I’m sorry to read that you are having a worrying time at the moment. I’m sure the other users will be along soon to support you.
In the meantime if you need some extra support or to talk through how you are feeling do give the BCC helpline a call. Here you can share your concerns with a member of staff who will offer you emotional support as well as practical information. The free phone number is 0808 800 6000 and the lines are open Monday to Friday 9.00 to 5.00 and Saturday 10.00 to 2.00.
Best wishes Sam, BCC Facilitator