I feel so down

[Jill1998]

I drove round for an hour with my letter in my bag couldn't face opening it!!

[Jill1998]

Good luck Dee,I found it very anxiety provoking too and felt like I had to put life on hold for a few weeks until I knew what I was dealing with one way or another.Sorry you are having such a crap time at work .

[Jobey68]

All the best for your mammo Dee, i was stressed out waiting for it but once it was here i was strangely calm and only had a panic when the letter came and locked myself in my car and had to take a few deep breaths before i could rip it open!! A great feeling to get the first year under your belt 😊 Xx

[DizzyDee]

So know how you feel i have my first mamogram coming up. Think its around this time that it hits you what we have been through. Ive had a terrible time at work and this has been ongoing for a year. Thankfully i have got a new job and only have 2 weeks left in the hell hole. Seriously its only know when i am having to write down everything for legal reasons that its hitting me how badly I have been treated at work over my cancer. I wish some people had a heart. Xxxx

[lama1980]

Head's up.

[Jobey68]

I had my first year Mammogram a month ago and when the letter came I felt sick and just wanted to bin it and not go, I stressed for a week and kept saying to my husband that I wasn't going! He of course said yes you are and what's the point in burying your head? I pulled up my big girl pants and got it over with and actually felt fine on the day and while I was waiting for results, my letter came on day 8 so I didn't have to wait long and all was thankfully fine, it's something we have to find a way to learn to live with, I know it's not easy but you will be ok ladies! Xx 

[takeadeepbreath]

snap, I have a mammogram on 26th too and it brings it all back. I feel like I'm walking on a glass floor suspended above an abyss. I dread walking back into the breast care unit and like you I find walking the dog helps. Other people assume I'm back to normal but I never will be. 

It's **bleep** feeling like this and quite normal. The stress of this is un-f@@@@ing- believable.

[juliet1967]

Ive been feeling exactly the same recently.  I had a mastectomy last April followed by chemotherapy, radiotherapy.  Im due to have a mammogram on 26th this month, im feeling really anxious.  Im trying to stay positive but feeling very tearful.  I do walk my dog a lot which i find helps, but there is always that doubt in the back of my mind "what if".

[RoadRunner]

Hello,

What you are feeling is absolutely normal, so don't worry.  You may find the following article helpful - it explains why you crash after treatment:

http://www.cancercounselling.org.uk/Peter%20Harvey%20-%20After%20the%20Treatment%20Finishes%20then%2...

You will start feeling better, you just need to give yourself some time

[Lizzy_BCC]

Hi suedehead, 

I am really sorry to hear you are going through this down time. Our users are incredibly friendly and supportive and I  can see that you have already had some replies on some other boards. I am sure they will be along soon to share their stories and reassure you. 

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[suedehead]

Just had my first mammogram since being diagnosed last January. Had mastectomy,chemo and radiotherapy. I'm now back at work and just started coming to terms with everything that's happened!

Just wondering if it's normal to feel so down after being told everything is ok. Mammogram just showed a few cysts. I feel that I should feel on top of the world but I feel anything but. Can't imagine living like this for the next few years.

cheers xxx