I am in a really surreal place.........

[Guest user]

Jane here again - sorry can't say much but wanted to let you know that Clare died last night at 9.50 - about an hour after I left with Tom, Jamie, Aisling, Hannah (Jamie's girlfriend) and Cassie the dog!
She slipped away peacefully with mum and dad holding her hand .... I still cant quite believe I have lost her..
Can't say more just now .... thank you all for the love and support which I know meant so much to her
Jane x

[libsue]

Love and hugs to you, Clare.

My thoughts are with you and your family.

Libby xxx

[Jay66]

Thinking about you Clare, hope you are pain free and comfortable
Love Jay X

[Guest user]

Morning Clare, thinking of you sending my love to you and your lovely family, love junieliz x

[AnnieK68]

Bumping up for Supertrouper xx

[ChoccieMuffin]

Clare, we love you - plain and simple.

Jane, you will always be welcome here. Thank you for being such a wonderful sister, aunty, daughter, and no doubt friend. As you will read on this thread, Clare has endless love for you which seeps through any post where she's mentioned you. You have my utmost respect for the love, care and consideration you have given to someone so special. Your lovely sister is special to so many, and we are honoured.

I will be wearing something turquoise for Clare tomorrow. Night all.

CM
x

[pesteringpixie]

wishing you a gentle and peaceful night.

Pixie xx

[Guest user]

Sending love to you Clare and your family. Hope you are pain free and comfortable.
Maj x

[loula]

Thinking of you Clare and wishing you freedom from pain, peace and some sunshine to enjoy the garden.
Love loula (another lurker).

[Gilliancw]

Sending lots of love Clare and family
Love Gillian xxxx

[scottishlass]

Thinking about you Clare.
Thanking you Jane.
From Val.

[AnnieK68]

Clare
You'll forever be in our hearts & gardens.
Take care sweet lady
Axx

[Guest user]

Much love Clare and thinking of you and your family! ( a lurker on here) xxx

[Crabbit]

Hello Jane and Clare, just wanted to say thank you for posting Clare's update. I've been thinking a lot about Aisling and Jamie too. Bless you for taking the time!
The hospice sounds lovely, I hope the KFC did go down well and the sun shines a little for you Clare. We have had no sun here since Weds, think it's dissappeared for good. Going to buy lots of new plants for the border soon and dedicate them to you and your lovely family.
Hugs to you. xxx

[RevCat]

A poem prayer for all of us as we think of, pray for and send good vibes to, Snowdrop Clare and her wonderful family...


Marie Curie by Kate McIlHagga


The tireless dark
Presses against the pane
As feet sluggish
Heavy minded
Drag
Through the weary days
Until
One bird sings,
One, green-hearted snowdrop
Cries - palely defiant
And I
Turn
to embrace
The pain.

From The Green Heart of the Snowdrop pub. Wildgoose Resources

Clare may your desire to slip away in your sleep be granted, when the moment is right for you. We will remember you with every snowdrop we ever see. God bless.

[Guest user]

Hi Jane, please pass my love and thoughts on to Clare and to you and all your family. Clare has touched all our hearts, she has brought many smiles and tears what a lovely lady, I wish her much comfort and love junieliz x

[Guest user]

Hi Jane
Thank you for updating us. I had guessed that she might stay in when she told me she was going there. So wonderful to have known Clare. You can see from all the posts what a star she was here, shining brightly in a time of darkness. I'm glad we did the flower thing from some of the ladies here when we did so that she could enjoy them at home. We just wanted her to know how much we thought of her. Tell Clare we're missing her loads but hope she's enjoying the view from the patio!
Twinky x

[JulieD]

Jane, Thank you so much for keeping us up to date with Clares news, as you can tell from the previous posts, Clare is very highly thought of, loved and cherished by her many friends here.
You are obviously a great family, loving,caring and supportive and you are all in our thoughts.
You can see from the number of posts that Clare has had a great impact. She has brought together a great group of women and has allowed us to show our love and support and to recieve the same. I'm sure you are very proud of her.Clare too is lucky to have such a lovely supportive family. I hope you will all get strength and peace from each other over the coming time.
Please do tell Clare that we all are thinking of her and we are glad she is safe and getting the help and medical attention she needs. That we love her and wish her peace and comfort, we encircle you all with the bonds made through this thread.
With love, prayers and thanks, Julie xx

[divipops]

Glad you are feeling at peace Clare sending love to you and your amazing family, you are one amazing lady in my prayers as always god bless x

[divipops]

Glad you are feeling at peace Clare sending love to you and your amazing family, you are one amazing lady in my prayers as always god bless x

[mfb]

So humbled as always by Clare and her beloved and quite remarkable Family.
Big love,
sxx

[vercors]

Jane,
Thank you for the update. As I was walking along the Thames today, my thoughts were with Clare and all of you. I am glad to hear that she feels comfortable in the hospice.
Sending Clare and everyone else a hug.

