Bunnytastic! Lots of posts again. Vanns and Nats, lovely to see you both back. Vanns, I sent you an enormous bunny hug last night when I read the lovely things you had said to me in your post ... Did you feel the hugs? Hope so. Buddy sounds beautiful.
little chick, so so so pleased with your good news. It is wonderful to be told you are NED isn't it. Somehow I am extra pleased in your case to hear it because you had a rocky ride, especially in the early days.
Wendy, I'm so sorry to hear about your nails. It is a horrible reminder of everything the drugs have done to our bodies, and when we set off on this journey I'm sure we all, like me, imagined life would be getting back to normal by now. I'm pleased we didn't have the foresight to know how long it would take. I certainly don't think I could have kept as positive as I did all through chemo had I known the SEs would still be coming now. I am watching my nails like a hawk, not that I could do anything about it if they are going to fall off. One big toe nail is lifted across the top and all down one side across a third of the nail. Others are slightly lifted and on one thumb nail I have a lifted patch in the centre of the nail. Just wondering what that is going to do when it grows to the end of the nail. Wendy, hope the bronchitis is improving.
Big M, thank goodness for you having the portacath removed. It will be such a relief I'm sure. Poor pixie that she has to contend with hers for so much longer, and with all her problems.
Gadget gal, pleased to hear the surgery is now behind you and that you have now reconciled the need for the mastectomy.
Southpool, I agree with others, your rads delays and the attitude of the staff are totally unacceptable. I'm not surprised you have rads rage. I hope your meeting today sorts something out. Like Wendy, Im in and out in no time at all and the staff are all really nice. They are very efficient and get on with the job in hand as quickly as they can but they also always have time to ask how I am, what I've been doing/have planned. That's how it should be. No matter how busy your team is, there is no excuse for treating you like a lump of meat in this way. neverthless, alhough the experience is a lot better than yours, I do have to say that I am finding rads a lot harder than I expected. I think it is the tediousness of it all, every day, 30-35 mins drive each way, the search and scramble for a parking space, the walk t the department etc etc, and now it is nearly finished - just three more to go - I am so fed up with it. I am very tired, sore, worried i will split, want it all to be finished, want to be normal again, want my energy levels back, want my hair back .... the list is endless and I find myself crying more than I could have imagiined. It just comes out of nowhere. Desperate sobs often at the most inappropriate moments. then my oh notices I'm struggling to hold back the floodgates and as soon as he gives me a kind word or reaches out to squeeze my hand, whatever, it just makes me worse. Also I am ratty with him and he doesn't deserve that at all after everything he has done and is doing.
Im interested that some buns are starkers on the top half during rads. I have a very stylish (not) blue scrubs type jacket to keep during the whole of rads time. It zips up the front and has Velcro along the shoulder and side seams to provide easy access from whichever direction they want and to maintain modesty a bit ... Of course the boob gets exposed during the actual rads but not my spare tyre thank goodness - spare tyre that refuses to budge, is bigger than before bc and is adding to the fed up state described above ....!
So, on to Pixie. Mistress of the warren. You know I am thinking of you throughout. You put us to shame though with your energy and joie de vivre throughout - no, let me phrase that another way ... You are an inspiration to us all with your energy and joie de vivre and I know the last thing you would want to feel is that you put any of us to shame. As always, thank you so much for everything - starting the forum, giving us so much positivity, organising the bunnyfest .... Everything. Take care of yourself bunny, you need it as much as we all do.
so on to bunnyfest. Pixie, the programme is wonderful and intriguing too. Like others, I am soooooo excited and can't wait. I am so sorry some bunnies can't join us and really feel for those that cant, especially as our excitement builds in our postings and there is more and more talk of it. bunny boxes, bunny quiz .... As I said, intriguing. And the menu sounds amazing. We will all be hard pushed to know what to choose without stuffing our little fat tummies so much that we don't have room for cream tea!!! Bunnies who can't be there .... Fear not, we will be thinking of you. And we will do something in 2013 too when hopefully we will all be feeling soooooo much better and fitter. Christine I'm sorry you have had to drop out late in the planning. Where are you? Not heard from you for a while.
as always, so many people we've not heard from in a while - teabelly, you came back for one posting and have gone again, hyzenthlay we've not heard from you for ages and ages ....
And finally .... We had a brilliant time seeing our dil play in her am dram musical on Tuesday night. She was fantastic. Lovely to see our youngest grandson (14 months) too and have cuddles. This weekend we have our youngest son (31!!!!) coming to stay. Then next weekend it is bunnyfest. Yipppeeeeeee! Pixie, I trust you got my pm confirming sleepover arrangements?
Thats all for now. Thinking of you all, lovely bunnies, and still enjoying campo's spa everyday!!!
PS I never did get a reply from bcc to my pm about the censorship .... But I've moved on. Xxx