There was a much loved and extremely talented poet who posted on bcpals some years ago.Her nick name was jpoet and many of her poems dealt with her feelings and reactions to her disease [which eventually killed her].
Her poem 'Bluebells' made a profound impact on me.If you Google her name you will find all her works.
I am trying to remember her full name-her first name was Sandra and her surname was,I think,Lovegrove-I will check.