I'm a new girl! 39, approaching 40. Finished treatment (grade 2 lumpectomy, radiotherapy, turned down chemo) and just getting into the tamoxifen.
I could identify alot with so much that has been said. Thank you.
I've tried to be open to my feelings during treatment but was also brave and organised, but am finding now; 6 weeks on from the end of radiotherapy, that I am pretty shell-shocked.But I feel my freinds and family have moved on with it and just want me abck to normal. My boyfriend is being wonderfully supportive though and actually forwarded me the link to here.
I hate hearing about people dying of cancer too; it feels like hearing it makes it more likely to happen to me/gives me more fear.
Has anyone experienced getting irritable and anxious from Tamoxifen, 6 weeks in?
I am also so, so tired still and feel like a bit of a failure for not getting better quickly. I read somewhere here a minute ago that having radiotherapy is like having 20,000 chest x-rays!! Made me feel much better!
Good to read your stories. I'll keep in touch I thin; I need support.
Best, Kiki x
Can relate to these feelings as well. I think that while u are going thro the physicality of treatment your frame of mind is focused on what u need to do to get thro it all. I felt exactly the same when my treatment ended, Ok, time to get back to "normal", when normal didn't happen it came as a complete shock. I'm waiting to join a group therapy session and while it's not everyones cup of tea, I have a feeling it might be helpful. Don't be too hard on yourself, u've come thro a very traumatic time, one day at a time. Take care x
I have also completed treatment and was also in a positive frame of mind and understand your feelings so I thought I would share this with you. I found an article on cancercouncelling website re Dr Peter Harvey- after treatment finishes- and found it extremely helpful with my feelings at the moment. Puts everything into perspective. hope you find it helpful as well.
take care of yourselves and take one step at a time.
Yes I can relate to both of you - felt pretty strong through the whole thing only now at an end feeling odd and felt so sad hearing about Linda - and those stories of celebs I have never and will never met generally dont affect me but I just ached for her and family.
Some things that might help you both I have now started counscelling to look at my emotions now I have finished treatment and also went to the Penny Brohn Centre recently - amazing and recommended
Best to you both
I don't often post on here, but I do follow the conversations and find them very useful.
I have now completed treatment - Chemo x6 Fec/Tax. double mx and radiotherapy, finished Sep 14.
Only thing remaining is temp expanders removed and permenant ones put in. All in all my journey has been ok, well compared to a lot of ladies on here I really don't have anything to complain about.
Mentally I have kept strong and all in all been in a good place most of the time. Had a few wobbly moments here and there.
So I had recently been following Lynda Bellinghams story - found her really inspiring and a real breath of fresh air. So when I found out on Monday she had passed away it really floored me!! It has really upset me in a way I never expected. The thing that really got to me was the fact that she so wanted to make Christmas and it wasn't to be. I cried my eyes out, and it made me physially ill, and I felt really depressed. I have never felt like this the whole time I was having treatment and it has shocked me how much this has affected me.
So ladies any idea why I feel like this, and how do I deal with it. Anyone else had this happen to them?