[Harrietxxx]

Jane and Clare,

Sending so much love to you all, thinking of you every day.

Jules
Xx

[janipi]

Thank you Jane for taking the time to post. Hoping Clare is surrounded by peace and love. Wishing you all precious moments in the coming days. Much love xx

[Guest user]

Dear Jane
thank you so much for your post. Please let Clare and her family know that they are thought of with love and admiration from
Alanaa and Fat Cat xxx

[Alto]

Jane and Clare,

I'm so glad to hear that Clare is safe and happy and has a garden to enjoy. She deserves the best and it sounds as though she's getting it.

Wishing all the family the very best and sending my prayers for Clare that she stays peaceful and comfortable.


Thinking of you all with much love,


Jane xxx

[ragamuffin]

Thank you Jane for posting for Clare. As all the others have said you have a very special lady as your sister. Just want to send her my love and wish her peace and comfort. Also would like to wish you, your parents! Jamie and Aisling love and strength for the next stage you will be going through. Love Diana xxxx

[emmy]

I have only posted a few times but kept up with the Claire's thread which I found inspiring,funny and most of all her warmth shone through every adventure. Thank you for posting Jane I hope you feel the warmth and love shared by all here which I hope Claire feels around her along with the love from her family. I can only echo all that has been said and wish Claire some sunny days and peace. Much love Em x

[NannieSpiky]

Thank you for the latest news Jane
Always call in to this forum even though I don't post much but have always been so uplifted by the love and support that has been shown on here to,and by, ladies living with this illness and it has all been inspired by your wonderful sister, Clare. You must feel very proud of her.
The hospice sounds lovely and I hope that she will enjoy more days to sit out in the garden (if the sun should decide to appear!).
Thinking of you all with love.
Liz x

[moser]

Jane thank you so much for the update. please tell Clare that she is in my thoughts and that i send her much love. As the others have said she has had such a presence for us over the last few months.I am so glad to have played a part (however small) in her life, and that i feel very privileged. Love to her and to you too.
Mo. Xxx

[DJ007]

Dear Clare and Jane

All I can do is echo everyone else's thoughts and wishes. Clare you have made a massive impact on so many lives in the past few months. The love you create and the mutual support you inspire in this thread is awesome.

Much love to you and your family
Dx

[Guest user]

Thank you for the update jane
I read this thread everyday and feel so uplifted by the love and support that everyone here has for Claire.
I am glad that Claire is in a place where she feels safe and secure. I am also so glad that your are all there for her children.
I went to visit my local hospice last week. It is a lovely place, i like the idea of being there rather than at home at the end, I want my home to be a place of happy memories for the children. It sounds as if that's exactly what Claire's home is for her kids 🙂
Mx

[Guest user]

To Claire / and Jane
Thank you for the update
Sending Claire and the rest of the family all my love thoughs and hugs ..
Hope KFC was good ..
Love this thread , Lifts me every time I read every post .
Claire is one amazing with so much love for her life , family and garden and wild life .
With my love always Rosie xxxxxx

[katytc]

Hi Jane,
Thank you so much for keeping us up to date, it is really appreciated. Just want to echo the thoughts of everyone who has posted, Clare is such a star, if only love alone could make things better.
Sending lots of love to Clare and family, thinking of you all xx

[CanonJane]

Thanks Jane - I know her care will be careful, loving and life-giving for as long as she is here. Some people have the gift of generating love, and Clare is one of those special people.... I echo Revcat and send my thoughts, and prayers for that peace which passs understanding.. precious time... love from us all, lurkers and visitors, Jane

[Emperortooco]

Thank you for updating Jane , kind of guessed what was happening as Clare has always been such a prolific poster and I feel privileged to have shared just this snapshot of her life since Xmas. I!m pleased that she is safe and comfortable now and my thoughts are with you, your family and ultimately your amazing awe-inspiring sister xxx

[Guest user]

Thank you for the update Jane. Clare is often on my mind at seeming random times of the day; cooking for the kids, walking the dogs over the fields and cursing that I don't have her skills in the garden department!
Hospice sounds like the perfect place for Clare to be, cared for in beautiful surroundings which meet her needs and also allow you and all of Clare's family to be able to relax and just be with her, knowing that there is someone nearby Clare can call on for pain relief and to make her more comfortable.
Love and strength to you all
Laurie x

[ChoccieMuffin]

Thank you, Jane, for updating us. Both you and she know how much she is loved, and will never be forgotten every time the Claredrops show their heads.

