Hello ladies! Hope everyone is ok, good to hear from you Ceej, hope you are having a good time.
Can I just ask, maybe directed more towards our mx marchies, does anyone know if you get feelings back in the op area? Its just that my op site has been numb since I had the mx last January so I just thought that is how its going to be now. The area includes the top half of my underarm, arm pit, chest and round to my back. However, I have been having some disconmfort in the area lately so just wondered if this could be sensation returning to the area. My mx was Jan 5th, so coming up to a year now. I would be intersted in hearing how others are feeling and if I am 'normal'! I have had some aches on the same side in my back / shoulder blade, but am fairly certain that is muscular.
Am DEFINITELY not weighing myself ! Lunch time here in Mexico -oooh what shall i eat now ?!!!
hugs to everyone - just caught up with posts - thank you all so much for your support and understanding this year - couldnt have done it without you x
Hope everyone has enjoyed their Christmas.
Yesteday at work was fine, I even had my photo taken with Santa in one of the residential homes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Did try to go for a walk at Winterton to see the seals today, but the everybody else seemed to have the same idea, so couldn't get parked, so ended up having a walk along the beach at Sea Palling instead which was nice, did see a seal swimming in the sea there though. Going to try and go to Winterton another day, when hopefully there will be less people.
TWINKY you have had a time of it with your chest problems. Hope you are starting to feel better and can enjoy heading to Devon.
Well back to work tomorrow.!!!!!!
Merry christmas everyone, its a year today since i found my lump so a bit of a strange feeling, its the first year for ages that i havent worked so have a lovely day planned.
Jane hope you have a nice shift, i'm back to work on 2nd and starting to feel nervous ha ha
anyway have a great christmas everyone xxx
So sorry that it's been a while. After getting a cough/virus thing I got worse & ended up at the doctors & was diagnosed with a chest infection. I also had some food poisoning at the same time just to make the experience really unpleasant! Antibiotics stopped mybreathing problem after a couple of days but I had a raging temp for four days. Doc wanted to see me again as she told me the chest x ray that I had at the hospital wasn't in fact clear (as they had told me) but showed something in my lower left lung. She could hear some rattling & hence prescribing the antibiotics. I went back & she sent me for another chest x ray last week to make sure what was showing has gone away. It scares me a bit I can tell you. Not sure when I will get the results. Missed my FIL 80th birthday meal last Saturday but dragged myself to the Andre Rieu concert on the Tuesday (his birthday present). Was a fab concert but really didn't need a late night out & my cough has got worse again. Drive down south Saturday to see all my family & got back late last night. Last day at work today & just had a power nap before I throw mince pies into the car & head off to stay at the in-laws. We are home alone Boxing Day before heading down to Devon to see more family & meet 3 new arrivals for the first time this year. I can't believe I'm having to do so much travelling! Will take it easier in 2013. Despite my wish for reconstructive surgery I think I might give it a miss next year & have a surgery free year. Feel like I've been through so much. Hugs to everyone. Think we've all had our diagnosis anniversary this month (mine was 16th Dec). Am so glad to have got this far in one piece! Looking forward to seeing you all in March. You are a remarkable bunch & it's nice we can all laugh & cry together. Uh oh....feeling all emotional now!
Just coming on to let you all know that I'm thinking of you and to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Let's hope that 2013 will be much better for all and we have nice things to look forward to.
It's pouring with rain here in Norfolk and looks very miserable. Feel so sorry for those having to work today or having to go out and do their last minute shopping. We popped out for a couple of things which we had forgotten and the supermarket was really busy at 9.30am, goodness only knows what it will be like now. Anyway, hope you will all have a good few days and then we have New Year to think about!
Morning M M's
Just want to wish everyone a very Happy Christmas xxxxx We're off to the local pub forour Chrismas dins tomorrow which I 'm looking forward to. We have bought a turkey and are going to cook it in Boxing Day so we can have turkey and chips and sandwiches the day after. We found we really missed having a turkey to pick at when we went out for lunch ast year.
Wolsty... Jane i've been exactly the same with clothes...don't like any f them and anything I buy is grey, gawd lnows why but at least it matches my hair lol. Good lick with the Gerceptin, mines on Thursday, so we're going to see the new James Bond movie after as the cinema is only across the road.
Marie67....Jane hope you don't have to work too hard over Christmas xxxxx
Love to all our mM's. Thinking of Dulcie xxxx Amylou hooe you are ok too hunni xxxx
Just checking in to wish you all a Happy Christmas. I am starting to feel better thankfully although still coughing like mad. Saw my BC surgeon yesterday and she wants me to have a CT scan just to check everything is OK - I'm sure it is and that she is just being precautionary. So have Herceptin tomorrow morning then my scan on 28th. Then we head of skiing on 30th December. Not sure how I will get on but it will be lovely to get away.
I have red Christmassy nails too - can't decide what to wear on Christmas Day - just feel like nothing looks good at the moment - my poor OH is being very complimentary and offered to take me to buy something new but I have dug a sparkly top out now and feel happier. We are off out to some neighbours for Christmas drinks tonight so I'm really looking forward to that and then going to my Mum's tomorrow to meet up with my sisters and their families. Will be a mad time as there will be 22 of us.
it seems like ages since I've posted on here but i do look on here every day -usually on my phone though and can't manage posting on that.
