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ps - check out my pic of me and my gorgeous girls - very thin hair but the cold cap was worth it i guess.

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Evening ladies, lorna I'm still here how u feeling today.
I went out without my wig for the first time today and I felt ok. My best friend burst out crying when I saw her as she said felt like she got me back!!! Dreading doing the school run on Monday with no wig but determined not to put it back on now.
I have 7 rads left and had my port out on weds. Nowhere near as sore as it was going in. My leg muscles are getting back to normal and I feel like I am getting there slowly. Still have no idea how I am going to stop the panic rising every so often about my future but I guess time is the only thing that can help me with that.
Bertha b, good to hear from you , when's your op.
Rexi, hope you managed to exchange on your new home.
Have a good weekend
Katie x

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Wow Bertha - I take my wig off to you! So organised getting ready for Christmas - EARLY! I'm ignoring it. I finish RADS on 23rd. December. Will probably have a last minute panic.
I agree - very few people really want to know when they ask "how are you?".I've also learned to say "thank you" when they say "you look sooooo well" Sometimes I tell them it's amazing what a bit of nylon can do.
Chemo side effects are fading, although first toenail dropped off this week with others to follow soon by the look of it and feet and hands still sore and numb.
Rexi - poor you. Waiting for contracts to be exchanged is a nail biting time. Good luck.
Next week is my first week since May with no cancer related appointments and will be my only one before Christmas. It feels so liberating.
The sun is shining beautifully here and my cat is basking in her basket next to me. All feels well with the world this morning.
I hope it's the same for most of you too.

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Hello All - Have u all moved out ? lol.......

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Hello All,

Have not been on for a few weeks, just trying to get everything done for Christmas a month early before op on 1st Dec.

3 weeks since last Tax today... feeling fab....
Eyebrows - missing in action along with the lashes.Just a few strays.
Head Hair - I have 9 hairs left at the front which have stayed with me through Chemo .... the rest is starting to sprout yipeeee !!!

Congrads Rexi on your last Chemo..

Lorna ... yes the "I'm fine" rolls off my tongue quickly followed by "how are you?" I don't share except with a few close friends who realy want to know how I am, even then I only give them a summary!

Hope all are recovering from ops are doing well and those still with chemo to go are now on the last few...

Hugs,
BerthaB

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Morning, off to work in a mo. Just having a breather after getting ready 🙂 A lot of things seem to take way longer than a few months ago with the pauses in between.

In my last throws of direct SEs from last mondays last chemo. Bit iffy tummy, numb toes, leaking, bleeding nose, that sort of stuff, but fatigue and general exhaustion has not hit. Loving it 🙂

Still haven't exchanged contracts on the house - I need to be calm for my OH, too. I think it's getting a bit to much for him: house wobblies, stress at work and worrying about me.

Lorna, a good cry is surely allowed? Super, that you could pick yourself up again :). I think, too, it helps to let it out here. Big virtual hug (( HUG )) for you!

How is everyone getting on?

Rexi

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Great news 🙂 Dont worry about the weight , my appetite is normal again and i think i am losing it anyway . All the puffy chemo weight is slowly going . I am feeling a wee bit better , so all good. xxxxx

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Hi Lorna,
Hope you are still feeling better, but if not, this is the place to come. You can be sure we all have down times when we feel alone and scared.
Today is a positive day for me. I've ad my PICC removed, didn't feel a thing, not even a little bleeding. I've got a small dressing on it, got to keep it on and dry for 24 hours and then, guess what? I can swim until rads start at the end of the month.
After all these months, nearly six, it seems so strange to be appointment and treatment free until the end of the month. Also it is now 3 weeks since my last TAX and I'm definitely starting to feel more human although still have problems with hands, feet, nails,lack of energy, memory, concentration - actually, seeing it written down I am still a walking wreck!
Next priority is to lose this extra weight..............perhaps I'll start tomorrow!

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Pleased to hear it!! X

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Thanx - I feel better this morning !!!

Was really low yesterday after a rotten week , i have a lot of questions to be answered about my possibe delayed diagnosis and i think its getting me down , That post reads a wee bit dramatic now for me 🙂

Another day , onwards and upwards i hope,

xxxx

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Oh Lorna,

I don't really have anything useful or helpful to say, but am sending you a big understanding hug. Whether or not the Tamoxifen is involved we're allowed to feel scared and worried sometimes - but if it started taking over then that would be a problem... Don't be too hard on yourself. It's still early days - we haven't even finished active treatment yet. We have been through a hell of alot, both emotionally and physically this year - and it's been RUBBISH.

