I always thought I was fairly empathetic but I really notice nowadays that I have a patient head on and REALLY feel the stuff that shouldn't happen ( poor communication , mix ups, delays etc) and take it much more personally.
It sounds stupid but it never occurred to me that I would get BC ( but I guess we are all like that); all those risk factors just went out of the window. But I am just so sick of what it takes from us all; even with a good prognosis. I find the whole fertility thing quite confusing. My periods stopped in January when I started my chemo and haven't started again, but my oncologist says I'm not menopausal ?!.... Is there no chance at all with you re kids???
i love cats ( we have FOUR now, 3 are rescued, one of them was feral and is disabled. He's great, my boys named him DAVE !! ( lol).)
had a tough day at work today, so short staffed, after 6 hours of flat out drug rounds etc I got a quick break before starting again.... Sometimes I just feel I'm going to pop. Off this weekend, in fact we are out for a sort of Christmas meal with the running club ( don't take alcohol very well anymore !!! ). It should be a laugh as they are just such a positive, unconditional and non judgemental bunch.
I suppose you don't know what's round the corner with your job. I did a few clinical trials for wound care products once upon a time and really enjoyed it
Good for you for keeping up with the running. I keep saying I'll exercise and fail.
I know what you mean, family thinks that it's like the flu. You're fine now, why are you not doing all you were doing before? fffff
But to be honest, I still prefer that to my parents treating me as if I was porcelain.
workwise, I really get you. I work in research, and when I was just back, I went to a seminar and it was all about breast cancer metastasis. I hadn't understood it from the title, so it came as a surprise and had to leave the room. It gets better, in many ways it gets better than before. You now have an inside understanding that your colleagues don't have, I bet your empathy to patients will benefit. On the long run, now it must be tough.
I don't have kids. I was due IVF when I got the recurrence. That's the main reason why I struggled so much, and Christmas approaching is quite daunting (I had dreamt of telling my mum and dad then)...
But I have a lovely cat. Technically she's rescued, but she was a kitten when we got her and I don't think she's had any trauma. She's just the nicest
Of course I won't remember all my questions! I also forget them the minute I get into the office, but I've written them down this time. I just hope I'll remember to bring the list 😉
ive been kicking around since my mx 29/ 11/ 15
had chemo, now blundering through herceptin (11/18 done).Struggling a bit with tamoxifen.....
mum of three boys 10, 13 and 15 with a great husband but all 4 of them see me as ' back to normal' !
really keen runner ( although keenness far out weighs ability ) which has kept me sane all this past year
havent gone for any recon, not much of me to borrow from so am thinking maybe of a big tat instead...?!
also have a large menagerie of pets ( mainly re homed ones) and have recently returned to work as a nurse ( which I am also struggling with a bit!!)
i know what you mean about being tired of being tired. Sleep never used to be a problem for me, now it's major!!!
Do you remember all your questions? My mind goes blank when I see my oncologist, I think it's because I don't particularly like him ( he's too negative for me)
Hi Running free
I'm ok, just very tired. and tired of being tired 🙂
Mood is up and down - mostly depending on how much I sleep.
Seeing my onc next week, I have loads of questions but then it should be me for a while. That should help!
How about you? I'm new on the forum, so I know nothing about you - other than you're nice 😉
so sorry to hear you have had this recurrence. It's just so unfair.
is your treatment all mapped out?
Have you got support at home?
i know you are still reeling from the shock of it all but you dealt with it before and you will again this time. Take it a step at a time.