I'm sure other members will soon be along to offer you some support.
In the meantime you could give our Helpline a call to talk over how you are feeling. They are open from 9-5 on weekdays and 10-2 on Saturdays. The number is 0808 800 6000.
We also have a one to one support via email service which may help. More details of this service are here:
Very best wishes