I'm not sure how we cope. I'm organising lots of fun treats and meeting up with friends and just trying to concentrate on the short term rather than the long term...but it's difficult...anyone else have the answer?

I, personally, don't pretend to be positive on here - much of the time I do feel positive, but I do get down and have vented on here and I do have waves of terror thinking about what could be in store and if I do beat this, I worry about not being able to have children and whether I would be able to come to terms with it if that were the case. I also miss my beautiful, perky breasts. And long, blonde hair!
It's cr*p.

Big hugs.

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Hi - Hate to admit this , but since i have felt better i am starting to feel so scared. I think its because i have time feeling well where , in the last 6 months feeling ill . Time feeling well is ob not for me just now !!!!
It may be Tamoxifen ?? as i normally bounce back in a day, but i need to give it a chance , no option really .

I feel we sometimes pretend to be positive on here , i am scared , i am a mum , i am a wife , a daughter , a friend , how do we cope ???

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Good evening Girls 

Its day 5 after my last tax and it's been ok... I was prepared for a horrible Thu and Fri, but it sort of didnt happen... I was ok, I am on the voltarol and codein tablets, so the pain side is covered. I have even eaten bread today, which last chemo I couldn't stomach till day10+. Toes are bit numb this time, which I didn't have before, but I certainly don't feel as tired/ fatigued as with the last taxes. 
Am slightly surprised, as didn't expect any positive change at the last chemo - did they give me less poison ( not according to my notes), my blood counts were similar; did I eat / drink anything different that makes it so different? I don't know. I would love to know, might be a miracle SE help waiting to be discovered 🙂
Let's see how I ll fare in the next few days - notorious for bad constipation followed by the tax trotts.

Sandytoes, you look great on the pic! So happy the cold cap worked!

Lorna, don't worry - you can't be the last one on radio therapy. I won't start until January and ( depending on the pathology report ) I may have 6 1/2 weeks of it!

Linda,
I didn't realise that there is more complimentary treatment avail in Harley street - I had some at London Bridge :). It was lovely, foot massages and facials. My face has never been so well looked after. I want to try reiki, might consider continuing with pampering once this is over. Never had much time for it - must spare this time in future though.

Moving - 😞 - something happened on Wed. I really haven't understood exactly what, but somehow the exchange didn't go as planned because of some issue with our buyers mortgage contact/solicitor. So we have been sitting on hot coals ( figuratively ) and in between loads of boxes ( literally ), hoping for the issue to be resolved, so far nothing... We are hoping to exchange on Monday now, then we may just be able complete on Fri. Or the Monday after, or... Watch this space 🙂

Rexi x

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Yes Lorna,you are right. Usually I can tell who doesn't really want to know when they say "how are you?" - most people!
To wine or not to wine - no contest,go for it! Enjoy. I'm looking forward to getting my taste buds back too, I hope.

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Slendablenda - Does "Im Fine " roll of ure tongue now ? Most People only really want to hear that anyway. I lost all my nails , toenails re appearing , fingers a mess. But on the GRAND scale of things - Who Cares..

The debate is tonight ....To wine or not to wine ???? Not having tastebuds on hindsight did have its advantages !!!

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I'll second that Lorna. Everyone says how well I look when I'm wearing a wig and false face. No comment when I'm wearing a scarf and pale face - could be on the same day! Amazing what a bit of slap and nylon can do..........!I've put dark nail varnish on in case it does help prevent
my nails leaving me. People say how lovely they look.
Sometimes I find it difficult to smile sweetly and say thank you.

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Eyebrow templates ??? amazon next !!!

My ankles are bk to normal , legs much stronger . 🙂 Im gonna be one of the last to finish rads , grrr. Never mind , wound a mess anyhow so will need the time .
Had a great night out last night with old friends. First time i felt good and not self conscious . One said i look better with cancer than before , amazing what a good wig and make up does . Hope u are all well . Awat to neices birthday party ....

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Hi All

Congrats slendablenda & Rexi on your last chemo's 🙂 i bet it felt like it would never arrive for you 2 as each of us finished one by one!

