reading your message I wanted to share my expereince.......
Just before Christmas 2013 I woke up from a dream where I was screaming I have cancer. It really bothered me but I pushed it to back of my mind.
After Christmas I was having a shower and felt my breast....no lump it just felt "different". I was so freaked by my dream I went to the GP in the new year.
She said nothing to worry about and she couldnt feel anything. However she said she would refer me for peace of mind. I then saw the consultant who said she couldnt feel anything and was confident it was nothing.
I had my mammogram and the gates to hell opened and I began this journey!
I dont know what made me have the dream but had I not had it I would not have gone to my GP....the feeling of "differen in my breast" went away after a few days..... but by then luckily I had seen the GP and was on my route to the consultant..... so I would not have gone to see anyone if I had left it.
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Hi julia, I believe many of us have similar thoughts and to be honest, it's probably normal. I have just been told all clear, lymph nodes clear and need radiotherapy and drugs. Then, you start thinking, what if? The ladies here are brilliant and I am sure you will get great response. We have to carry on, think of the days ahead and smile. There is no reason why you won't meet someone, look in the mirror and like what you see. Stay positive and lol xxxxxxx
Today I got my genetics results back and they are negative. Which is very good news as I do not have to obsess about the future of my daughter any more. At the same time it means single masectomy, which is also good news in a way. However, the second breast will stay in place and I already obsess now about the cancer appearing there. I'm terrified of that and can't stop thinking that it will appear there as well at the later stage and I would have to go through all of that again. The doctors say they do not want to remove the second breast now as my risks are only 2% higher than for all women to develop cancer in the second breast. I understand the statistics, but I kinda fell already in the category so I do not know how to deal with the remaining breast. On top of that with the single mastectomy and recontruction I will most probably look like a cripple. Not that it is the most imoirtant thing at the moment. But I am still young and was hoping of may be someday still find a man and have more children. And with all of this happening I most probably have to say good bye to all of those dreams and hopes. I am sorry for a negativity. I am usually very positive and hopeful. But this is probably one of those bad days.
Does anyone of you relate to this? Do you have a similar eperience? And thoughts/feelings? What do you do?