It's a year today since my diagnosis, the longest year ever, but thanks in the main to you lot it hasn't been anywhere near as bad as I expected this time last year! So a big thank you for being such a lovely supportive group, it would have been so much harder without you, and I really do think you're all marvellous!
I've also been suffering from yet another bug, but starting to feel better now just in time to enjoy Christmas! We're having two christmas dinners, the first one tomorrow before eldest son goes to Derbyshire for the holiday, so it feels like Christmas Eve today!
Joan I also have sparkly red finger nails - they look great, but my toe nails are a different story - after all this time I finally lost one big toe nail, and the other one is black. Not a pretty sight! Thank goodness it's winter - I hope they've grown back by the time I want to wear sandals.
Jane, hope its not too busy over Christmas, and you get some time to relax.
Beryl hope you find your new prescription better.
Parsnip, hope you have a really lovely time in Malta.
I just wanted to wish you all a really happy Christmas, and a very happy and healthy 2013 - I'll be raising a glass to you all at midnight!
Love to all
My home computer has broken so i'm struggling to post anything, have just logged onto my work laptop to say hello. Like Dani I use the facebook site more than this one now, although I do pop in when my computer allows me to.
Jane, I've worked many a year on christmas day, the thought of it isn't nice but I always enjoyed it, everything is much more relaxed. Yes, my little girl is beside herself with excitement, i'm really looking forward to this christmas, it's the first time in years I wont be slaving over a hot stove and running around after the in laws, i'm looking forward to watching a dodgy film with a large glass of something in my hand, before falling asleep in front of the telly - that last bit is fantasy, no chance of that with a 5 year old! Good news about your colleague but worrying for the other two.
Beryl, hope you're ok and ready for christmas, can't scroll back to read any updates.
Thinking of all of the ladies we haven't heard from in a long time, wishing you all a happy, healthy and peaceful Christmas and New Year, here's to a better 2013.
Love to all
thank you for your lovely post and it has been very amiss of me as I've been neglecting to check posts on this site...
i mainly use our Marvellous Marchies Face book page but I gather you don't use it?
My final touches surgery wise will be sometime early Spring as I was told it would have to be at least 6 months after my last radiotherapy treatment before they would consider "tweaking".
My anniversary mammogram is around 9th February however I don't have an appointment yet - I'm sure I'll get a letsoon in theNew Year about it. I do have an appointment to see my radiologist on 3rd Jan and hopefully he will tell me the reconstructed breast is ok..
We're spending Christmas Day with my sister and her fiancée and I must say it will be the first Christmas that I haven't had to cook a thing.. I will be cooking Boxing Day so haven't gotten away with it!
I send you lots of Christmas joy, peace and good health to you and all my Marvellous Marchies..
Well this is my last day off now until Boxing Day, so everywhere has been cleaned, and the shopping done, there is only going to be the 2 of us anyway, and OH is doing a buffet tea for Christmas Day as I won't be home until 6.30pm, then will do a roast Boxing Day, am planning a nice walk somewhere poosibly Winterton to see the seals.
My colleague got good news as the breast clinic, it was just a blocked gland nothing more sinister, which is great news, however my new boss found 2 lumps and has just had core biopsies done and is awaiting results and another colleague has been referred back to the breast clinic as her boob is still discharging from the nipple and painful, (exact same symptoms as mine was!!) She was seen a year ago by they dismissed her, so I have told her to be more persisitent this time so she can get some answers.
PATCHIT you nails sound great, I'm glad that you enjoyed your champagne afternoon tea sounds delicious. I have organised for 4 extra special friends who were great this year to have bouquets delived on Christmas Eve as a special Thank you. I will be toasting us MM's on the 31st ( hopefully I 'll be able to stay awake!!).
BETTIE, glad that you are feeling better, tha't the trouble with this time of year so many bugs and our immune systems are still vulnerable. Great you have booked a trip to New York.
PARSNIP I hope you managed to get all your problems solved before your holiday, as you say it was added stress you didn't need. Have a lovley time in Malta.
WAITING TOO I hope you are doing ok I think you said you were coming back to England for Christmas, I bet your little one's are getting excited.
CARABEL hope you are doing ok, you are not having the best of weather at the moment are you, My dad and stepmum are flying up to Edinburgh for Christmas to stay with her family, so they are keeping fingers crossed for good flying weather.
MEGSMUM I hope you are doing ok and have managed to get a wig sorted for your daughter, when do you start back to work?
CARE N hope you are doing ok, I think you said your next hol is to Centre Parcs in Jan.
CAROLYN guess you have a nice break from school now, though I am sure with Christmas you will still be busy.
PARAGYAN look forward to catching up omn 28th, hopefully the weather will be kind.
GEORGIE hope you are doing ok and have managed to get a date for reconstruction sorted.
TWINKY I hope you are over your nasty cough now and can look forward to Christmas.