Sandytoes love your hair, pity I only managed 2 cold caps, oh well .. Totally agree on your concentration comment, I have still not finished a book I started just before my diagnosis and I used to read one every 3 weeks !!!

Lorna glad to hear you are feeling physically better, does that mean your legs are now working and your ankles no longer swell up (mine still are and so frustrating).  I understand when you say you are normally a glass half full person, me too and I have been a bit down the last couple of weeks but I finally feel on the way up.  Glad your sons 21st party went well.

Katie, my port removal scar took just 7 days to heal.  

Rexi good luck with the move next week, rather you than me.  Yes I am having my rads at Harley Street but finish on the 1st Dec so will miss you. I have had 9 of 23 so far.  They are all really lovely and I am seen on time each day.  Make sure you book yourself in for the complimentary therapies, I am having one a week, reflexology last week and I am going to try reiki next week, never tried that before!  Yes it is just off of Oxford Street, but at the moment I have no leg power for shopping but hopefully before I finish ...  I am up for a get together in either Surrey or London.

Pinkypam, great to hear your op news and that no lymph nodes are involved too 🙂

Slendablenda I am having problems with nothing fitting me too, fine all the time I wasn't going anywhere and lived in tracksuits, but now travelling everyday on the train for rads I am struggling with what to wear!

Finally attended Look Good Feel Good last week and it came just at the right time - made some new friends too.  One of the helpers also demonstrated eyebrow templates on us which were great - just ordered some from amazon.

BCN has recommended Sage capsules for my hourly hot flushes and a Chillo instead of a pillow for the night sweats ... Anyone else tried these?

On the upside, finally drinking tea AND wine 🙂

Have a lovely weekend.

Linda x

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It would be good if our paths do cross Sandytoes. I'll P.M. you nearer the time and see how we're doing. Yes, shame about the therapies, although I think you live in Brighton don't you? The Receptionist said you can go back for the free therapies after your treatment is finished.
Loupylou - well done, losing nearly all of that weight already. I haven't dare weigh myself, but feel it is probably about a stone and a half I've put on - eeeeek. Have finished chemo now so no steroid excuse any more. Feel depressed today, was sorting out my clothes last night, many are too small, a big bag for the charity shop too. I bought a dress yesterday a size bigger than normal, can't do it up - oooops!
Time for action!

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Hiya Sandytoes, just to let you know I put a stone on during chemo and although I was a bit overweight (lol) I'm glad now as that protected me from osteoporosis, the only time I've been glad to be a chubby chops! I've been on weightwatchers for the past 10 weeks or so and have lost 12lbs. It's not been hard but not easy either as I haven't got the energy anymore for the gym. What spurs me on is that being thinner has a better outcome. I dd scoff the cheese tonight tho sorry! Xx

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I start on the 22nd and my times are literally all over the place, but have some within those times so might bump into you. Don't think I'll risk the swimming either - but desperate to get swimming again and try and shift some of this chemo/post-op weight.

Hmmm...I was going to ask about the therapies too. Oh well...

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Hi Sandytoes,
I start my rads on November 29th and finish Dec. 23rd. Most of my appts are between 11.30-12.30 as I requested non rush hour. The day I see my Onc it's 08.42!
I asked about the free complementary therapies, but the receptionist said they are all booked up for this year and haven't got next year's diary yet.
Yes, the leaflet does say it's okay to go swimming, but I was advised not to because of my skin type and my surgery scar is likely to cause skin probs when I have rads so I've resigned myself not to swim until next year.
I have a follow up appt with my surgeon the day before I start rads. I remember when he booked the date it seemed so far in the future and suddenly it's nearly here.

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Pam - Glad the Onc is pleased , must be fantastic to know u impressed him !!! So pleased for u . I have a grumpy one as well ,,,depresses me

Sandytoes - You look amazing , it was worth the hassle of cold cap . Jealous of the eyebrows as well . You go girl......!!!!

Katie - Sure uve looked amazing throughout !!!

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I'm at the Sussex Cancer Centre too. When do you start? Maybe we'll cross paths?

Have you read the booklet they give you? It says you can swim...?!

