Just got back from my 2nd Rad. The traffic was horrendous (it took me over an hour) so it was me in danger of being late not them! However, arrived with 2 minutes to spare and then ushered straight in.
Sal, you are braver than me, I can't bring myself to answer the door to the postman without wig/headscarf - the other day I found mysef crawling on the floor to get to my wig past the window at the front so the postman couldn't see me so that I could put it on before I opened the door! I did have a rash moment when I showed my very short "hair" to my 15 year old daughters friends and they all sat there politely telling me it wasn't too bad but the fact that their eyes nearly bulged out of their heads said it all. Lol.
Tazzles, your dog sounds like mine. You really like them until they do something like that and then you go off them a bit, but I guess that's nature for you.
Tracy, the radiographer said not to use sun cream for the duration of the treatment but that once the skin had settled afterward Suncream could be used.
Just watching This Morning - they are talking about the right style for your face. Great!!!
Lots of love
Sorry you're feeling a bit down Tracy. Not long to go and you can get your life back. Well at least get some normality even if we have to modify our behaviour with regards being in the sun etc.
I saw the blue tits fly from my tit box today which was so lovely (I've been poised with binoculars on it for the last few days). Anyway I was absolutely exstatic at seeing then fly off until ...................... one of my dogs found one and decided to play with it which frightened it so it ran into the chicken run and was then pecked by Gertrude the boss chicken and then it ran off into the hedge and I have no idea whether it made it out or not. Its mum was calling to it for ages trying to find it which was so sad.
Someone knocked on the door yesterday and I rushed to put my wig on to answer it and it was a delivery man who was totally and completely bald. I wish I had the confidence to go 'naked'.
Lots of love to everyone xxx
Well done Sam! I also expected to have a real sense of elation after finishing rads but actually felt very flat for some days. As you say, a bit of an anticlimax. Nearly 3 weeks on and I am still feeling a bit wobbly. Some days really optimistic and enjoying being alive, other days feeling terrified of it coming back and not really knowing what to do with my life. I really don't want to go back to work in my old job and am not sure whether I can justify more sick time. I will be on half pay from mid-June which was when I was planning on going back but the thought of dealing with my social work clients terrifies me and I just don't feel emotionally ready.
Enjoy your doughnut and hope you get some treats from your hubbie later.
Hope everyone else is ok. xxx
I hope you have enjoyed the nice weather. Looks like its on the turn tomorrow. Boo!
I too have been struggling with my wig in the heat but not as brave as you Sal, and can't go out without it. I have a feeling I'll not be leaving the house and garden much this summer as I am not ready to bear my head and don't think I will be until I have a decent length of hair and I can dye it. I still only have a really fine covering of hair and a lot of that seems to be grey. Also eyelashes seem to be disappearing still. I thought I'd got away without loosing any until about 4 weeks after the chemo finished. I wonder if this is every going to end.
Anyway off to get ready for bed. Night night. xxx
It's a beautiful day - just been for longish walk with the dogs (in the woods away from anyone)! Saw some young deer - so sweet.
Like you Sal I am totally lacking in confidence with the new "hair" what little there is of it!!!. I have lived in the same area for 20 years and know loads of people by sight to say hello to etc and going out with my new look is causing me problems mainly I think because I am trying to avoid the scenario where I have to explain my new short grey look when I really don't want to. I know a lot of it is in my mind and I should be brave and just go for it but something is holding me back. So the wig goes on everytime I leave the house and it is so hot! This moving on lark isn't as easy as it sounds is it? Big empathetic hug. Jane xx
Hi ladies just thought I would share info on hair colouring. My neice has been a hairdresser for over 20yrs and she said under No circumstances would she colour my hair for at least 6-9 mths after chemo. (she normally does my hair). I asked her about naturetint and she said because peroxide is in ingredients then she would advise against it as peroxide damages hair shaft/follicles and may cause hair to break particularly after chemo drugs have been at it.
Please be careful and get advice before colouring as we have spent long enough without hair and wouldn't like anyone to damage new regrowth.
Hi ladies just popped back in to congradulate sal for finishing rads and having an amazing party,well done for raising that amount of money. you should maybe look at website hats4heads they have a good selection and reasonably priced.
Jane - there is always the option of trying a hair colour mousse that washes out after about 5 washes- Sally's sell one called Indola, My hair is also growing in white so that would be my intention once its long enough lol.
Sam - you will soon be celebrating with Sal after Tuesday (hooray).
My rads dont start until 9th June - 15+4 boosters so by the time I am finished all the nevember newbies will be well on their way to normality ( whatever that means for us now).
Take care everyone
That's amazing to raise such a large amount, and how generous of your mothers boss!. Sounds like you had a fantastic time too.
I am looking for light weight hats that are not scratchy inside and I think I am getting a fettish about online hat sites! It's not helped by the fact that I seem to have a big head . I agree it's getting too warm for scarves and wigs but having denied for years that I am actually grey (colouring it all the time) it has finally got its revenge and come back white with only about 5% dark in it. I am not sure when I can dye it as advice seems to differ so I am torn between going for it and showing the world my new grey or hide it until I can get some colour in it but that might be a few months. My practical side is saying just go for it and take the wigs/scarves off and my shy/vain side says NO way. In the meantime I'm off the shops with my wig on!
Love Jane x
So glad to hear it went well Sal. Hope they all liked their personalised bottles of wine!
Have a good weekend in the sun everyone.
I hope you have a fun party Sal, as you say 9 months is a long time and it deserves a celebration! Cheers to you for 8 this evening!
I'm taking notes on all your experiences with rads and I have been given all my timings for the 30 sessions and they are all at 8.45 or there abouts so here's hoping it's early enough to avoid the delays.
The sun is shining - what a lovely day.
Thank you Sal, I have been sunning myself in the conservatory with my book and am about to go and collect friends from the train station, then go and visit my uncle's new piglets and then a walk with the dogs. Then back home to drink bubbles and out for dinner in the evening. Hope you have a lovely day of freedom! xxx
I know what you mean Jane, I wander about in a bubble, the reality is so enormous that when i stop & think it is terrifying. Another thing that gets to me is that as I successfully cold capped I don't look like I am ill as i kept a lot of my hair & as no one sees me without makeup & I'm sick of people telling me how well I look, how brave I am etc etc. they wouldn't say that if they saw me first thing in the morning without my make up or if they had seen me after the docetaxel. I actually feel like this isn't really happening to me which is how I deal with it & I just need to think about the kids & our holiday and try to carry on as if this isn't happening
Love Sam xxxxxxx
Hi everyone. Hope you are enjoying your freedom, Sal and hope everyone else's rads are going to plan.
I'm feeling a bit emotional today. Just read an article about 'moving on' after cancer and I'm realising how difficult I'm finding digesting everything that has happened. I realise I need to make a lot of changes in my life and everything feels a bit daunting.
Sending big hugs to everyone xxx