DANI hope you are doing ok have you a date to get the last bit of your surgery done/
CHASCAT I bet you little one is very excited about Christmas, I think you said you were all going out for Christmas lunch.
Well going to settle down and watch Strictly shortly
Joan - your nails sound fab!! I had a real nail disaster with my christmas nails. One split below the nail bed and is now a short and stubbly glittery nail. Looks rubbish but the other 9 look great ha ha.
Feeling better this morning. Been ironing since 5.30. How sad eh but my house has just degenerated into a tip the last week and I've got to get a grip.
Alison - have a great hol
Best wishes to all of you
I think all the MM's should raise a glass of something (bubbles sounds good to me) at midnight on 31st Dec to all MM's everywhere. Its what I will be doing. Anyone fancy joining me in an organised toasting of all MM's? Some MM's not posting for one reason or another (Dulcie), MM's lost along the way (Scotties), MM's we haven’t heard from for a while..... but all still MM's and all still part of us this year. xxx
Hello MM’s, hope everyone is ok and ready for Christmas. I have just got back from having my nails done, bright red glitter gels! They look fab with the purple hair! Honestly, think I am turning into a mad old lady! I think I seriously need to tone things down a bit! Eccentric, that’s what I am going to be! Lol! We are going down to London tomorrow to meet my Cousin and her hubby for a meal in the evening. They live in Aberdeen so we don’t get together very often. I am really looking forward to seeing them again.
Gillian, how did you get on today with your appointments? Hope it all went well for you. I agree with Beryl, that was a lovely post of yours, I could feel it really came from your heart. Bless you hon, I hope you manage to get through Christmas with a smile on your face. Where are you going away to?
Alison, how are you getting on? Hope you are getting your things together for your holiday to Malta. Try to concentrate on what you are going to be doing while you are away. Let yourself have a good time, I know you will miss Kai terribly, but the time will pass and you must make the most of being somewhere new with your lovely sister. You are lucky to have her looking out for you, have a great few days away with each other. It will probably be a good opportunity for you to spend quality time together. Thinking of you xxx
Wolsaty, Jane, how did your appointments go this week? I know you are feeling poorly so I really hope you get over the worst of the bugs soon. Aren’t you going skiing? How is Ella now?
Beryl, glad you got your new prescription at last! Hope the new meds suit you better. Did you have a nice meal out yesterday? I took a friend of mine for a ‘champagne tea’ this afternoon. It was at a local hotel and we had loads of cakes and sandwiches and a glass of bubbles. It was scrummy! I wanted to treat her to something nice, she was well lovely this year and has been very supportive and caring so I just wanted to do something nice for her.
Bettie, Sue, great news from your Onc! Phew! New York, that’s fab (so fab they named it twice! Lol). Glad you have got something lovely to look forward to. Hope the bugs bugger off soon!
Hope everyone else is doing ok,
Love to all our MM’s
Argh, today has been so stressful i really rather need the holiday now! I was having my noisy (under guarantee) fridgefreezer repaired today and turns out there was a blockage which with the repair has now moved so that it can't be regassed. so noisy fridge has turned into not working fridge. fortunately i had been running it down but still a lot of waste as can't get a new one til after i get back. And i noticed a leak under the sink so have had to get someone out to deal with that as well! not how i had planned to spend the last day with my boy. that didnt go smoothly either but in typical child resilience he was happy giggling watching TV before I'd got back home so at least he cheered up (after leaving me feeling so awful at the tears when i left him!) cheeky children eh. I know he'll miss me still but i do hope he still has lots of fun.
Sue, great you've rebooked New York, how exciting. Hope you feel better soon
Beryl, hope the new pills mean that those aches ease for you, that would be a nice christmas present, i expect a good boxing day walk if it does work 🙂
WS, hope everything went well with appointments today and you get some rest this weekend after running around all day
I'll be joining in that midnight toast to say goodbye to this year and wish us all a happy healthy 2013, quite nice to know we'll be toasting each other around the country 🙂
So, i have my "warning I contain metal" medical note from the GP in case my expander implant (with metal port) sets off the airport alarms, and i think i'm pretty much packed now at least. So i want to wish you all a merry christmas, i really hope its a peaceful one for everyone, hopefully families can stay calm for a short period and enjoy each other's company (prob too much to ask I know). See you all when I get back
Hi, hope you're all ok. Been to see onc today, was very nervous but everything was ok. Mentioned the hot flushes and sore joints but apparently they are just menopausal symptons and not the Tamoxifen. Having about 12 hot flushes a day but hopefully they'll eventually fizzle out. Spent the rest of the day in bed with a hacking cough and bad stomach. There is so much of it around. Booked a trip to New York (one that I had to cancel this year) and am going 10th Feb which will be a year to the day of my bc diagnosis. Sooooo excited.
Alison - hope you're okay. Christmas can be such a funny time with a lot of pressures on people.
Jane - Barbados - wow!!
Well I've finally got my new prescription (Aromasin - Exemestane) and taken first tablet this morning, so will have to wait and see how things progress. After reading the leaflet that comes with it they all sound the same as far as s/e's go!