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Wow - all this hair. I've just got a little bit of stubble starting. Eyebrows are getting more noticeable, but sadly hardly any sign of lashes or LG. Sandytoes you look great.
I had my rads planning at Brighton last week. I agree with what you say about no gown offered and lack of privacy. They did put my T shirt over my good side, but it slid off after a few mins and I thought what the heck, although it was a bit cold in that room. I was seen as soon as I arrived. I also had 5 people, but they did seem very professional and gave the impression they know what they are doing.I was exhausted when i came home. It was the furthest I'd driven since May.
Good to see some positive news on here. It cheers us all up.
Belinda, welcome. Sounds as though you have been through a lot in the past couple of years. I personally think stress has a tie up with illness and disease, but I don't think science recognises a definite link -yet. Good luck with the rest of your treatment.

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Yup - used the GHDs!! Got to the point where I had grey roots and it was frizzy - so I thought it wasn't worth having hair if I had to cover it all up - so used a herbal permanent dye and went to see my hairdresser (who did it for free - bless her) and she blowdried it AND got the GHDs out.

BUT that was me thinking that I'd see what happens and if it all breaks off, so be it... So don't risk the GHDs if you think it's going to hurt your hair.

Just went out for a couple of hours with hair on show. First time I've been headwearless since the end of June.

PP - doubly fantastic that negative onc is pleased! Fab!!

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I am getting hair envy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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sandytoes you look amazing. My hair is very similar to yours, also very thin on top but very frizzy around the sides and back - did you straighten yours as still not sure I can use GHDS?
I may post a pic of mine for you all to see tomorrow.
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OmG sandy toes your hair is so long i am well jell it looks brilliant.As,for my oncy he said to me and i quote Whos a clever girl then unquote.For a minute i thought id turned into a puppy dog but i know inside he was dancing ha ha.And no i had noevidence of cancer in my lymph nodes before treatment but had SNB anyway just in case.
Pam

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Hi Belinda. Halfway through! Hurrah!

Pam - brilliant patholody news - hope oncy was suitably impressed! Did you have cancer in your lymph nodes prior to starting chemo do you know?

Lorna - I've been OK on Tamoxifen so far...joints a bit achey and still getting hot flushes - but not increased.

Rexi - I'm still worried and have up and down days - but am mainly positive as I've been all the way through.

Queenie - hope planning went OK.

I am revealing the post-chemo-and-cold-cap me on my avatar! I went to get my cold cap tresses chopped today. I dyed the roots myself last week. You can also see my new eyebrows. Eyelashes still a bit stubbly - but coming through. Am going to go out without wig or headscarf tonight! My hair is very thin, but I do normally have really thick hair, so I guess it's less noticable than on someone who had thinner hair to start with.

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Hi all I have just joined the site and looking at all the supportive posts.

I was diagnosed at Easte r after noticing changes to my breast while gone swimming. First told it could be and infection and given anti-biotics which I was told the throw away on my first mamogram! 6cm tumour removed from left breast (spongy one) and lymph glands removed in June. Now on my 4th chemo sessions (yeah over half way through!) on FEC-T. Must admit was ok on FEC but the T one is really freaking me out. Having diabetes doesn't help either. I am 46 and have a 13 year old son (single divorced parent). Came out of an abusive marriage about two in a half years ago, had depression last year - just turned that around and now have breast cancer! I am sure its all that adreline, stress and worry in the past that has helped to bring this on (any comments on this). Anyway I am also pretty positive and started a blog in July to get my everyday feelings out - it did upset a few people who thought it was directed at them - but I need a way to express my feelings without hiding them and coping with day to day issues and stresses that the cancer has brought about - I am hoping that it is giving inspiration to a few people though. Bit worried about my sore throat today and the injections I have to give my self over the next five days with the syringe - but hey I am like a pin cushion anyway! Understand the fear, too well. Keep strong and any support is really appreciative - sometimes it just sharing that keeps you positive: Belinda

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Rexi - by the way i did the moon walk last year,26 miles around Edinburgh overnight and look at the thanks i got .Sorry dont mean to sound bitter as im in a good mood today.Well for the moment anyway
Pam

