Referred

[jh16]

Thanks pippadog, was scary for a while as ironically the one I was worried about wasn't the one they were worried about. Have heard so many stories about mammograms. They're uncomfortable yes but not painful and they really do provide the reassurance you need.

[pippadog]

Hi

Congratulations fantastic news. Have a wonderful weekend and a drink on me.

xx

[jh16]

Fel, so glad you're ok. Have a large glass on me. Thanks for all your support. X

[jh16]

Thanks. It was scary for awhile as they found something on the breast I wasn't worried about but it turned out to be nothing. Wishing everyone on here good luck. The waiting is the hardest part but I have been thoroughly checked and am reassured by the consultants.

[Macgirl59]

So glad things went well for you Jh16 x

[keeks]

Congrats to you both, it's a good day when you both get good news, you'll be having a good weekend

keeks

[jh16]

Woohoo never have the words normal tissue been so gratefully received. Had mammogram and ultra sound on both. Glad the results went well for you too. Glass of wine with my name on it. Thanks for all the support on here.

[Jaye]

Great news Fel

Congratulations!

Jaye x

[pippadog]

Hi Fel

Thats fantastic news, now to put all this behind you and enjoy life. Have a drink on me lol.

x

[Macgirl59]

Wonderful news! All the best Fel xxxx

[Fel]

All clear for me so very relieved. I hope the news is as good for everyone else.

Best wishes xx

[jh16]

Thank you. It's not until half 5 so got all day to stew on it. Thank goodness I'm lucky to have been able to go private. Don't think I could take another 2 weeks of this.

[pippadog]

Hi

Good luck for today. Will be thinking of you.

xx

[jh16]

Thanks ladies. Means a lot. X

[keeks]

Wishing you all good luck tomorrow, I'll be thinking of you.  Keeks

[Macgirl59]

Good luck ladies x

[jh16]

Thank you. Not much longer to wait. Not feeling very optimistic. X

[Jess123]

wishing you ladies the best of luck for tomorrow xxxx

[jh16]

Hi Laura, thanks for those words. I have tried to leave it alone today but it's very hard. I'm sure I can feel something but both my husband and sister can't. My sister has a harmless lump and wHat I can feel, feels a bit like that. Kind of like a small ridge. Luckily my appointment is tomorrow. I am so stressed.

[pippadog]

Hi

I'm sorry that you feel so low. I know exactly how you feel. But remember your mind can blow things completely out of proportion. At the moment your mindset is completely focused and zoned in on this little area that may or may not be of concern. I would really suggest that you do something completely different. Go for a good walk, clean out some cupboards, do some gardening, go buy a lipstick. But do not examine your breasts anymore for today. Say to yourself that just for today, or just for one hour you will not check yourself. I know what its like. I have a pain in my left breast and I have kept examining it. Constantly. But for your own mental wellbeing give it up for just an hour if you can.

Remember you have an appointment booked and you are doing everything possible to sort it out. It is now in the hands of the specialists, who know a hell of alot more about it than we do. Our minds can do more harm than good, at the moment.

I've booked in to see someone Friday and we will take it from there. But try for now to focus on the present moment. My favourite bit of advice given to me was, depression is due to things that happened in the past and anxiety is caused by the future, try and focus on the now and live in the present.

I know its extremely hard but try to keep yourself occupied and busy.

Laura

x

[jh16]

Thanks for your comments pippadog. I must admit Thursday cannot come quick enough. Feel like a baby, every time I think of it I could cry. It's just such a worry. I have prodded and poked myself whilst in the bath tonight and cannot feel any lumps at all. Am starting to think I'm going mad. Sometimes I feel it, sometimes I don't. Trying not to worry too much. Have lost nearly half a stone this week.

[pippadog]

Hi

I'm so sorry you're going through this hell. Yes it is hell, because at some point we have all been there. To cut a long story short. I had my mammogram in November and they saw some calcifications in my left breast. Then I switched to private and they suggested an MRI which was clear. The consultant then referred me back to the NHS as I'm on the waiting list for a preventative double masectomy, as my mum had bc. Anyway when II was referred back to the NHS they called me for a mammo guided biopsy in JaNuary. I had that done and they said they wanted to do it again. Then they decided that it appeared benign and I've got to go back in June. Anyway i've been getting pain in the breast where I had the biopsy so I am going back to the gp tomorrow to ask to see the bc consultant again. There is no lump just some pain.

The emotional turmoil of all this is a bloody nightmare. But I am trying to keep myself busy and think in the moment not thinking of the past or the future, just now so I can focus. If it wasn't for all my antidepressants and sleeping meds I don't think I'D cope lol.

Big hugs matey were all in this together.

xx

[jh16]

Even worse today. When I rub my thumb over the area can feel a slight "ridge" but when I press I can't feel it. I am driving myself mad. Struggling to hold it together at work.

[jh16]

I know what you mean. Let's hope we are all ok when we go. The waiting plays tricks on your mind. It's hard to be positive as I know that something is different. Like I said Thursday cannot come quick enough. There's no point in saying don't touch the area or don't worry cos it's impossible not to.