Weather is absolutely awful here today and looks pretty much the same across the country. Hubby is taking me out for a Chinese meal for lunch and I'm looking out the window to see if it's worth going out for? We will probably go because they do good food and it is the only opportunity we have left before Xmas.
Parsnip (Alison) - Not long now before you go off with your sister to Malta, hope I've got that right? I know that you will be missing your little man over that period but going to Malta will give you a boost also. I've been there a couple of times and the weather should be good for you and not too hot to be uncomfortable. I'm sure you will have a lovely time and your little man will be very pleased to see you when you get back, also you will both have lots to talk about! Next Xmas will be all yours and it will be something to look forward to and it soon comes around, doesn't it?
Joan - Xmas dinner out with the family sounds very good to me. We had a look at possibly doing that but the prices around here were really silly. Decided to do it ourselves and we will make it fun even though it is just the two of us this Xmas.
Got to skip off now but will be back again later.
Love to all and best wishes.
Was looking at my earlier post when I was one finger typing - what a load of errors, should proof read before sending!
Thanks joan and WS for your kind words, they are most comforting. I am feeling a bit brighter today and have had a lovely morning with my boy so far chilling out and playing games (he's already broken up from school which is nice). Was rather tired yesterday which never helps does it, and I had apparently messed up the handover days (which I'm not so sure I did but who knows with this brain fog!) which means I have one less night with him, last straw I think.
WS, am glad you've got counselling sorted, its been such a year I think it's good to have the space to get it all out without feeling like you're imposing on people. I've had a few sessions now and it was going really well, I was feeling a lot more positive even if I still felt like I couldn't plan far ahead. I think this time of year always throws things up though and I'm hoping some of the coping strategies I've learnt will help with the down times. Hope your Xmas will be ok without your boy, it just seems another blow to have them away after all this doesn't it, but you are right, next year is ours and we'll hopefully be feeling fighting fit (and be able to taste Xmas dinner!)
joan, hope your staff do went well. I think you've got a great idea going out for Xmas lunch, everyone can relax then and no washing up 🙂 have to say it does feel odd to have an empty fridge this close to Christmas
jane, glad you're getting all festive, I do like all the lights and sparkly stuff, cheers up the long nights. Hope your friend is ok, horrible time to be in the waiting room, particularly after a previous diagnosis. Must've brought some memories back for you as well, hope you're ok.
right, back to my boy, think we may make some more Xmas decorations whilst waiting for the postman to bring a new printer (so I can print boarding passes!).
love to all, thoughts are with the ladies we haven't heard from from a while
I so so recognise those feelings of not spending Christmas with my boys when I first separated and the boys were little.
I remember at times I felt utterly distraught at not being with them. It got easier as the years went on his turn/my turn. I do hope you are able to have time with good friends and family. It will help to be around others, of course you might want time on your own too. Christmas will pass and you will be with him again cuddling up. These years when they are little are so precious that we so want to part of it all with them. I realise that more and more as mine get older.
Tonight my 15yr old went to look for something in his bedroom and came across a box, with bits and pieces marbles, badges won for swimming, a toy car, his baby tooth, a drawing he had done. I too felt very sad as I will not be with him at Christmas. I went for a wee so he would not see me upset as he hates it.
Please don't worry too much about crying in front of him, I too have done that and as you say it can end with having a giggle! I do think it is important for children to see our sadness at times, then they too can be sad - Our upset can give them permission to air their own feelings.
Of course having breast cancer makes it so much harder to bear and all the 'what if's' creep in. I know you were having some counselling and I do hope it is helping? I too start this Friday.
As you say it has been a long old year for us all, full of fear, pain, mental anguish ups/downs and for you still some ongoing treatment.
You are a lovely lady and a wonderful Mum and next Christmas will be yours.
Parsnip, Alison, sorry to hear you are finding things so emotional at the moment. As you say, lots of stuff going on, its natural that things will be hard sometimes. I am sure you are doing exactly the best thing by going away for Christmas. I know it will still be hard for you but it would have been so much harder if you had been staying at home. Tomorrow is another day and I hope you will feel better. I also hope you manage to sleep better tonight. Big hug Joan xxx
Had a busy couple of days at work and tomorrow we are going out for our staff do. Looking forward to it as it will be a nice meal and a few drinks at our local village pub, so no driving either.
Wolsty, Jane, what a lovely holiday to look forward to. Have you been to Barbados before? A work colleague has been and really loved the island. Good luck with your appointments tomorrow, hope the echo is good.
Bettie, Sue, welcome back! Glad you had a nice holiday! Bet you have felt the cold since you got back? Well done to your OH on passing his exams, I hope his job has been confirmed for next year. Is he something to do with the Youth Offending Team? Hope you get on ok with your Onc on Friday and that they have some suggestions to improve your joints.
KQ, turkey dinners for the kitties, hope they appreciate it! We have bought Cleo a card and we are getting her a scratching post for her present. She doesn’t eat anything other than dried food so she wont be getting a turkey dinner! We managed to get booked into the pub for our Christmas dinner so no roasting turkeys for me!!
