Wow, sounds like you've had a lot to come to terms with on your own.
Hopefully there are some others here in a similar boat who can relate to what you're going through. You sound so strong, I hope you are coping.
I'm currently going through chemo for BC, and will need a mastectomy, radiotherapy and reconstruction surgery afterwards, which maps my life out into 2015! Quite different to your situation, but keeps me planted here for quite a while. I have found this forum to be so helpful. I hope it can be for you too. x