[Macgirl59]

I know what you mean by it affecting your family. I am my parent's only child. They would be beside themselves if I am diagnosed with BC. I just don't know how I'll be able to tell them or how to help them cope. It's awful x

[jh16]

I've thought about that, if mine turns out to be all hormonal pain etc I want to know exactly what can be done cos I can't go through this each time and more importantly can't put my family through it either. Big hugs to everybody.

[Macgirl59]

Thanks Fel, I'm at the clinic on the 29th. I feel that my condition has been completely mismanaged. I've never once had any of my cysts drained, never asked if I wanted the opportunity to have it done in fact!!!! Thanks again and take care xxxx

[Fel]

I feel for you going through this again.It is awful once. Let me know when your referral is so I can check how you get on. I think it helps if we all support each other, 

i don't know what the best procedure would be for you, I dont have lots of cysts but perhaps someone else on here has had the same thing. Best wishes and hugs xx. 

[Macgirl59]

Hi Everyone

I'm feeling so strung out at the moment. This is the third time I've Ben referred in 6 years. The stress is unbearable! The thought of having to go through other episodes like this for the rest of my life is unthinkable. Last night I even thought that what ever the outcome of the tests I would just ask for a double mastectomy any way. My breasts are both full of cysts and it's getting difficult to recognise what's new and what's been there a while. I completely get how you both feel. Big hugs to you both xxxx

[jh16]

I feel it sometimes then other times I don't. My husband can't feel anything at all says they are both exactly the same. I'm sure we will both be ok. Hugs back. X

[Fel]

I keep feeling my lump too just to see if it is still there and it always is. Hubby wont touch it, it seems to make him squeamish.

No pain but it is always on my mind. I am staying calm because my kids are teenage boys and one already mentioned i looked blank. I can't worry them when it may be nothing so I am being as normal as possible and doing my panicking at night in bed, quietly to myself. The good thing is that as I am not at work due to Easter I can lie in in the morning to catch up on sleep I miss at night. 

I am sure we will both be fine. Thursday is not far away now and, hopefully that will be the end of it.

Sending Hugs

xx

[jh16]

You've made me cry again. I know this is the worst part. Need to pull myself together really just been in shower and had a good poke around which has resulted in making it ache again. Going to try and put it to the back of my mind for the sake of my family. Thanks for listening. X

[keeks]

The waiting is the worst.

telling you not to worry would be like telling you not to breathe.  Most breast problems are not cancer.

You have done everything you can for now, seen a doctor, arranged your appointment,  now you are in the waiting room, that is the most difficult thing I think. But you are doing the right thing. Getting checked out.

you read so many stories about people ignoring breast problems, but you are dealing with yours so you should be proud, you are doing everything right and I'm afraid the price you are paying is worry.  

I will be thinking of you on Thursday and I hope you will let us know how you get on.

take care

Keeks

[jh16]

Hi keeks it's awful. I'm sure I can feel something if I touch it one way, get my husband to feel it and he can't. The tissue is definitely thicker but he thinks that it's because I haven't left it alone. I'm sat here in tears. Can't focus or think about anything else. Am ruining my families Easter break.

[keeks]

Hi jh 16

you just can't keep your hands off can you? I didn't have a lump, two doctors tried to find it and couldn't but that didn't stop me trying. It's like trying to get a child to stop scratching a spot..

you need mittens until thursday.

good luck and take care

keeks

[jh16]

Wish I could stop prodding and poking the area that aches. Am sure I am making it 100 times worse. Thursday cannot come quick enough

[jh16]

Good luck to you too 😀😀

[Fel]

I found my lump last week and my appoinment is next Thursday as well. So good luck 

[jh16]

Have used husbands private health and managed to get an appointment on Thursday which is only a week away. Good job as never slept last night and can't eat.

[jh16]

Yeah good luck tomorrow. Hope all is well xxxx

[Sweetpea2010]

Thank you xxx

[Macgirl59]

Good luck for tomorrow sweet pea x

[jh16]

Think I'm driving my family mad too. Have health anxiety issues anyway so this is really not helping.

[Sweetpea2010]

I keep prodding to I'm driving family crazy try and keep your chin up easier said I know xx

[jh16]

Thanks everybody. It's horrendous. Haven't eaten all day. It's the best diet ever. I keep prodding and poking the area and still can't feel a lump. My husband says that's probably why it hurts so much. Just spoken to my sister who had similar pain and actually had a lump and hers was all innocent. But feel no better.

[Macgirl59]

I think it's ok if you need to cry. I had to walk out on my mum the other day as I couldn't talk about it. I felt awful for doing it as she was only trying to help. I just feel numb, almost as if it's happening to someone else. I still haven't found out what I'm dealing with. You're not silly at all as this is enough to test anyone. Take care xxxx

[Sweetpea2010]

Hello jh16 you are no way being silly I don't know how many times I have burst into tears I'm sending you big hugs xx I have my appointment tomorrow I am so scared too so I know how u feel I have been having armpit pain and shoulder blade pain and i found a little lump in left breast xxx

[Kess]

you are not pathetic you are worried and that is understandable. Just cope as best as you can whilst you wait and hopefully you get it sorted soon.

[jh16]

I feel like I'm being pathetic. I am sooo scared - just keep bursting into tears.