Ceej, Carol, hope you have a FABULOUS holiday! Enjoy Christmas in the sunshine and HAPPY NEW YEAR to you too! I am going to raise a glass of bubbly to all our MM’s on New Years Eve to say good riddance to 2012 and welcome to 2013, and what I hope will be a happy and healthy year for us all.
Beryl, cant believe you are still waiting for your new prescription! I know you have had frustrations with your surgery, but what pace do they work at, slow or stop?! Grrr! I am getting cross on your behalf! Thank you for your comments about my hair. Goodness knows what I will do with it next time! Sounds like you have Christmas sorted out and all your plans in place.
Marie 67, Jane, sorry to hear about your friend, hope everything is ok for her when she goes to the clinic. I also use the ibuprofen gel on my shoulder which does help. How are you getting gon with your work hours now? Hope they are easier to manage for you.
Lots of ladies not posted for quite a while, hope everyone is doing ok. Keep our Dulcie in my thoughts and hope she has managed to get the help she needed. PoppyD is another one who has gone missing. Peanut, Waiting Too, Twinky, you are all absent without leave!!!! Let us know you are ok if you are still reading the thread.
Take care MM’s, sweet dreams
have been frantically busy sorting Christmas stuff out on top of everything else (p,us the additional travel issues with changed meds etc). Really hit me tonight that my little boy won't be with me for Xmas. He's been getting so overwhelmingly excited and looking forward to Christmas Day as he should and I want him to be excited. But it made me cry, just sat on the sofa watching him unable to stop. Bless him though he grabbed a book and cuddled up with me to read and then told me he still loved me even though I had stropped, couldn't help but laugh at that. Still feels so difficult though even though I have something to look forward to myself. Steroids are stopping me sleeping properly which I don't think is helping matters then all e year anniversaries of everything bc related. Rough night tonight.
good to hear everyone's Christmas prep is going well though, gives me some cheer at least
Well have got the tree up and decorated, so looking a little more festive now, also got a real tree outside, which is now lit up, after aving to but new lights!!!!
Had lunch today with some friends and old work collegues, which was nice to catch up, although one of them has an appointment at breast clinic Thurs as found a lump, she previously had Ca cevix 10 years ago, so is understandably worried.
BETTIE glad you had a lovely holiday, yes it is amazing how much washing 2 people can cause.
CEEJ hope you had a good time getting pampered today. Have a lovely relaxing Christmas with oyur lovely man.
WOLSTY glad you are planning some lovely holidays for next year. Hope the stiches have been removed with no problems. Yes I am trying to stay clear of D&V and the chest infections that are going around, not going easy as alot of my patients are frail elderly and susceptible to picking up bugs easily.
KQ I'm sure the kitties will appreciate lovely turkey dinners for Christmas, I to have just about delivered all my pressies and cards.
BERYL that's a bit naughty that they have not sorted out your new meds yet, my appointment with surgeon has been changed to though is now mid afternoon on Feb 22nd, so not so convienient as the one on 25th was in the morning, but ho hum nothing I can do.
KITCAT lovely to hear from you sounda like you have made some major changes to your life and are very happy with them. I think we will always have a lot of what if's in the future, and have a roller coaster of emotions.
JOAN love the hair colour, I to get an ache in my shoulder and shoulder blade from time to time, and like you think is due to the sugery and wearing prosthesis ( when I chose to do so!!) I tend to rub on some Ibuprofen gel on which seems to sort it out.
Hope you are all doing just fine? Finally finished decorating our Xmss tree and I think it looks great and now feeling very festive.
Ceej - Have a great holiday away with your lovely man and don't think about worrying about anything, just chill out you deserve it.
Joan - Your hair looks great and I'm finally happy with my hair colour, which is pretty much my natural colour. Getting it coloured again on Friday in time for Xmas.
My hospital appointment to see surgeon on Jan 15th has been cancelled and changed to 23rd because unforseen circumstances,which is Ok and it is a better time of day for me (11.15). Still waiting to get my new prescription for anti-cancer drug. Went to the surgery today snd it is still not ready, just as well that I have enough Arimadex left to see me through! My right knee is a little better but not as it should be.
Thumbs still blooming sore and not as flexiblei as they should be, don't know if they will even recover with change of drug, time will tell. Other thant that I'm feelinf Ok. Going to enjoy Xmas even tho
ugh it is just hubby and me on Xmas day. Every Xmas day they have the swimmers going in to the sea for charity, so we will go and cheer them on weather permitting. My brother and SIL willbe with us for New Year and friends on Boxing Day. Our youngest daughter will be over to see us sometime in the New Year and our eldest is in Australia we will be speaking to them on Skype. We have splashed on a Tablet which I'm trying out now, practice doesn't necessarilly mean perfect. Not used to this one finger typing!
Anyway, mustn't prattle on any longer because got bowls competion to go to this afternoon.
Hope all our lovely ladies are doing well and it would be nice to hear from you soon'especially those whohave not been in contact for a while.
