15 radiotherapy sessions is about average, I think some people have more. They're nothing to worry about except for the getting to and from the hospital - depending on how far away you live.
Thank you Cassie. That seems like a lot of radiotherapy sessions - is that the usual amount for something like that?
Unfortunately, I think I've also found a lump in my armpit today as well.
One thing I could maybe be hopeful about, two not so much, three . . . well. Not likely to be good is it? It just all seems to be happening so quickly.
Nearly two years ago I had an inverted nipple, and yes it did prove to indicate 'something'. But it was a small 'something' with no spread into lymph nodes. I had a lumpectomy followed by 15 sessions of radiography.
Diagnosed 31st January 2014 - all done and dusted by 16th July 2014. 18 months later I can hardly credit that I've had cancer. I will be taking a hormone tablet for 5 years and so far have no identifiable side-effects. No doubt I am older than you (70 this year) but I just wanted to say that a diagnosis of cancer doesn't necessarily mean that there is a horrific journey ahead. Each one of us is different, for some it is traumatic but for many of us - and no doubt those women don't frequent this forum as they aren't experiencing problems and needing support - it is a blip in their lives. I appreciate that while you're actually living through it - and the waiting is by far the worse times - it won't feel like a 'blip' but, in my case, that is all it was.
I wish you well as you progress through what is often termed this 'journey' - there is light at the end of the tunnel even if you can't yet see it.
Thank you all - Para, I'm so sorry to hear about your mum and about you. What a lot to deal with. That's what makes me think I'm being pathetic.
Yes, I have called the support line and the woman was lovely but I know that nothing can get me out of this loop really. I worry that my bipolar will get out of control while I'm getting treatment (if I can get treatment). I worry that they won't deal with my diabetes properly. I worry that my dad is dying and I can't be there for him. I worry that my mum is getting more and more ill and vulnerable every time I see her, and I can't be there for her either.
Then I realise that, because needles are a trigger for me because of some childhood events, I am freaking out at even the thought of a cannula. If I can't cope with that, that tiny little thing, how will I cope with all that is ahead of me? It's pathetic and ridiculous.
I so appreciate you all taking the time to reply - it is helping even though I might seem like a lost cause!
Twinkle you are feeling exactly like the majority of us did in the beginning, I know it's bloody horrendous and you imagine all sorts, I was totally convinced that my time was up but in reality it was nothing like that, I lost well over a stone and barely ate for weeks, my throat was so choked with fear I could barely speak let alone swallow food, it's truly hideous and the waiting is as bad as it gets, results which ever way they go will give you back some control, they can treat you and you will get through this, 10 months ago I was right where you are now and felt my life was over but I'm here and I'm well, ive seen my son get married and been on two lovely holidays and am now very much looking forward to enjoying Christmas will all my loved ones, life will go on and you will find a way to cope Xxx Jo
Thank you - I've just spoken with my GP who said she would be very surprised if it wasn't 'something' - I did push her, she didn't just volunteer that out of the blue!
I just feel utterly terrified.
It is such an awful time, has to be experienced to be believed. Be kind to yourself, do what you need to to get through until you know what you're dealing with and can get a plan in place waiting is the WORST I hate it with a passion.
Really not doing well today at all. I've lost so much weight in 10 days (6kg) - but I haven't been eating, so am trying to tell myself it's that. I can't help thinking there's something there, something awful, something that can't be treated - and that even if it can be treated, it won't work. Crying so much, absolute wreck.
I'm so glad you're well! You sound a very positive person but I'm sure it was very difficult for you - do you tend to put on a face for people? I do that a lot, but not in front of my partner, so he knows what I'm really feeling just now.
I will indeed hang around here - just been to the pharmacy to collect a prescription and there was a screening leaflet. I've been avoiding images, but there was a whole page of them and the nipple change pic looks just like mine.
