Wow its my 2nd year mark 14th Feb 2015 respect and listen to your intuition I do think both of you would benifet from professional help. in a nutshell I suspected .y hubby was wandering my mum was dying I knew that my left breast was not looking good instinct through my cancer treatment yea he was a rock then in recovery I actvated find my I phone I learnt different he had been double lifeing me and was swinging a Filthy old man I put spyware in car listing devices also in house he was watching self and group in porn ... he put me down as a possessive woman ttellng his family I was deranged any way .I cremated mum kicked him out my friends thought I had lost plot it was the worst time ever anyways im still standing and divorced now just. I had to pay divorce my belif in human beings is ???? Fear holds us back reki and guided visualization moved My enrgy to a survival level . There are all kinds of relationships out there maybe you can find one with yourself heart n soul then build on that. Im not at relationship stage yet tho I have grown a life with higher belif n energy other than human boy meets girl I would freak out if I went on line dating im dreading my 2 yr check and 2nd part recon getting in touch with my soul I don't see peeps through my eyes I feel there energy good and bad and go with that. Dont blame self or hubby take a break anxd go on a positive journey both of you . Grow and love your life fear n stress at earth level is horrid meditation reiki g visualization find you get professional help it may be a step into a wonderful new life for both of you xx praying your sca ns are ok xxx
Hi want to remain anon...
ou are a brave and lovely lady having the courage to talk about this subject. I am not quite in the same position as you and am probably very lucky in that my husabnd has out up with me (well i think he has??!)..coming up to a year now since we had any intimacy. I'm just not interested and havent been since my first diagnosis 3 years ago when i was thrown into menopause had double mastectomy and reconstruction. Been even worse since my recurrence was diagnosed. We dont realy talk about it which is robably half of the problem..its al i can do to get through each day without faling apart nevermind think of anything else. Nothing is worse than aiting for scan results so my heart goes out to you. havernt realy helped with any advice but just wanted you to know you have love and support from people on here. x
I really feel for you and I hope you can find a way of getting through this in the way that makes it best for you. It is a huge shock to the system and not what you needed now. There are specialist people who you can talk to and the phone line might point you in the right direction but the only thing I can advise as others have said that in no way ever blame yourself.
Be gentle with yourself.