Two years after diagnosis, i am having to have my tissue expander recon taken out and re-done with LD flap.
I have an open wound in my implant area, and have done for over two weeks now. Nasty fluid is leaking and i have not been able to see my new ps, as he is on leave!
I am starting a new job in a few weeks, and am feeling really stressed, as i do not want this to interfere with my job. Two years ago, i had to decline two job interviews because of diagnosis, and now this!
We are trying to re-locate from north to south at present, providing we can find someone to rent our house out.
I have two little ones, nearly 7 and 3.5, so i am busy busy.
Just feeling really fed up…i can’t believe that i am going to have to have more surgery soon, i really do not feel like it at all!
Naz, don’t you DARE apologise for moaning - if you can’t do so on here, where can you?! And you’ve had plenty to moan about…
If possible do your best to concentrate on the new job stuff and leave the op and associated hassles to the back of your mind. Sometimes there really IS a place for a head-in-the-sand approach, even if it’s just to give our minds a bit of a rest from the stress for a while.
Best of luck with the move and the new job. (And of course the surgery.)
HI Naz, please don’t apologise for the “moan” - feel free, you are living with some of the most stressful events any of us can go through and with body/surgery/wound issues as well - blimey, think I’d be on the ceiling.
Last year when we were living in one room in a building site and I was having chemo and rads and surgery I used to just try to sketch out the day when I woke up and and tried really hard not to think of the whole load of tasks needing done the next day and the one after etc - I also ate loads of cake and ASKED FOR HELP! not something I’m good at but it was really good…
hope some of these thoughts help and feel free to moan any time, you have a lot on.
best Nicola
I just feel as if i am banging my head against a brick wall at the moment…just too much to think about.
Anyway, going to try hard and just deal with immediate stuff, like my new job, and leave OH to sort out the house stuff. Then when hospital arises, i will deal with that then.
Hey Naz I just remembered the hosp gave me a sort of stress management cd to listen to - no idea where it ended up since the builders trashed the place but it was great at the time - used to help me get to sleep …maybe you could try it?
best N
I’d ask your BCN what to do and tell her how you feel.
I know what you mean, having to get mad, chasing people up etc is very draining and you really shouldn’t have to.
There is so much bureaucracy in the NHS as well.
|good luck xx