It's very good of you to be so open - I haven't told many people in real life, but the kindness of strangers is remarkable. I've posted on a parenting forum too, but I feel quite guilty as so many people are going through horrific things there and I'm worrying about something that hasn't happened yet (although I'd bet my house on it). They are all so generous though. I feel guilty here too but I called the support line a couple of days ago and the woman I spoke to was so lovely that I felt this might be a safe place too.
I just wish I could be positive - it's something that has plagued me all my life, so I'm not going to turn it round in a couple of days, but I know I'll look back on this time and wish I could have it again, this will actually seem like a good place to be. I tried reading amindfulness book today but it just didn't engage me - I suppose that I'm looking for something that will show me how to show being so stupid and get a grip.
Not at all, no I didn't though I went to my GP with a lump which once investigated at the clinic was found to be just fat but while having an ultrasound another area was found which was biopsied and I was then diagnosed with a small area of Grade 1 cancer so very lucky really as it could have sat undetected for quite a while Xx
I had a core biopsy and it's fine honestly,they inject local anaesthetic first so you won't feel it, and your only a bit sore afterwards not in agony, I know it's a horrendously stressful time and nothing we say will really do much to ease your anxiety but hopefully being able to answer your worries will go some way to helping you xx
Would it be a needle aspiration or a core biopsy do you know? Both are terrifying, but the latter even more so.
I believe that an inverted nipple can be a warning sign. It is really good that you at the clinic so quickly. Do be prepared for examination, mammogram, possibly ultrasound and maybe a biopsy on the day. And do be warned you may not get a definitive answer the same day so you may end up waiting and at this time of year it may be after Christmas.
The breast clinic staff are invariably terrific and you will be in good hands.
Thank you Mary - my appointment is Tuesday. I know there's been no diagnosis, and I'm so aware that many, many others here would trade places with me, but the anxiety is just awful. I'm bipolar so it's always there, ready to burst into action. Isn't it the case though that a suddenly inverted nipple is most likely to be a tumout pulling the tissue?
Thank you - yes, diazepam is helping me sleep at night and I'd love to take it all day too! I know it's a one day at a time thing, and I know I'm running ahead, but I can't see what else this can be. I really appreciate you taking the time to reply, thank you.
I am so sorry that you you are suddently facing this. It is a huge shock and nothing that anyone can say can stop the anxiety and the feeling that 'this it it'.
Firstly - have you been been referred to the breast clinic yet, do you know when your appointment is.
The positives are that you went to your GP straightaway and you will have it investigated very soon I am sure. Statistically you will do well. A much greater percentage of women survive breast cancer than die from it, and this figure is improving all the time. The treatments are moving on all the time too, there are so many trails and research that it is all getting better.
It will take time for you to start taking it in, but you must remember that you havent been diagnosed yet so try not to get ahead of yourself. Read the information on this site and McMillan if you want to find out more about breast cancer and the treatments available but do not google stuff and there is so much outdated and inaccurate information out there.
Ask anything you want on this forum, everyone is fantastic and the phone line is also brilliant.
Let us know how you get on at the clinic, take care.
Hiya love, Diazipam got me through the terror, and it really is sheer and utter terror that you will be feeling, I remember it all too well! Please don't write yourself off, I did it too but having been through it all and out the other side I can tell you that things are nothing like you will be imagining and this is very treatable, there is nothing you can do other than wait for a definite diagnosis but try not to run too far ahead of yourself, we will all say the same on here, one step at a time! Xx Jo
That's it really. Never had inverted nipples before - then just over two weeks ago, I noticed the right one had almost collapsed. Went to GP after a week - her face fell, then she found a lump too.
I'm terrified. I have myself dead and buried already.
I have a few other health issues, and severe anxiety at the best of times. I can't stop crying, and just know that this is it. Everyone is telling me to be positive (well, the few people I've told), as if I'm just being stubborn by not being that way. They tell me it'll probably be nothing, that even if it is, there are excellent options . . . but I'm dealing with this very badly.
Does anyone have any real advice on how to deal with the panic? I don't mean bland stuff such as take deep breaths, have a bath and a cup of tea - I need something that deals with utter terror.
Thank you so much for any help.