤️
Hubby scaled back his work commitments , I didn't give two hoots about money and we pulled together and got through, if you have to do it you will 😊Xx Jo
You can rest assured that the thoughts you are having will have occurred to people here, even if you can't find reference to a sofa lol Those types of things about work, repayments, financial concerns and generally the impact it will have on your life, friends and family will have gone through every person's head in that awful wait. Your brain is constantly searching for an answer, its not a natural state to be unsure and have no definitive outcome. Soooooo, on your mind goes, back and forth...imagining the best scenario, imagining the worst and other areas inbetween. I can distinctly remember lifting my top and staring at my boob and feeling it, literally as much as every half hour. I'm embarrased to say that now, but I became obsessed with looking, and hoping/imagining. I even started rubbing it, believing it would disappear as it was a fat necrosis, I was SURE at one point.
Michelle, even IF you were to get a diagnosis, and its still a big IF at this point.....this waiting would be the worst part. The toughest bit is the not knowing.
Crikey what did my GP say, errmmm, "I'm going to refer you on the 2 week rule as there is a definite lump.", she then explained the two week rule of referral and added "Hopefully it will be nothing but it needs checking". I think that was it. She was very good , looking back, and didn't give anything either positive or negative in my direction. I wanted positive of course, deperately, but she was right not to do so as she of course could have no idea what it was. They are trained to mainly pick up abnormailities, those abnormalities can be benign or cancerous, they can't tell which from feeling.
Of course you are right, this is breast clinic and not a breast cancer clinic, there are any number of conditions which are always statistically more likely. However, the fact that they pick up BC is GOOD, as it means unlike in the past when women did die from it, you can quickly be treated.
This wild swinging of thoughts from positive to negative is usual, you want to not have bc of course. I convinced myself by the time of my appointment that I had a fat necrosis from hitting myself. Infact I was SO certain that I told the consultant there was a mistake and my biopsy results must have been mixed up. I wasn't on this site during that process, and only came on after diagnosis, but I wish I had been as then I might have realised that even IF I had that diagnosis I dreaded all could be ok.
I'm not saying you have bc you understand, I'm just saying this waiting is HARD so damned psychologically hard and it makes you feel allsorts which is very uncomfortable and unsettling. x
You are welcome Michelle. Just remember that although you can't see us, we are out here, you needn't be alone with your fears at this time. Look after yourself the next few days - try and eat and try and sleep - because that has a tendency to allude people at this time of waiting. x
Oh definitely try and stay away from Dr Google, he will convince you that you are in a coma if you dig deep enough!!
My story is, went to doctors with a lump in Feb 15 and due to family history - mum had died from breast cancer many years ago - I was reffered as a high priority and seen within 4 days, my lump was quickly dismissed as fat by surgeon who examined me and she was spot on but had mammo and ultrasound anyway to be extra sure and an eagle radiographer picked up something elsewhere in my breast that he was suspicious of so did a biopsy and sure enough it was a small grade 1 tumour , dealt with by removal and radiotherapy then Tamoxifen , all really straight forward but could so easily have been missed and I would most likely still be walking around non the wiser!
I like to think my mum was giving me a guiding hand that day but will be forever grateful that it was picked up so early 😊 Things can turn out ok no matter what the result of your tests are , a diagnosis isn't an automatic death sentence, try and hang on to that thought Xx Jo
No problem happy to tell you. I am 49 and was diagnosed in March 2016 with a grade 3 tumour, size being about errrr let me think....14mm? I had a lumpectomy in the April of 2016, radiotherapy (was borderline for chemo, it was offered as a choice but not recommended as such) and then went onto tamoxifen hormone therapy. I was removed from tamoxifen after 6 weeks, for some medical reasons. I now, like others here, and routine for post-diagnosed people, have a yearly mammogram and a 6 monthly check with the surgeon. My last mammo was clear, which I had in April last year and at my November check there were no concerns.
You are not stupid! Why should you know if it's not something that has come up in your life experience so far. Michelle, stay off the google from now on, that's going to be hard in the next few days (I know you needed to to find out about lymph nodes of course), but any search now will come up with everything ranging from benign infections and cysts to a form of bc and all things inbetween. It will honestly drive you nuts reading about what your symptoms could mean, and give you absolutely no answers at all, period, as only your examination and mammo/ultrasound will give you that. ( and then if needed a biopsy). If it helps you to know, I doubt there would have been any answers she could have given you there and then, even if you had been able to answer them. Only the skill and knowledge of the consultant, radiographers (and ultimately if needed the pathologist) will enable the answering of questions.
Hopefully your appointment letter should arrive really soon.
Good to hear you have a referral Michelle, that's exactly the outcome you needed from today. As charys says you should be seen within 2 weeks and although it's not an easy wait your in the system now and on your way to getting sorted Xx Jo
Michelle, I've thought carefully about how to reply to this, so I hope I get the tone right. I am going to say 'good' in reply, I am glad to hear you have the referral! Your persistence, given the knock backs you've had is very courageous. Many people would have left it at the 'Im ok stage' that was presented to them.
You will get your clinic appointment within the next 2 weeks, which is quick but obviously won't feel quick enough when you have the fears and worries swirling in your head. How are you feeling now, after the appointment?
HI Michelle, I'll be here ready, waiting, to listen too. I can't really add more than Jobey already has - but just to say I think you are incredibly proactive and you do need your mind put to rest once and for all on this!
All the best for your appointment
Blimey what a carry on you've had! I'm certainly not going to nag you about getting it checked as that seems to be all you are trying to do without much help from your GP!
You need a referral to the breast clinic, an issue like this that has been going on for so long needs re investigating and it's not for your Dr to decide if it's anything to worry about or not , they cannot know by simply examining you. Hopefully that will be the outcome of today's appointment, it's something you should insist on!
I can't guess as to what it might be, one thing Ive learned is BC comes in all shapes and sizes and sometimes there is nothing to feel at all, just get it checked and take it from there, it's the only way to know for certain, all the best and let us know how you get on today Xx Jo