Thanks for the replies.
Only awake for a few hours - could have been worse. Ironic too, cos I had relatively good news at the clinic yesterday so was expecting to sleep well.
I'm not really desperate to have a reason for all of this, and I definitely have not put this post on as a 'woe is me' kind of thing. I am just really interested. ALthough, as you said Nolton, I think that if you took 100 48 year old women without cancer, a high proporortion of them would probably have been throuh some kind of emotional stress in the past few months so it is probably pointless musings!
Good luck to you all with whatever comes next on the journey
I still put my first bc down to being in a bad car accident and having bruising across my chest exactly one year before finding a lump. I must have been ER- as I wasn't on any hormone treatment after surgery, radio and chemo. HER2 testing didn't exist back then.
Other than age and being a year or 2 post menopause I have nothing to blame my new bc on. No physical, mental or emotional trauma which is a bit scary as I can't blame anything and have to accept my body just did it for no reason (and therefore might do it again!)
Saw onc for first time yesterday and radio days applied for and been put on tamoxifen which I guess will be my crutch/safety blanket for 5 years.
Did you get any sleep?
Interesting one this. I discovered my lump a week after I moved to Devon. I had endured a really, really stressful couple of years trying to sell our previous house and got to exchange 3 times for the buyer to pull out for some ridiculous reason. I was permanentl stressed and running on adrenalin for all that time and I have often wondered if that was the straw that broke the camels back. I have heard many women say they developed bc after a very stressful time but of course it may all be coincidence. Will never know I suppose.