Just a quick "poke my head around the door" from me. Am at work this morning and leaving at lunchtime, got trim booked in then nails later. Suitcase packed (I think).
Have already started taking disprin before the flight, and bought flight socks yesterday - so much to consider with this damned disease!
I had to laugh at my brother in law at his 65th on Sat night - he'd obviously had a few and when I said goodbye to him he said "oh how are you now etc etc - have you got the all clear?" so I just said "well, no, cos I've been told it could come back up to 20 years later", so he replied "oh that must be terrible to live with".............I just had to laugh at him being so blunt lol. It actually made me realise that I HADN'T been thinking that lately which is good!!
Then at 3am I had really itchy legs and leaned over half asleep to get some E45 cream, and the damn thing squirted right across my eyes and face and hair! I stumbled around the bedroom looking for a towel but couldnt open my eyes haha.
Hope everyone else has a chilling xmas and can relax a little at least. I'll be thinking of you all, not sure that I'll get any internet access but you never know.
Happy Xmas to everyone and a HAPPY NEW YEAR XXXX
Afternoon MM's xxxx
Lovely to see you back Kitcat..
Bettie...Glad you had a fabulous hol xxxx I can't seem to stop eating at the minute for some reason...just seem to be thinking about one meal to the next :))))
Wolsty/Socks...Think I'm on 3 monthly follow ups with surgeon too, have had 2 already since WLE last March and go again in Feb so will be due for mammogram then as will be a year to the DAY since I found the beast! Will have to stop poking at the hard bit around where my lump was as am finding am doing it at work and through clothes and my colleague (male) keeps giving me strange looks lololol :)))))
Have actually finished my Christmas shopping and written most of the cards...just got to have a day delivering pressies over the weekend and then all done :)) Not got the kitties pressie yet though...think will do them some turkey dins lol
Went to a carol service last night which was lovely...9 carols and 9 lessons by candlelight and then home to watch Sports Personality of The Year. Voted for Sarah Storey as she lives locally but I knew Bradley would win and deservedly so as he is such a character.
Love to all MM's
Morning all I'm back (1/2 a stone heavier!!) had a great hol, gorgeous hotel and weather. Hubby never slept for the whole holiday (nothing romantic ha ha) apparently I snored constantly so poor him, he looks like he could do with another hol already!! He found out he had passed his honours degree in Youth Justice whilst we were away I am so proud of him particularly with everything else that has gone on this year. Today he finds out whether his job is ok next year (he is permanent but they have to bid for 10% of their funding now) so plse keep your fingers crossed for us.
My joints have been really bad on hol partic my feet. I've got to go and see the onc Frid but I guess all the hormone tabs have pretty much the same side effects.
Must go, up to my eyes in washing.How come there is so much with just two of us!!
I'll scroll back and see what everyone has been up to later but for now signing off. Hope you're all okay.
PS I feel like the turkey thats been fatted up for xmas!!
I am being followed up every 3 months for a year!
It seems to differ so much. Although it makes me feel very anxious before each appt I am glad it is so frequent as I am looked out for should there be any sign of recurrence.
Jane, Barbados - how completely wonderful, some months away yet but I hope you have the best time.
I have no idea how often I will be followed up - am seeing my breast surgeon on Wednesday so will ask her, then its off for my echo-cardiogram (fingers crossed that's OK this time and I will be able to carry on with my Herceptin). On Friday I go to see my plastic surgeon who will remove my stitches. The bruising and swelling is going down thankfully. Herceptin on Christmas Eve then all my treatment is done for 2012 - hooray 🙂
I have also booked today to go to Barbados for Easter - just decided that we all needed a restful holiday and I'm really excited. Will give me the incentive to lose a bit of weight hopefully!!
I hope everyone is managing to stay healthy. I have had cough and cold, went away but now cough is back. Managed to avoid sickness bug so far but was just in a local shop chatting to someone I know when she told me that this is her first trip out for 3 days as she has had it and still feels very nauseous. I left pretty quickly and am just keeping my fingers crossed that me and my family (and all of you lovely ladies) manage to avoid it. I don't deal very well with vomit!!
Just made some piccallli for Christmas (OH loves it) and poured myself a glass of wine listening to some Christmas carols. I am especially looking forward to Christmas this year. Sports Personality tonight on TV - I'm going for Bradley Wiggins.
Its lovely to hear from you again. You are not alone in finding the forum difficult to use since the relaunch. We seemed to lose a few ladies at that time. I am glad you found us again though! I don’t know if you know, but we now have our own facebook page ‘Marvellous Marchies 2012’. It’s a closed page so you would have to send a request to join, but you would be most welcome. Some ladies haven’t joined as they don’t use fb. The BCC page is still going to continue, of course, so hopefully you will be able to post in the future using either / both methods. I don’t really know much about fb, but I am sure one of the ladies with admin rights can let you know how to join if you don’t know.
