It's only natural you will be feeling this way don't be too hard on yourself. I totally understand where your coming from as I was diagnosed in Nov 2013 with Triple Neg, lumpectomy,chemo and rads and felt the same as you when treatment came to an end a year past July as there is no meds after active treatment and it feels like the safety net has dissapeared leaving you feeling vulnerable,
I can honestly say for the first twelve months or so I was thinking the worst with any ache or pain as I am aware of the higher risk of recurrence in the first 2-3 yrs, but believe me it does get easier and you will be able to move on, I am now enjoying my life, got a new job and making the most of it and you will too as every day you will get stronger physically and emotionally.
If I can be of any further help just message me
Take care and sending hugs
Breast Cancer Care also have a series of services under the umbrella of Moving Forward becasue we recognise how difficult it can be when active treatment comes to end. Many people have shared how scary a time this can be for them, which is why these services have been developed.
Do have a look to see what is in your area and if you have any questions, please do contact them directly. 0345 077 1893
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Hi Syers38......it is a really scary time, I agree...your body has been virtually taken over by the medical profession for probably 6 or 7 months and you can feel dumped, anxious, elated all at the same time. Similar diagnosis to you.....diagnosed December 2011, WLE, 6 x FEC-T, 23 rads and now on Anastrozole (although ER only weakly positive).
Life is pretty much absolutely great........mostly feel like all this happened to someone else, although have occasional wobbles! I found this article very useful (quite long, but worth a read for reassurance that how you feel is absolutely OK 🙂 http://www.cancercounselling.org.uk/Peter%20Harvey%20-%20After%20the%20Treatment%20Finishes%20then%2...
My Grandpa used to say 'worry is like a rocking chair......goes backwards and forwards but never gets you anywhere' ..... Unless of course you've got really slippery floors!!!!!
Do you have a MacMillan or similar attached to your hospital....do they offer free complementary treatments...Reiki was fab for me, and I also practice Mindfulness which really helps to put everything in perspective.....you can get great Mindfulness colouring books too....which really help to sort of get back in touch with the present, as after treatment, it's all too easy to linger on the past and worries for the future.
Look after yourself....J x
My mum survived for another 35 years after radical mx and node clearence and died of something completely unrelated. But it is true where I read somewhere that you can only be sure that you are 'cured' of cancer when you die of something else. I know that may sound morbid but it resonates for me.
I have just had my 2nd annual check-up and I did feel like you do now when my treatment finished. And every ache and pain I was sure was sinister. This time last year I had big problems with my knee and so was convinced I had bone secondaries. I had an mri and was dx with a torn ligament. And after all, no matter how low the % of recurrence may be statistically, someone falls into the not so lucky group and it could be me or you.
But.... it does get better, gradually. Yes, the cancer could come back but in the meantime we can get on with life and actually make sure we really make the best of what we have because we have an inkling of our mortality which I think a lot of people forget - that none of us live forever.
Sorry, I have gone on a bit but please believe that it does get better and the worry, while it stays with you, does become something you think about less.
What a lovely positive message Val! Your aunt sounds fab, I'd settle for that! Trouble is we focus so much on the negative things we read and forget that breast cancer is so treatable now and yes it may come back but that too can be dealt with and many women are living like your aunt with it and enjoying life Xx
Syers38 I have an aunt who is almost 85 she had a mastectomy 25 years ago no chemo just radiation she has secondaries now diagnosed 2 years ago in her lungs but she works at a hospice in the office she goes every week day and works for about 4 hours. She has inhalers and is still enjoying life. She loves shopping trips at the weekend her work which she says is her life although totally voluntary is very important to her.
Her attitude to life is what I want to have when my treatment is finished keep busy and enjoy life.. I understand how you feel continually going to the hospital I think gives you some security but there is life out there so try to brave and you will be fine I am sure. congratulations on completing all that treatment. Hugs Val
Hiya, it's a really scary time coming to the end of treatment but you will settle down, mine finished in June and it took me a few months for it to not dominate my every waking minute,it's so hard not to read things that upset you but amongst it all there are so many positive stories as well, you will gain some confidence as time passes and will also be closely monitored, try not to focus so much on it coming back, it's gone now and there's a good chance it was still that way! Xx Jo