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Re: Hit a low point

Hi Sarah, 

 

i know exactly how you feel and it's tough! 

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Bless you, however turn it on its head what is the % if 50 kids off in 1000,  really small.  Not trying to play it down but 1/2 won't have an infection and those that do give you the sane odds as trundling the supermarket.  Infants and junior is a totally different ballgame  thougn. It us the lack of normality that us challenging. Speak to you onc xcx

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Thanks everyone, I'm hoping to attend leavers assembly and prom, maybe the occasional short visit, trouble is a thousand kids equals lots of germs! There's about 50 off with scarlet fever now, so I'm a bit nervous. Thanks for understanding, just feels we are being robbed of all normality and it makes me want to stamp my feet like a two year old! Love Sarah xx

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Awh Sarah, sorry you are feeling like this at the moment its a flippin c $#p way to feel.  It won't make up for it but as someone has suggested could you visit on key occasions when your chemo allows? There are far less bugs in secondary schools  than with infant/juniors?  

Easy for me to say but Florida had probably  come st a good time to recharge  a bit.

Helen  x

 

 

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Sorry you are feeling so sad Sarah. I don't have any words of wisdom to add but it's good that there are others here who understand your position. You sound like a great and very caring teacher who will have equiped her students to go out in the world and do good things.

 

One of my worst moments was when I knew I had to miss a friend's 50th birthday party which would have involved a reunion of a lot of old friends - that induced one of my biggest weeping sessions. Rubbish isn't it?

 

Do try and enjoy your holiday - you deserve it.

 

Ruth xx

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Have just read my comment and thought I'd better add - not to go in to work with them, just as a visit to see how they are 🙂 xx
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Ah Sarah, totally understand how you feel although I'm a teaching assistant at a junior school.
I have thought though, what about your good week? That is the 3rd week of your 3 week cycle if that's the type of chemotherapy your having. I go into school but just to the staffroom when I'm in that week - your school kids are older, less likely to sneeze (or worse!) on you, are old enough to understand the risks? I'm going to a concert in Manchester (Muse) in a few weeks, the risks would be the same I'm guessing.
See how you get on with your chemo and get advice from your oncologist too.
Take care xxx
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I know exactly how yo feel SRah. I have had to leave my year 6 class and I really miss them I am the one who does all the transition work with them and gets then through SATS. I hate not being at work and I had hoped to go in through some of my chemo but I have on,y managed two days so far as I was ill and now the school Is rife with bugs so I have been advised to steer clear!
It's very hard to let go of normal life and I found working up to my surgery and before chemo really helped me.
I am now halfway through and I can see the end. It's hard but you will get through and normal life will resume.
Enjoy your holiday

Claire xx
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Hi Sarah, didn't want to read and run but just wanted to say although you wont be there in the way and capacity you'd like to be, don't write yourself off. I was well all through my chemo 4 years ago and continued to work and socialise as normal, i know many others who were the same, you may be surprised at how well you cope - i hope you are x

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Oh Sarah. I understand exactly where you're coming from. I was told by my gp today I can't go back between this flipping would getting better and end of chemo. I am totally the other end of school to you but we take the littlest into reception and they change so much. The end of the year we do so much with them cos when they get to year one it's so different and they become 'big' people. Plus I have my own baby in year 11 and I know how much he would miss his tutor. It breaks my heart and although I know it has to be done it doesn't make it any better. Sorry I haven't helped but at least we completely understand xxxx
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Hit a low point

hi all I'm having a wobbly day, or an angry day or both I'm not sure. I finish work for Easter a week on Thursday, then chemo starts. So my form, who are year 11, who I've nurtured for 5 years will have to do their last 8 weeks without me and I will miss their last days at school. We've tried to plan round it, we are having a party next Thursday, I'm signing their shirts then, school will do photos but I'm going to miss all the last stuff and I can never get that back. I'm not even sure I will be well enough to go to prom. I've spent 2 hours tonight writing their cards and now I want to just sit and cry which won't help. I'm so damned angry. We go to Florida a week on Friday and even the shine is taken off that and I'm angry about that too, but I've no one to be angry at. Sorry to rant needed to speak to someone who understands. 😔 Love Sarah