Thanks joan and WS for your kind words, they are most comforting. I am feeling a bit brighter today and have had a lovely morning with my boy so far chilling out and playing games (he's already broken up from school which is nice). Was rather tired yesterday which never helps does it, and I had apparently messed up the handover days (which I'm not so sure I did but who knows with this brain fog!) which means I have one less night with him, last straw I think.
WS, am glad you've got counselling sorted, its been such a year I think it's good to have the space to get it all out without feeling like you're imposing on people. I've had a few sessions now and it was going really well, I was feeling a lot more positive even if I still felt like I couldn't plan far ahead. I think this time of year always throws things up though and I'm hoping some of the coping strategies I've learnt will help with the down times. Hope your Xmas will be ok without your boy, it just seems another blow to have them away after all this doesn't it, but you are right, next year is ours and we'll hopefully be feeling fighting fit (and be able to taste Xmas dinner!)
joan, hope your staff do went well. I think you've got a great idea going out for Xmas lunch, everyone can relax then and no washing up
🙂 have to say it does feel odd to have an empty fridge this close to Christmas
jane, glad you're getting all festive, I do like all the lights and sparkly stuff, cheers up the long nights. Hope your friend is ok, horrible time to be in the waiting room, particularly after a previous diagnosis. Must've brought some memories back for you as well, hope you're ok.
right, back to my boy, think we may make some more Xmas decorations whilst waiting for the postman to bring a new printer (so I can print boarding passes!).
love to all, thoughts are with the ladies we haven't heard from from a while
xxx