My own key dates are...27th May call the GP, 3rd June go to rapid referral clinic to be told there is nothing wrong with me. 3rd July return visit to 'reassure me', 9th July told I have cancer and told it is in my lymph nodes, due to travel to Borneo on 16th July, instead surgery 24th July and then the news just kept on getting worse including a second cancer and definite secondary diagnosis in August (which as of now is still inconclusive :)) That particular bit of news was very badly delivered by the surgeon... 'Oh the bone MRI, yes that's definitely a metastasis'
12th May is going to be a new key date for me as I get my mastectomy results next week....ought to be clear, but have that awful feeling all over again.
A bit stumped as to which one to celebrate as my cancerversary!
My surgeon "told" me that I had cancer - well actually he didn't. He'd done that horrid "click" biopsy twice the previous week as well as a TNA. He came in the room sat down and said he'd just got the results. He was then silent leaving me to say "it is cancer, isn't it" at which point he nodded and I burst into tears - even though I was pretty sure beforehand. I have always felt I have let him off the hook but asking him rather than him telling me, but I can 't change it now!
How many of us are on the podium now? And who is left to finish - Debtex and anyone else?
I was on my own for biopsy too; I had mistakenly imagined I'd get scanned/biopsy and then have to wait a week or two for results. How wrong I was! They'd told me an hour before after the ultrasound that I had cancer. The doc told me by sliding over the printed ultrasound report which had the words "extensive malignant disease" on it. I still feel quite angry that it let her off having to say anything, and the word "extensive" was terrifying to see. My other strongest memory is that I was wearing open toed sandals and was wiggling my toes like a wild thing every time the thing clicked. And I had my toenails painted purple LOL. 31st July it was, so my 'versary is a way off still.
Bank hol was spent visiting OH's dad. Back to work today - urgh. I'm still meant to be on phased return but last week I was doing longer-than normal days rather than shorter. It's like I was never away.
hi linzz i always said i would visit there for my big 40, and this inconvenience isnt going to stop me fullfilling my dream, i just need to book it now and take the plunge last year i booked cuba for xmas and look what happened i am nervous about booking that far in advance but if i dont it will have won.
Lovely post geeG you definately have the right words and are so right with a new me, i found my lump on the 9th june day after my wedding anniversary so fairly close to your date.
I to went on my own for the biopsy i didnt tell any family until being diagnosed july only the hubby knew about it,and i remember lying there thinking oh this will be alright and it will be nothing - little did i know what was coming but like geeG said Were All Here and thats the main thing.
Anyone done anything nice this bank holiday ? xxxxx
HI nicnac, I had a trip to NY for my 40th (5 years ago now, where does the time go???) and have very happy memories of it. You'll have such a great time. My feet hurt SO much when I got back because we did so much LOL.
Well done to those brave enough to watch the C drama. I couldn't. I read the click of the core biopsy took a lot of women right back, so very glad I decided not to watch.
Hope everyone is having a nice day (despite ailments) this bank holiday xx
Hello lovely ladies!
I have not been on here for a while as was starting to get control of things and be positive but am now having major wobbles like the rest of you. I am relieved I am not the only one who got so upset about Rio Ferdinand's wife. I won't be watching that C film as just far too close to home for me now.
Since having rads I have dull pain in my back and shoulder with almost indigestion type discomfort. I still get pain deep inside where the breast was. Does anyone else? My mastectomy was August. My rads finished in March. I had put it all done to the treatments (I suffered quite bad burns) but of course now I am over thinking everthing and worrying about it coming back etc etc. I just don't know what is normal now and am scared! Not seeing Oncologist until June and finding it quite hard to keep things under control! 😞 Bloody C I don't want it take over like this!
Pouring with rain here today which seems to be matching my mood. 😞
I am so glad that you ladies are also feeling ike this as I thought it was just me. I am just terrified of it coming back and unsure how do would we know. This phase is proving to be a lot lot harder than I had realised it was going to be.
Sorry to be so down on a Sunday morning!
Big hugs posse, it's a tough, tough weekend xxx
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Take care all,
Oh Murphy - step away from the internet!!!! I just read about Rio Ferdinand's wife and as soon as I saw the headline I just knew it would be a bc story. And it was. So sad. I certainly shan't be watching that drama, its too close to the bone, given the ultimate ending (though I believe the drama ends on a positive note). But it's far too easy to get sucked down into scary places online. Are you on YBCN on fb? The lady you mentioned is on there and around the time her news broke there were quite a few other young women passing away, and at that point I switched off the group from my news feed because I was finding I couldn't stop thinking about them. I am terrified about the future too sometimes, I have a scan coming up and I feel the dread taking over like it did during my original staging. But after (completely) giving in to the worry for a couple of days I have resolved to (try) not allow it to control me. My mantra is: the bc - and the fear that it might come back - cannot be allowed to reign. Of course it helps to know that when we have our wobbles the Posse are here xx
Hi Murphy, to clarify I had cancer in both breasts diagnoised back in July 14, this isn't the 2nd time for me.....I hope that reduces your stacked up worries regarding reoccurance just a little. So NO need to apologise about your post....to my mind, we are able to talk about it all - good, bad and ugly. It's what the posse is about - unequivocal support 😀. It's horrible that these thoughts can overwhelm. I suspect this drama has set many minds wondering....it has me. It's pulling me out of 'planet denial' that I have been happily visiting for a few weeks now. I hadn't heard about Rio Ferdinand's wife or seen the fb story...that's sad. But forgive me Murphy if this irritates, but to put a grim but also counter positive spin on it all, the reality is that these poor women are those that have born out the stats...but, there are many many more that are and will be for many many years - cancer free. Let's hope that is you, me and the rest of the Posse 😀. xxx
Yes nicnac, have a great party xx
Well I don't want to be greedy and I'm sure I'm favourite for the 'babbling brook' award! lololol
Hahaha - welcome back to the podium Jingo_x, 😉. The waiting game sucks, so fingers crossed you don't have to wait long. I had not picked up before that you where a double cancer girl....so was I, both sides too... how special are we! 😉. Gentle hugs xx
Happy birthday AM Driver and welcome to the podium 🐧🐧🐧. Pity some people can't just keep their unhelpful thoughts to themselves!
Jingo_x, I'm so sorry to hear about your boy and fantastic that he has bounced back. I hope you are having a comfortable evening and will heal quickly. Will you be joining us on the podium shortly (sorry I've lost track)?
Murphy and Madam, hope you are both doing well too.