And I always think of her whenever I have pancakes too - which is a lot more often than just once a year.

Clare, you have our love, and hopes for peace and comfort.

CM
x

[RevCat]

Dear Jane, as everyone has already said, thank you for making the time to update us all with news of your wonderful sister Clare.

I am pleased that she has a room where she can sit out and enjoy the garden when she feels strong enough.

My thoughts and prayers are with you all, with your parents, with Jamie and Aisling, with you Jane (and your own family) and of course with Clare.

Thank you, Clare, for all you have shared with us, the love you have shown us, the inspiration you have been, and continue to be to us. May be peace be yours, and eternal joy.

[nicky08]

Dear Jane
Thank you for taking the time to give us an update about your lovely sister Clare. As you must know, we all look out for her news and she has been a source of fun, courage and joy over the past few months. I hope she got to tuck into the KFC with the kids 🙂 The hospice sounds like the right place to be and I'm glad she is able to sit in the sun, whatever that is LOL
Sending hugs and love to you all.
Nicky xx

[pesteringpixie]

Thank you Jane for updating.
It is lovely to know that Clare is somewhere she feels safe and surrounded by a beautiful garden, may her days be blessed with flowers, bees, birds, butterflies and silvery bells.
God bless you all.
Much love
Pixie xx

[Guest user]

Hi Jane, thankyou for the update and thinking about us at this time. Give Clare my love I am thinking about her and hope she will be comfortable, I am sure she will be looked after at the hospice. I hope she gets to sit out on the patio and the sun will shine for her. Clare's is such an inspiration to us all, I can tell by her post she is loved so much by her family, Our thoughts and love are with you all love junieliz x

[Bettie]

Dear Jane
Maqssive hugs to Claire, you and the rest of your family. My thoughts and prayers are with you all. You all seem like a wonderful close family which I'm sure is a massive source of comfort to Claire.

Sue xx

[Lavenderlassie]

Dear Jane,
Thank you for updating us about your/our lovely Clare.
I hope they can give Clare better pain control when they can see her more, and all the other care will be so good.
Love and light
Lavender
xx

[donnad]

Dear Clare
Just popped in to say hello and wish to say thankyou again Clare for starting this post. You have been an inspiration and a massive help to so many of us newby secondary girls.
I am very sad to hear you are at the hospice now but know you will be so well looked after. My sister works at Hospice in the Weald and like all similar hospices their care for their patients and families is amazing. You will all be supported and cared for with dignity and consideration and yes, you will feel safe in their care.
I hope you feel surrounded and comforted with huge pillows of love and support from all claredrops and extras.
Donna

[Guest user]

Thank you for taking the time to post on behalf of Clare. Your beautiful sister is such an inspiration to us all who have followed her posts since the beginning of the year.
I send my love & prayers to you all as you face the coming weeks together.
Karen xx

[Guest user]

Thank you for letting us all know. I check on this thread every day - thats how much your sister has affected my life. Please know that I am thinking of her and am sending healing thoughts every night. I hope you all find support in one another and know that Clare is so loved on here.

Love light peace

kaj
xxxx

[Guest user]

Hi, This isn't Clare, is her sister Jane with an update .... sorry not done it before but have been back and forth to Clare and she was hoping to do it herself.
Some of you may know that she is in the hospice now - she went in on Tuesday after a weekend of being in pain and not being able to get comfortable and just decided that she couldn't carry on at home any more.
The hospice is a lovely place, the gardens are beautiful and her room leads directly out to them and she has a covered patio where she has been sitting when the sun shines 🙂
Her pain is being managed and is largely under control although she has times when it is bad ... she feels safe and is glad to be there ... Mum and Dad are staying at her house and are there with the children every day and I stayed a couple of nights ago in her room with her which was lovely.
The kids are with her tonight and she was looking forward to it 🙂 There was talk of a KFC takeaway!!
Will post more when I get a chance - all of you have been such a source of love and support for her over the past months - Thank you with all my heart for understanding her and supporting her in a way that I think you only can if you have 'been there' in some way.
Sorry am rambling now ... will update as I can ... she sends love to all ... Jane x

[moser]

Yes, Revcat, those are inspirational words - for me too.
Clare, hope your day was pain-free and filled with love.
Hugs to you and your family xxx.

[mfb]

RevCat, you always have such wonderful words.
Sending fondest thoughts to All.
Sx