Hi all,
As the subject says, I just had nipple reconstruction last week, and they are very big, I asked for small, subtle ones, and these are like 1.5cm tall and 2cm wide. (Well one is, the other is somewhat smaller!) This is freaking me out, and making me very upset. My surgeon insists they will shrink by 50% by the time 3 months has gone by (in time to do the tattoo I suppose). Even then, even if they shrink by 50% I think they are too big. I had just got my confidence back after double reconstruction surgery, and now I feel ashamed of my breasts again. Please, someone tell me they had a similar experience, and that they shrank and now they are happy, otherwise I think I might have to ask them to just take them off altogether. If that is possible?
I'm so ashamed of them that I can't bring myself to even show my mum, let alone my boyfriend. Its taken me ages to get my confidence back, and I'm so upset that it feels shattered again. I need to know what other people went through, good or bad, to manage my expectations. I need to know what is normal?
We all know how managing expectations is something we would appreciate more during this whole process. Don't we just get piecemeal information all the time, and I don't know about you, but I've had the rug pulled from under me on a number of occasions. I've thought one thing, and out of nowhere, its another thing I have to get used to.
Don't know if I'm making any sense, but if you're out there, and can share your experience with the recon nipples, I'd be so grateful.
Lots of love to all.
Tammy