June, you write with great intensity, and I understand your plight very well. It's mine as well, although I admit that, right now, my isolation is mostly of my making. I sometimes wish my friends were more there for me, but if I only I felt a bit less disconnected, I am sure I would be fine-ish. Nevermind, but both you and I need to find something new, something to be passionnate about. I think connectedness may come, once this is done, as an added benefit. What do you think?
Magical Moon, I am sorry you're struggling with anastrazole, all more since I am meant to take it as well 😞 (or was it the other -zole? oh, nevermind). I was struck by a very early menopause, at 42 and looking half that age (sadly, I've caught up big time since). I didn't take HRT, unlike both mum and grand-mum, because I was afraid of breast cancer (that my ancestors didn't get!). I have a possibly interesting reflexion on hormonal changes: my mood flattened a lot going through menopause -- gone were the flights of fancy, the sense of poetry, much of the imagination; rationality hit me like a ton of bricks. There was a little silver lining tho: all of a sudden I had a sort of gravitas, of authoritativeness... please don't laugh, but to survive the boredom of getting down a lifetime stoned on oestrogen (yes -- stoned!), I had to embrace my inner male part, and learn to love different thrills. It did work (to an extent). I expect the -zole to only make that more extreme; I guess I will have to buy a motorcycle 😄 Having blabbed all that, your symptoms are mostly physical, right? And for a 0.8%... gawk, that's very little. Is that over five year, ten, or more? Would be worthy to discuss it with the oncologist, next time? I mean, on the face of it it doesn't seem a bargain in the least, and I am a bit puzzled that you weren't discouraged from taking it in the first place (unless there's something that I am missing, obviously).
Jill, well done keeping the goat at its place! A bra is, overall, a small price to pay -- I would have paid it for a tattoo less (I got three, always the exaggerating one...).
Me, I had a quite tranquil day at work, then a good session with the shrink, ate out, now I am knackered and I'll go and watch a dvd. I have other bits and bobs maybe worth telling, but not now, my brain got enough of a workout today, not the right time to open other lil' cans of worms 😄
hugs all xxxx
mael
