Yes I know exactly what you mean about the attention seeking, I find telling people the hardest part because I don't want to be the one to ruin their day!! There's nothing anyone can really say either that makes you feel any better. I think Keeks put it brillaintly & I feel just like that, (although for some reason I expected my biopsy to be bad news, I'm not very positive, trying hard to be though)!! I'm still waiting for further diagnosis as the cancer cells they found were just on 1 of the slices of biopsy tissue they took out of 5/6 samples, so they keep saying it's tiny, but that doesn't give me much information. I had a breast MRI last Weds and will get the results on Weds. I'm so scared it's spread and I've now got so many aches & pains that maybe I didn't think about before, but now I'm terrified its elsewhere. So sorry you're having to post in here, but I have found everyone fab. Good luck xx
Hi Daltcat, I felt the very same as you. I was diagnosed 2 weeks ago today and to be honest it still hasn't sunk in and I still feel its not happening to me. The only time I've cried in this process so far was when I was having an ultrasound and I could clearly see a blob, I had a wee cry then, but apart from that I have been fine. I was diagnosed after a rountine mammogram so it was totally out of the blue for me.
I also want to tell folk but like you I feel its like I'm seeking attention, which obviously isn;t the case. This kind of attendtion I could well do without thank you very much!!
I hope everything goes ok for you today with your MRI.
Best wishes xxx
Welcome to the forums, this must be very difficult time for you. I’m sure other users will be along to support you soon.
In the meantime, maybe you would like to talk things through with a member of our helpline staff who are there to offer practical information as well as emotional support. The free phone number is 0808 800 6000 and the lines are open Monday to Friday 9.00 to 5.00 and Saturday 10.00 to 2.00.
with best wishes
Hi Daltocat welcome.
sorry you have recieved the bad news. It's all very surreal isn't it. When I was told a little voice deep inside my head kept saying "they have made a mistake" even though I knew they didn't.
I had decided I would be very upfront with everyone but as soon as I got the news I was very numb and just shut down for a bit. There is a leaflet on here about telling others and I found it useful.
one of the problems was I felt fine. Good actually and that's not what you expect, people with cancer should feel ill. I didn't. But when you start to tell people then you have a whole new set of problems. Other people's reactions. From the "oh it's nothing to worry about these days" people to the "it's the end of the world" people.
You have had a great shock, your emotions take time to adjust. Some days you want to scream and cry, other days I want to just get on with it, but the waiting is torture. Unfortunately you just end up spending time reassuring people you are ok. That's a very tiring conversation after a while.
Have a look at the recent diagnosis leaflet. Get a note book and write down questions you want answers to. When you go to appointments your mind goes blank and you tend to forget a lot of stuff. You won't know all your details untill after it is removed, but when you get your treatment plan you will have something to focus on. I was diagnosed end Jan and my treatment finished weeks ago. Apart from a couple of hidden scars and a slightly smaller boob you would never know I have cancer.
Yes, I really didn't expect it and it took a long time to get my head round it. I kept wanting to go back and asking 'are you sure?'. I suppose it's only natural really, cancer is something that happens to other people isn't it.
I understand what you mean about attention seeking too. Just tell your nearest and dearest and leave the rest until you feel more ready. There is the impulse to get on the phone and tell the world and certainly for close family and friends of course you should, their response will be supportive of you and certainly not that you are being a drama queen.
Once you start on treatment it will feel more real I can assure you!
Welcome to the BCC discussion forums where I am sure you will get lots of good, honest support from the many informed users of this site.
While you are waiting for replies, I have put for you below the link to one of BCC's publications you might find helpful. Also our helpline team are just a free phone call away if you need to talk to someone in confidence. 0808 800 6000 lines open weekdays 9-5 and Saturdays 10-2.