Not sure I can advise but I can totally empathise. I was diagnosed Jan 2015 and as far as everyone else is concerned should be back to normal now as it has all been dealt with. Hard to convince myself though and I do find I worry about sneaky little cells lurking in my body waiting to pounce! Felt perfectly well before routine mammogram found the lump so made me really lose confidence in my body and my own ability to know when something is wrong so every little ache and pain can send me into a flat spin. But .... to be honest I didn't feel the Moving Forward course helped much so don't feel you are missing out anything crucial. Mostly things like nutrition advice which is all available here anyway.
For what it's worth I have found some ways of squishing my anxieties - especially when trying to sleep at night. I go through a mental list of all the women I know personally and then all the well known women who have gone through this nasty disease and are still alive and well years later - usually fall asleep at around 60 or so. I also have felt the need to take a bit of control so that I feel I am doing all I can to prevent it coming back - exercise - mostly just dancing round the kitchen which cheers me up anyway - , taking tumeric supplements, making sure I eat well, drink less etc....
My first mammogram result post -op came back fine but I was amazed how anxious I felt waiting and waiting for the letter and I guess anniversaries are likely to bring it all back.
But I am here, I am currently well and I am making the most of all life has to offer - and maybe I appreciate that more now. I am sure others on this forum will have better advice than me - hang on in there and I think maybe we all have to accept that we will over-worry at times. I am just hoping that the worry gets less the further we move away from the diagnosis and treatment.
Love Eileen x
