Hi - am in the same(ish) boat, I was diagnosed a couple of weeks ago, had a wide lateral incision and sentinel node biopsy last thursday and saw the consultant yesterday who said she's recommending chemo because of my age and radiotherapy. The sentinel nodes were clear and they got all the tumor however they found pre-cancer cells in the margins hence the chemo. It's been a bit surreal over the last month and I'm not quite sure what the next few months will bring but it's scary.
Friends and family have been fantastic, very supportive, think they have me on a call rota but I know I'm being brave for them - and in the down time it hits me for a weepy 5 mins. It's a strange place we're living in now and I don't think there's a right or wrong way to feel - it just is and being able to say it out loud sometimes is the most important thing.
BTW I'm an optimist too - have started a list on the benefits of chemo already - early menopause and saving VAT on sanitary towels along with shrinking my fibroid and lighter periods are top of my list 🙂
Good luck with the oncologist - I see mine on 23rd hopefully.
Like you im on a roller coaster and its scarey and I WANT TO GET OFF! I fully understand and empathise with you. We dont have any choice but to just hold on, one day we will look back on all this trauma and I truly believe that through times like this we become better people.
Life throws us into turmoil sometimes but from these times we can work out what really matters in life.
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