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Hi ladies
Appt went really well yesterday good clear margins and SNB all clear yippee.Apparently had excellent text book response to chemo so happy days.Off to see oncy today who is mr depressing to discuss rads but have decided to talk over him if i dont like or agree wuth what he is saying.Also want to get started really quickly so hopefully be finished by christmas but this is the guy that stopped me going to majorca in the summer so not holding out too much hope.
Rexi -getting wire put in was ok .Plenty of local anasthetic and never felt a thing a lot easier than original biopsies.As for insicion sizes my lumpectomy cut was bigger than i expected at 8cms but very neat and my SNB incision is 4cms but not under my arm wher i expected it but on the side of my boob so when i have my bra on neither of them are visible.
Lorna re eyebrows - a description of my right eyebrow -first third semi normal middle third bald final third resembles Dennis Heally on a bad day and may actually have to trim it.
Sandy toes -lucky you dyeing your hair.I have a lovely furry covering of really dark hair and considering i have dyed my hair blonde since i was 18 it looks very strange .I am under no illusion about the length of time it will take for it to grow properly so have just ordered myself a new wig for christmastime
Must go psych myself up for oncy encounter
Pamxx

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Rexi - It would be a long journey for a wee cake . I live near Stirling !
My work are organising an event , first it was a walk , but now i think its a big party as they seem to think thats more up my street...??mmm . I personally want to do something , we should all meet in China !!!

Sandytoes - How are u on tamoxifen,? i have been feeling kinda down , hope its just a coincidence and not the meds . Also initially queasy but that seems to have passed.
I think i will feel a bit lost after treatment is finished , struggling to get my head round returning to work. Already prople are saying that I must feel great after getting the All Clear ?? Not even finishe treatment ,lol, but i can't be bothered explaining any more . The expectation seems to be that i will bounce back to normal. I feel that the impact of this disease is only now hitting home for me. The hardest part is still to come , the waiting and praying that it does not creep back. The thought terrifies me. How do u guys feel ? See , im def not myself as i normally don't dwell on horrible stuff, i will blame Tamoxifen !!!

Going out again tomorrow night , quite a social butterfly !!! I must wash the wig tonight,,,,,oh how we adapt !!

Also , i have had OH and the kids feeling ones eyebrows and there does seem to be some activity , will keep u posted on that momentous event.....

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Just saw on the breast cancer care Facebook page that a bunch of girls went to the wall of china for a walk/ charity event. Now that I would like to do! Or machu pichu - dream destination for me - once I am good and fit enough to walk in thin air - maybe in a couple of years? Are any of you planning to make a walking statement in the near or far future? Seems like walk of life etc is the thing to do... 

Cakes - lorna, sandytoes etc - I really like making cakes. I get such a kick from achieving cool looking cakes,  people making nice comments and they like eating them too :). I make other cakes too, that don't look quite so flashy, but taste even better - like black forest gateaux or recent fave cinnamon bun cake, mmmh. Really happy to have any June girls around for cake 🙂 just let me know.  Living in Surrey, but am in London a lot, maybe we can arrange a little get-together ?
The cakes on sticks - they are called cake pops. Found them in the US, when I went to Vegas in January. Great presents and they taste wonderful. They have them now in Starbucks as well, but mine taste way better 😉 And, no, the cake is not baked in the ball shape 🙂  There is no big secret - if you like to try- look for the book by Bakerella on Amazon and have a look on YouTube, where she demonstrates how to do it, that's what got me started.

Rexi xxx

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Pinkypam - so good to hear you had your operation. The metal thread sounded bit yucky. Didnt remember your gremlin had disappeared, so great! They couldn't find mine on the last ultrasound either. how big is then the lumptectomy incision? 

Sandytoes - you are sounding much better again compared to a few weeks ago. So Glad you made it out of your blue days.

Hair - I have a quite furry head and still holding on to eye brows and some lashes, enough that when coloured in, I look 'normal' :). As yesterday was my last tax, I d hope I ll keep the last stragglers...  

Splendablenda - hope you are much better now re side effects! 

Lorna, so glad you bounced back from that inconsiderate onc comment. 
Sandytoes - nice speech there 🙂  a real pickup, I didn't know about the %s and tamoxifen effect etc ( not that  I ll get any - have tnbc ).
When will we see the dyed hair and new eyebrows :)?

Lorna, how did the party go? And - Cant believe you have a 21y old son! You dont look old enough!  Did you find an outfit you were comfortable in?  
Hope it's healing now?

Soupertrouper - cooking shows! I am loving masterchef Australia at the Moment. Books - i still read , but find it more difficult to find books that keep my attention, so rereading old faves.

I am unsure what happens with the port? I assumed they take it out when I have my op in about 4 weeks - don't have a date yet, will get it in 2 weeks - but it was put in by a different surgeon. Slightly under informed at this moment in time...

