Clare, get you thanking us for putting up
with your whinging! You are NOT a whinger. You are merely telling it how it is for you, and we, all of us feel for you. As others have remaked: I haven't a flipping clue how I'd cope in your situation; I'd like to believe I'd be as positive and bouyant as you, but ............hmmmm I dunno! What I do know is: if I am faced with your circumstances at any time - you will be my guide, my inspiration, I'll never forget you, or your strength of character and desire to embrace life within its constraints. You must give yourself a huge pat on the back for the path you've chosen, a path which you've made us all understand is the way to deal with any cr*p thrown our way. It would be all too easy to internalise and adopt the 'woe is me' attitude, but you didn't, and for that I admire you so much; I feel certain you have enriched not only your own life but your loved ones lives too. Wow! what a wonderful mentor and example you are to Ash and Jamie, and what an inspirational legacy you will leave them.
I know the above is a bit a deep, but I just HAD to say it! Now, moving on...........I hope the hospital have a bed for you pretty dam*ed quick; ignore other folks tantrums - they don't know your situation - I'm sure if they did their reaction would have been different. Do you know this blooming illness has taught me so much........tolerance of others....to always think 'maybe he/she overreacted as they are carrying a burden', to ditch the thought 'what will people think'.........who cares - I intend to be the lady who wears purple, a true British eccentric! Underneath I was always rather eccentric (like my dad) but learned over time to sort of hide it........but, no more, from now on I intend to be ME, the person I was born to be, and you Clare have helped me see that that's the way forward, self truth. Thank you.
I'm having rads, hence why I've not visited here in a while, today was number fourteen of twenty, my last one is 17th May the day before my birthday, yeah!!! So far my skin is holding well, but I am feeling exhausted, looking forward to the last one.
Isn't the weather dreary? My hubby rings his folkks in Italy and is told 'it's a beautiful day 25%...............pah! They live in Puglia in the deep south where winter weather only lasts a few weeks. Sometimes I think 'ooh should we retire there', but then sensibility strikes and I realise why we've not already retired there - the grass is always (or sometimes) greener on the other side, but actually our country here has many qualities, qualities which both me and my husband would miss..........pubs, pub quizzes, our wonderful NHS....things available to do in bad weather, hobby classes, wonderful parks, pleasant walks.........the list is endless, but the biggest pull which keeps us here is our two wonderful daughters. I do love the south of Italy (not enamoured with the north) however, there's little social life outside of family, beach, or restaurants .....which are amazing, but when you are used to Britain,it's quirkiness and sense of humour, other countries can seem dull.........unless you are a sun worshiper - which I'm not.....that said I always look forward to my holidays in Italy and France, but look forward to coming home too. Who knows, one day when I'm old and grey I may retire to Italy's sunny climes.... we'll see, time will tell, if I was to retire abroad Italy would definitely be my choice.
OMG, haven't I waffled? Sorry. Hope I've not bored you! Good to hear you are enjoying tracing your ancestry, it's a very addictive interest, I've been tracing my lot for ten years and have now got meat on the bones .........found a felon transported to Tasmania, my ggggrandfather who evaded me for ages turned up in Maryland and I'm now in touch with one of his descendants there, a ggrandfather accused of not sending his children to school, a few other's mentioned in newspaper articles, some for good deeds, others for not so good. It's all very fascinating!
Must go hit my pillow now ..........a lovely silk one which my dau gave me for mothers day to help my hair grow silky smooth....hope it works...hair too short yet to tell.
Good night, hugs to all.