Dear I want to live,
I'm sorry to hear that you are so stressed about what his happening to you just now, and am sure your fellow forum users will be here throughout the night for some support for you. Unfortunately our helpline is closed until 9am tomorrow but please do phone the Samaritans if you feel you need to talk to someone, they are also here to support you through all this, the phone number for them is 08457 90 90 90, call them tonight please and get that support.
Here's also the link to their web page: http://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help-you/different-ways-you-can-get-touch/most-people-phone-us
Do take care and good luck tomorrow, I'm sure you'll be well cared for.