Rads - I still have a long time to go, but we finally decided yesterday after the consultation to go to the Harley Street clinic. Posh or what 🙂
They have the latest and greated in technology and the radiotherapist recommended it because the treated area is near the heart. So 3h return journey it will be in Jan/ Feb.  Is anybody else in Harley street around that time? Most of you will be finished, right. Linda, you are there now, right? How is it? One lady on the ward on Monday said, the worst about the location is, it's next to a John Lewis and she spend loads of money there 😉

Welcome queenie - the more the merrier 🙂 congrats on finishing chemo. Since you are starting rads soon, you must have had an op before? 

Rexi

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morning ladies.hope you don`t mind me joining in.got my appointment for markup and planing today.have had 6 lots of chemo(fec only)day 7 post 6.hope to start on the 21`st of nov!!!think i will be startint tamoxifen tomorrow or do you think you start when you start rads?hair was growing but fell out on numder 5 so am hopeing and praying it will start to grow now i`ve finished chemo.
queenie

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Katie - don't get me results until next week. Bless your daughter. If she is worrying about you, she'll see that you're getting back to 'normal' after rads. It will be easier for you to portray that everything's fine without having to traipse back and forth from the hospital and with your hair growing back. Your holiday will be wonderful.

I wonder how we're going to feel after active treatment though...?!

Maybe do some short walks everyday now. I had sore joints (but not muscles) after TAX - they eased a bit - but I think Tamoxifen has also made my muscles sore.

I keep my port as am on herceptin until August...

Am off to check out the Haven in London today.

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Evening all,
Glad everyone seems ok.
Dont worry Lorna, I have no eyebrows or eyelashes either!
sandytoes - did you get your fertility results? so hoping they were good.
I am so excited for my holidays - we go in 4 weeks but I am getting slghtly worried as I still have bad muscle pains in my legs and got lots of walking about in Disney to do!
My eldest daughter who is 5 has been crying every morning for a week now saying she dosent want to go to school as she dosent want to leave me - i dont know whether she has picked up on whats been going on or im being paranoid??
Anyone had their port out recently? I have mine out next weds and just wondered how long it should take to heal?
I am on my 11th session out of 25 rads tomorrow and all going well so far.
rexi - hope the side effects of the last one are not too bad - huge congrats on finishing chemo.
Pam - good luck for your results on weds - have everything crossed for you.
Katie xx

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You will so enjoy xmas with this sh** out of the way!! Great timing for rads .

Mine is 19th Dec - seems a long wait . Though with this infection just as well .
I am trying to feel festive by buying champagne on offer ......... and sampling . This taste experience is fab , appetite has decreased and alchohol intake has increased !!
Son is 21 today , party was fab on Saturday . Had a lovely lunch with him today , i am so happy to feel old ! Would not have said that pre B/C . Though he said he is glad he has a young mum and dad and we are actually OK ??. Great praise.....

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I dunno Lorna....!!

Wish I could donate some of my eyebrows to you. They're out of control. Even seem to be growing around and under my eyed like a werewolf! Never had that before chemo.

Had my rads planning today and got my tattoos. All very easy and straightforward, but a distinct lack of privacy - no robes or anything so topless with my scarring and everything on show with 5 nurses pulling me around into different positions. All done now though - and first zap in 2 weeks - so have my final one on Dec 12th. Yay!

Anyone got anything exciting planned for Chirstmas? Katie - you must be really excited about your hol now. Rexi - are you going to make an amazing Xmas cake?

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Hello Pam - So good to hear from u , glad ure doing well .xx

Lorna is frantic that both Pam and S Toes have uneven growth of eye browa !!!!!!!!

She has none...........

Its an injustice it is...... prize who can remember the cartoon character ??

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Thanks Pam! :-). I think I WOULD make a good mum. And my husband would be a brilliant dad. BUT small hurdles of keeping fertility and getting as far from diagnosis as possible!!

Glad you're doing OK. Did they know whether or not your had cancerous nodes before chemo? I definitely did and was in 2 minds about having the SNB - but it sounds like you went for it?

My eyebrows are uneven too (weird!) but growing back really thick and fast.

I was naughty today and dyed what hair I have left. Will post a pic once I've had my eyebrows done!!

Lorna - hope you didn't have to wait long for the nurse?