You have had lots of adjustments to make this year haven’t you? It must have been a big decision, giving up work, but you have done so well, being able to turn it into a positive thing. You sound happy with your decision and accepting of the situation you find yourself in, so well done you! That isn’t easy! I have found the mental side of things hard to process now that the physical treatment has finished. You are right though, and I too have had positive things come out of the last year. I think the worries and fears that we all have now will lessen as time goes on (hope that is the case, anyway!). I can only say that I do try to keep things in perspective, especially if I have any niggling aches or pains, and also around mammo time (don’t always manage it though!). I also try to think that no amount of worrying makes any difference to anything, so its just wasted energy. Que sera, sera! Sorry if that sounds blasé, its not meant to be!
Well, better go and get dressed, take care and keep in touch
Sorry it's been such a long time since I posted, I've found the forum dreadful since it relaunched and I got fed up with making posts and then having them wiped out before they were posted.
I've been trying to read other people's posts from time to time and it's been heartening to see how everyone has got on and that other people still have the same concerns as me!
Unfortunately I didn't feel well enough to go back to work after my treatment, it was always my intention to do so, but although I went in when I could during the chemo, and every day during radiotherapy, I'm either suffering long term side effects from the chemo or from the ongoing aromatase tablets, not sure which.
So I gave up work at the end of September and am enjoying the rest although I miss my friends a great deal. It's been a difficult year but with hindsight I wouldn't change it as so much good has come out of a bad situation. I never expected to reassess my life because I was fully intending to return to work, but I've now got different things to do and I'm really enjoying them.
Like other people though, it's always at the back of my mind that the cancer will return, I have a poor prognosis unfortunately and a CT scan I had recently showed up some abnormalities although the hospital doesn't seem bothered about them at the moment anyway.
I'm not quite sure how one gets over that feeling and is able to move on, so if anyone has any ideas I'd be interested in hearing them because I do want to move on and not feel that my future is dominated by my past.
Take care everyone.
Had a nice evening, put the decs on the Christmas tree, Annie Lennox Christmas CD playing, working my way down a glass of sherry! Very festive! Also had some good news, we are now booked into the pub for Christmas day lunch as someone has cancelled. Big relief for me, I wasn’t looking forward to my 2 offspring being here together, hopefully they will tolerate each other on neutral territory!
Beryl, I don’t think I will normally be having check-ups more frequent than yearly. When I had my first mammo and check up in September, I mentioned the ache I get in my shoulder blade and back. The Dr suggested that I take neurofen for 10 days and if it hadn’t gone, I was to go back. Well, it did go, has since come back and now comes and goes. I am convinced that it is muscular, from the surgery and also from the weight of the prosthesis. The Dr just wanted to see me in 6 months (March) to check that everything is ok. I am sure I will revert to yearly once I have my second mammo in September. Well, I decided on the purple hair again. Its more magenta this time! Very bright! I really like it. Think OH is undecided! I have decided that I wont do it again, but hmmm, well, we will just have to wait and see! Will try to post a picture of it. Your hair looks a lovely colour, I am pleased you are happy with it now, I know it was a bit of a shock to you when you first had it dyed again. Hope you had a nice evening to celebrate John’s birthday. Happy birthday from me!
Ceej, you sound mega busy! Bet you cant wait to get on that plane and put your feet up! Hope you manage to get through everything without tiring yourself out too much!
Jane, yes, miserable day! Thought it was still night at getting up time! Hope you have managed to sort your decs out now! I am going to wait 6 months then try to do the blood test again, hopefully they will have improved by then!
Lots of missing ladies at the moment! Hope everyone is ok and just busy with Christmas etc.
Sleep tight MM’s
Miserable weather here in Norfolk. Had to wait in for boiler man to come and service boiler, he arrived mid morning so that was ok, but whilst he was fiddling with the boiler he created a leak!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2 hours later he left.
CEEJ glad you are feeling more upbeat, you have quite a busy few days before you jet off to Mexico. I hope you get the loo sorted.
WS I'm not sure what your appointment was for but am glad it was good news (going by what Joan posted)
CAROLYN guess you are mega busy with all the Christmas stuff that happens at the school this time of year, whatever your appointment is I hope it all goes well.
BERYL I am the same as you I will only be followed up by surgeon and have yearly mamograms, my appointment with the surgeon is 22nd Feb , so I am assuming will get a date to have mamogram before that. Hope you enjoyed OH's brthday meal and that you manage to get your decs up. I was going to put mine up today , but unfortunately it was OH that packed them away last year as I was incapacitated and things are not where they should be!!!!!!
PATCHIT I was told the veins could take up to a year to get back to normal after chemo has finished, that's another 6 months for me. Hope you have managed to decide what colour to do your hair, and that you get your Christmas dinner booked.
CARE N hope you are doing ok now you are fully back to work, and that you have double checked that you have not missed out on any holiday!!!!!!!!!!
PEANUT hope you have recovered from your holiday and have settled back to the work routine.
TWINKY hope you are fully recovered now from that horrid cough and taht you have not had to cancel anymore gigs.
BETTIE hope that you have had a good holiday, I'm sure you will notice the difference in our weather.
CHASCAT I hope you are doing ok now you are back to work, I am sure your little girl is getting excited about Christmas.
