Ah Francine you're a permanent honorary member of us Marchers so we'll expect you to come along too! I've put us all on the 'Recovering from Treatment' board with a new thread called 2015 MARCHING Together, hope that's OK
Ladies, I apologise for being such a bossyboots (just can't seem to help myself ) but would anybody mind if I moved us all on to the 'Living Beyond Breast Cancer' thread? I know it's stupid but I really don't like opening/posting on the 'Going Through Treatment' thread now as it acts as a reminder of things I'm trying to forget like surgery and the threat of chemo, so psychologically I'd prefer to move on to the next board.
I know, I know, it's ridiculous and I probably need some therapy or something but there you go, I am a saddo If you'd all rather stay on this board I'll find a way to deal with it of course because I'd hate to lose touch with you as I'm sure I've a fair few post-cancer meltdowns and traumas coming my way before too long and I've come to realise you are the people that carry me through it all.
Love to all
Hmmm, well Pandorra did say her GP had given her enough lubricant to start a brothel so I suppose if all else fails we could start a trollop collective! Given the state of my poor boob though I think I'd only appeal to a very niche market so won't be getting rich quick
Oh Sheena- don't ask! Sharon will turn us all into trollops or cake makers while she plots to rule the world! We had a little campaign "Sharon for Prime Minister- the girl who gets things done" a while ago!
Good to see you back with an update, Sharon- we miss you! xxx
PS That may sound a little weird to anyone new to this thread? We've been through a lot together over the last few months!
Just been reading through and life is sounding grim for those of you who have returned to work. Perhaps you could all negotiate huge pay-offs on the basis that your employers are heartless idiots and we could set up our own business? Not sure what we could do but as a collective I think we'd be awesome at pretty much anything.
I've spent the last few days decorating the dining room & kitchen. Had them replastered back in September and it's taken me this long to get round to it because of stupid cancer. Well, that and a few 50th birthday celebrations. I haven't done any decorating for about 20 years as I used to get someone in to do it but I have plenty of time at the moment and I thought how hard can it be? Now I've done it I remember why I used to get someone in. Carefully glossed the wood work and then promptly forgot and leaned against the door frame ruining the paintwork and my jeans. Sigh. I'll cross decorator off my list of possible career options then.
Other than the usual moans and groans (ailing Dad, friends who really shouldn't be counted as friends any more, achy boob etc.) I'm doing fine. Still haven't been given a follow up appointment post-rads but haven't chased it either as I'm feeling good. Off to the V&A next week and then it will be Wimbledon aka lusting after Rafa Nadal even though I'm old enough to be his mother, so can't quite see when I'm going to get round to going back to work and having heard your tales of woe, I'm in no rush.
Hope things start to improve for those of you having a a grim time.
If you're in need of something to make you laugh, I can highly recommend a game of reading the names on paint charts and giving them more accurate names. My dining room is now painted in 'Burnt Autumn' which my friend says should be called 'Scary Jollop for a Sick Child'.
Never mind. i only got one number on Lotto tonight. If we win,I think i might buy up the company I work for, and sack them all?
Or... they're having new air conditioning fitted, maybe I could get hold of some sort of gas to feed through it. Any iffy smell would be put down to the new system?
Seriously though, I'm considering whether it'd be worth the aggro of going through the HR complaints process, or just to switch departments. I'd have to take up a really junior position, but it's seriously worth considering. Only 4 years till retirement!
Thanks for letting me get this off my chest (as if enough wasn't already taken off my chest in surgery- Daren't say anything as insensitive as that at work!!!)
Love to all
I'm massively disillusioned- I was really happy to get cleared by Oncology, and stupidly assumed my colleagues would be happy for me too. I just can't express how rubbish they made me feel, but at least it seems I'm not the only one. This disease really shows us who really counts in our lives. I've had some brilliant support from some very unexpected people, but those I thought I could count on have been a huge disappointment.
Looking forward to my cut of the Euromillions, Jill! And yes, diminished responsibility sounds good!
I feel better for having a rant. Thanks for listening
Thank you, Sheena xx
Tired and emotional, definitely- with a big chunk of self pity mixed in. I had no idea how hard it would be to get back to work. It's not the job itself, I didn't expect the attitude I'm at the wrong end of. I am definitely considering going over my manager's head, I can't believe how i was made to feel today.
Thank you again for your kind words
Oh rose! That is unacceptable behaviour from your line manager if you can get in touch with your HR department and discuss. Employers have an obligation to treat you fairly and without prejudice I know you will be tired and emotional but please don't let them treat you like this x if I can do anything to help you please let me know xsheena x
Ready for a rant?
Work has gone from bad to worse. Got taken into an office by my line manager today. Apparently I'm making people uncomfortable. One example given was a girl complaining about feeling bad with a hangover. I'd said, as I would always have done, "Self inflicted, not giving you any sympathy" !!! People are feeling they have to watch everything they say around me, poor things. I AM SO ANGRY!!! Result is that no-one, with a few fab exceptions, really interacts with me, they go quiet when I approach. I've been told to think about how I affect others, particularly those who've lost close relatives to cancer, and be MORE SENSITIVE TO THEIR NEEDS.
I am sick of feeling like a leper, and to be told it's me that's being the insensitive one is beyond belief. I have tried to be my old positive and lively self, but I'm fed up of being blanked by people I used to work closely alongside.
I really don't know whether I can carry on working at that place. I have to be back to full time hours in 4 weeks, doing 24 hours this week and already shattered.
Hope everyone else is feeling happier than I am right now.
Hello from the Land of the Healthy! (sorry if that sounds smug, don't mean it to)
I don't actually know how to feel right now. It's weird shedding my cancer patient identity.I know it never goes away, I have the loss of a dear friend after several years in remission to remind me of that. And bloody Tamoxifen! I also have a touch of survivor guilt too, thinking of those who haven't had such an "easy ride" through this experience and are still going through treatment.
But I'm going to push all that aside and get on with life as it should be lived without medical appointments all over the calendar!
Love to all
Just a really quick post before I go to work: Got my boobs out for the final time this morning! The oncologist discharged me!!! happy and crying all over the place.
Said I can come off tamoxifen if I choose to, it won't make that much difference.
Now to get on with my life again
Love to everyone
Cheryl I'm glad you've got your neurology appointments sorted out and sorry you've had to yell & scream to do it. Hopefully it'll prove to be 'old' damage as you say rather than anything new to worry about. I think you and Rose were due to have your radiotherapy follow up meetings this week so if I've got that right, good luck to both of you and let us know how you get on. Also jealous about you having a brain, I used to have one but think I lost it somewhere along the line
Love to all
Will listen away
Just put a long post about a frustrating 10 days I have had regards nothing important - just my Anastrozole- you know stuff that is supposed to keep cancer under control.
Not going to repeat post as it's a long one but I direct you all to it on the hormone therapy thread
Just had a couple glasses of red to attempt to relax - perhaps I'll sleep tonight then, first time this week!!
Hope all are well on this journey we are on
Job hunting, finding a brain, etc