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Hi girls
Ten days post op and feeling pretty good.Wounds healing nicely and although strange nerve pain kicked in a few days ago pain has been pretty manageable.Still have bright blue nipple from the dye and have no idea how long that will last.Appointment on wed for results from op so got everything crossed at the moment and also hope to get some sort of info about my rads as desperate to get started ASAP.
LORNA sorry you have been,having a hard time that must have been horrible and scary for you.How is it now?Is is still leaking or is it calming down a bit ?
Sandytoes hope your test results come back positive for you as you deserve some good news and sound as though you would make a great mother.Well done on eyebrow growth.I seem to have one growing in much thicker than the other so verrry attractive.
Rexi-nice to here from you.Good luck with final chemo.Bet you cant believe this is the last one.
Lots of love to everyone
Pam

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Oh i want eyebrows for Xmas - will send my letter to Santa early .xx

Go Sandy !! u sound well too 🙂

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Sexy Rexi's final chemo!! Yayee!! Have you got your surgery date sorted?

Your cakes are amazing. The Halloween ones were fantastic. And how do you make them on sticks....?! Where are you moving to? If Sussex, I'll be round for a coffee morning soon! 🙂

Lorna! Poor you. Hope you heal up soon.

I had a really busy weekend with friends to stay for the local fireworks, walks in the country and a big roast yesterday. I felt normal again for the first time in a long time and forgot about cancer.The excitements of my week are that I've got my rads planning tomorrow and I'm getting my eyebrows shaped on Weds as they are growing back with a vengeance.

Hope the other Junies are OK.

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Rexi - Its great that it's ure last chemo , long time coming !!!

I am glad u are far away as ure cakes are awesome , would do me no good.

Up for the D/N . bet she doesn'y come for ages, this infection is a cracker . Hope it clears up soon as its pulling me down a wee bit .

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Hi everyone,
I have not caught up with all of your posts for several pages! But I will in the next days, as *drumroll* I am finally having my last chemo tomorrow!

Again had busy weeks - # had consumer unit ( fusebox ) changed and no electricity/heating for days (daytime),
# lots of packing - moving on the 18th Nov, total mess in the house! As I am rubbish for most days my hubby, au-pair and a friend are actually packing, I only sort papers and point 😉
#, then our hot water tank decided to have a leak ( my husband noticed it, I wouldn't have ) - first we thought it was just the washer, then we got the plumber out, after cleaning and checking it turned out to be a pinhole in the tank itself - boohoo - £720 !! And we are only here for another 2 weeks 😞
# what else, went working for just a few days - difficult to really get motivated unless I get dragged into meetings, must admit. I am mostly going for chats and change of scenery - oh and I made a bunch of cupcakes , Halloween themed , with that and another college bringing in cake, and a pink friday they organised, we raised close to £300 for breast cancer charity - so cool
# my sons birthday on Thu and the birthday party yesterday - another time consuming cake - based on the Dragon Vale game in the iPad. Great birthday and party 🙂
# had all neighbours around for coffee and cake today to say goodbye - they are so nice, sad to leave them
And # I had my gentest result on Thu - I don't have a mutation of the BRCA genes. Big relief - especially my children and sisters!

And I just made some cake pops in red with pink breast cancer ribbons drawn on for the lovely nurses on the chemo day ward tomorrow. Too Much? Cake is deffo My way of expressing thank you for being nice and supportive during the treatment.
I need to go to bed - but full of steroids...

Chatting more in the next days - hope you are all well!

Rexi

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Going to the nurse to get this dressing changed , eek , its seeping at the edges and kinda smells. I really hope they know what they are doing . I would rather go and see my surgeon . Me of little faith !!! O don't understamd where its came from .

On a mission today , i must get a new outfit , sinking in how hard it is to look normal in tops . Trust this to happen when i am havin a party !!!! A tent may be the chosen option .

Sandy i hope it went well yesterday , i seen the thread on the girl who is pregnant, such a good news story . It can happen . I am soooooo hoping you get the news u want .xxxxx

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I think that's the same one i've got. Am sure we'll be fine! We're hardcore...!??

My diet started on Monday - well, healthier eating as opposed to proper dieting. I put on more weight since chemo as my lovely friends sent me loads of chocolate, cheese and cupcakes when I had my op - and I've done no exercise at all. Booze is tasting better too which is a worry when it comes to weight!! But am determined to lose a decent amount by Xmas.

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