WOLSTY I hope you are all recovered from you last lot of surgery and that you are all sorted for your ski ing trip. I hope your daughter is doing ok.
GEORGIE I know you have an appointment to discuss you recon have you got a date for this yet?
Hope all the other ladies we haven't heard from for a while are doing ok.
Morning all - well my last full day at work before my hols ! Am doing a half day first aid health and safety thingy on Monday afternoon so that I can be the "appointed person" etc, and then I've got Tues afternoon off to get nails done and see if they can make my hair look any less messy !
Looks like I'm babysitting the grandson tonight as daughter working at 8pm and I'd arranged to go and see an old school friend, so looks like I'll be taking him along - that is of course AFTER I've called at son's after work as there's something wrong with his tyre - wish he had a dad that wasnt a complete alcoholic, It's hard being mum AND dad especially with "man things" like motorbikes - my son is not exactly much good in that respect either!
He also wants me to go and watch him play rugby tomorrow which I havent done for so long, but it's just fitting in all in as I promised to go and see my aunty, I also need to pack and grandson has to be with his grandson (on boyfriends side) by 2pm and we've got this 65th party to go to. So I'm not sure we will get much shopping done ha ha.
Oh and my drain keeps blocking up which usually means it costs 80 quid for someone to come out - you flush the toilet and it looks like its gonna come over the top - I can't really leave that while I'm away - we're the end house so it all ends with us and I think that's the problem 😞
Oh well, I'll try and smile about it - it's not life or death - which is how I try and look at things now.
Have a good day all xxx I'll check in later x
Phew what a sharp frost we had last night and now the sun is very bright which is walming it up a bit thank goodness.
Ceej - Not long before you will be jetting off for your holiday and getting some much needed sun and pampering. Sorry to hear about your sons bike and what a pain to have to try and sort that one out. There just doesn't seem to be any justice for the rightful owner, what is going on? Well done you on signing up for yet more exercise and I admire you for going out for a run. I'm afraid I'm no where near being able to run, especially with my knee. I don't mind the cross trainer, bike and treatmill but that's about it. Good to hear that your daughter also passed her driving test which will take the additional strain away from you having to be a mini taxi service. It's nice that she now has a little car to run around in and it gives her some extra freedom.
Joan - I don't get anymore check ups, apart from seeing surgeon in January (annual check post surgery). As far as I'm aware it will be a mam in Oct/Nov next year, unless I have an problems, touch wood I don't. Sorry to hear your veins are still being awkward and I'm sure they are right about it all taking time. Thankfully, I didn't have any problems with them taking blood and having canular inserted. Mind you my regime was 4 chemo's and I'm sure many of you had 6 or poss more, so I guess my veins were not traumatised as much! Hopefully, we will be getting the train from Northampton again for our March meet and I doubt they will be doing anything of prices, but it's worth checking out so thanks for that. Have you decided on a hair colour yet? I'm sticking with the lates one because it's pretty much my natural colour which is amazing really. Spent years trying to find the right one and now we seem to have mastered it.
Megsmum - Sorry to hear that you are feeling down and it's fully understandable with everthing you have going on in your life at the moment. I do so hope that your daughter is doing OK and getting the help she needs during this very difficult time. Having loving family around her giving her support is everything isn't it? Let's hope that 2013 is a better year for all and we can move on. I try not to let myself get into negative thoughts and thinking about the 'what ifs' because there's nothing we can do about it or change things. Sounds easy to say and not the easiest to put into practice but I take each day at a time and work on that. I tell myself to worry about something if and when it rears its ugly head and today is for living. Please don't think I'm being flippant about it because I don't mean to be, it's just how I deal with it. Thinking about you and yours and sending a big hug.
Mary (Peanut) - How are you doing today? Hope that you have settled back into work and you are coping after your holiday. I know that you have family for Xmas and that's something to look forward to, especially with your little grand-daughter to liven things up. Hope to hear from you soon.
Jane (Marie) - Sounds like you are going to have a very busy Xmas with work and commitments. We haven't put any Xmas decs up yet because of husbands BD but plan to get them down at the weekend. Went to Thursford Xmas show the other night and the Xmas decs were amazing. The show was good as well but the prices they were charging for refreshments was really high. It's the first time we have ever been and I would go again but not for a few years. Sorry to hear that you had an eventful trip back from up North, what an experience.
Socks and Parsnip - Very pleased to hear that your test/results went well that must be a load off of your minds, well done!
It's my husbands birthday today and we have his Golf Clubs Xmas do tonight so that's fallen just right. This time last year we went to the do with BC diagnosis and whilst I/we enjoyed ourselves it wasn't the same. I intend to fully enjoy myself tonight even though I have offered to be duty driver. Hubby always does it but because it's his BD I thought it would be a nice thing to do. I'm going to a WI meeting this afternoon and it's the first one I've been to since last Feb because I was starting my chemo treatment and haven't felt like going since then. They have some hand bell ringers going in to play festive music which will be interesting to say the least. My hair growth is very good now and I know that I will look just like everyone else and I won't feel self conscious etc.
Have to go and get ready for my WI meet - everyone take care and best wishes.