Caz, Thank you so much for your wonderful, thoughtful reply. I'd love to be chemo buddies x. I have been awake all night thinking the worst, which as you say is just not productive. Actually my daughter has been off with an ENT infection all last week. Here's thinking positive.
I think they'll only tell me when I start chemo when all my MRI, CT and Bone scans are done. I so wish they would do the mastecomy now. I think I'd feel better to know that something was being done.
My daughter had a cry yesterday but on the whole she's blocking the whole thing out I think.
Hi Caz and everyone
This is my first post on BCC forum. I've been diagnosed today with a grade 3 invasive ductal carcinoma grade 3 with some cancer cells in my lymph node on the same (right) side. My tumour is 14cm by 8 cm. I have a daughter who is 14. And like you, Caz, I'm absolutely terrified of what this all means for her. I am to have ct, MRI and bone scans as soon as I can, and now reading this I think if they find even something small I'll completely freak out too
The past two weeks waiting for the results of the biopsy have been awful. The absolute worst case senario goes through your mind. My surgeon today said I'll have to have 6 months of chemo first, then a mastectomy then radiotherapy - possibly to the chest wall. Just on 30th November I had a clear mammo and then on the day my biopsies and ultrasound were done I also had another clear mammo!!!!! My surgeon said that the good news is my tumour is hormone positive. I'm not sure why this is good, but he said this is good. Like you Caz I can feel something near my ear and I too had a ringing yesterday - but today not. I'm terrified reading your post that it means something awful.
At the same time I do feel that I now know that my team will offer me treatment - and that my Macmillan nurse said to me that this is about treating this. She was wonderful.
so sorry you are feelin like this i also have been struggling just had secound operaion to remove margin lymph nodes are also clear .My doctor perscribed me antidipressants only 10 ml called citalopram they take 3 weeks to kick in and have made me feel calmer.I have struggled in the last 10 years no to take anything after my son committed suicide but no wish i had had these then dont feel so low and paniky but nothing will take away what we are going through .Enjoy your children keep your memories they will help you through this .
Hi sweetheart read this :and focus on this, you will get through this and your children will have a fantastic mum for many many years to come.
Mucinous carcinoma of the breast usually appears in older women (ages 48 to 82) and is a medium- to- low-grade slow-growing type of breast cancer. Since it is not aggressive, your outlook, or prognosis if you are diagnosed with this type of breast cancer, is better than most other invasive breast cancers. A study done in western Australia found that, in most cases of mucinous carcinoma, the cancer did not spread to the lymph nodes nor metastasize to other parts of the body.
Caz. You need to go see your GP and explain all this and ask for something to help you get through this. You can't hide or lock yourself away, but you do need a crutch to make you get out of that door.
I'm not going to say worrying won't help as we all worry with whatever diagnosis we have had. Have you phoned the helpline on here. They are great and will listen and listen if you want. Sometimes it helps more to get it out in the open with someone you don't know and can't see.
My friend told me last week, be nice to myself and it will be easier to get through...she is right.... so be nice to yourself and treat yourself to some help.
I'm so sorry you're feeling so scared and I really feel for you. I can tell you that when I had my CT scan they also saw something on my liver which they were going to biopsy but then it was decided it was too small so in the end they did an ultrasound and decided it was a haemangioma (a collection of blood vessels). When I was re-scanned after chemo, and it was still there and hadn't changed - that was good and was only done for my piece of mind.
I also know of people who've had things on their lungs which is usually scarring due to a previous infection. CT scans pick up all kinds of things which aren't cancer - honestly. Also re whatever you can feel behind your ear - I did find that I found all kinds of things over my body which I wasn't sure about because I'd never examined bits of my body so intimately or been so aware of bodily functions. You sort of develop a heightened sense - which is not surprising.
Sending you some gentle hugs and I think once you start your treatment, you'll feel a bit better about things.