So sorry to hear all that Rosie. As if this isnt hard enough as it is. I'm starting to get pretty jittery..I've felt okish the last couple of days but as Thursday gets closer I'm getting more scared. I'm supposed to be going into work tomorrow but I'm not sure how much work they will get out of me! Good luck Restless, thinking of you x
Well, just when I thought things couldn't get any worse, it seems like mother-in-law has just days to live (she has severe dementia but is only early 70s) . Hospital took father-in-law into a side room today for tea and a chat (not good when that happens) and said there is nothing more they can do for her. They've taken her off the drip so it will probably all happen on Wednesday when my results are due and my son turns 16. Roll on Thursday!
I've toyed with the idea of calling my GP to see if they have had notification already. I had my biopsy on my appointment day on the 5th Feb. I'm convinced the resuls are back already but I can't bring myself to pick up the phone and start investigating. But then again I'd rather know asap than delay the worry and not knowing. Seems pointless. The sooner the better I guess?? My boobs are huge too and if they take one off I'm pretty sure I'll develop curvature of the spine because I'll be lop-sided when I walk!! I wasn't going to have any wine tonight but bugger it. Lifes too short to make yourself even more miserable than you already are! XXX
Im also off work this week with the children. Thankfully my in laws are having them tuesday all day and overnight until Wednesday teatime, then my dad is having them thursday morning when i go for the results and he'll have them overnight too so at least I'll only have to put a brave face on for the afternoon and then Thursday night...well,,,I may need more wine! This sounds incredibly shallow and vain but my boobs are huge. If they have to take one I hope they'll consider reducing the other one. The thought of leaving me with one this size is almost as bad as having one off altogether. Jeez the things that go through your mind eh?!
Hi all again, I have come into work today, and I'm fine if I'm busy, but as soon as it quietens down my mind is off again. I have a constant churning in my stomach. I am expecting my results by phone tomorrow afternoon, at my request. I could get them in clinic on Thursday, but I can't stand the thought that they will be available on Tuesday and I would have to wait another 2 days, so would rather know even if by phone. I'm worrried that they will forget though, and with it being half term so many of the staff are away. Can't stop worrying about where I should be when waiting for the call too. Don't want to be at home with the kids as we have family staying and I would have to share the news too quickly, or try to pretend that nothing has happened. I think I will need some space. Good luck everyone and let us know how you get on.
Like it Angel! I too am waiting for biopsy results on Wednesday. The clinic rings up and gives you results over the phone so I've been driving myself nuts thinking about who they ring first - do they get all the good news out of the way first as that will be quick or do they stagger it bad/good/bad etc. I go from thinking everything will be fine, most biopsies are clear to thinking the worst due to me having some significant family history.
It isn't helping that it is half term week because normally I'd throw myself into work and forget about it.
Whatever our results we should all come back and let everyone know because my first time looking on the board I freaked, it seemed everyone was getting bad results.
hi, I fully understand how you feel. Im also waiting for results on thursday and I just want to get there, find out and get on with whatever happens next. The not knowing is the hardest thing because if i dont know then in my head I start making it up and I daresay Im coming to the worst case scenario everytime!! And yes wine really does help! I had my biopsies done last Thursday, was a wreck until yesterday but feel quite calm today (so far!). Is this the lull before the storm? eeek! thinking of you all xx
I think the sooner you can find out, the better. I've had to wait two weeks. And it has dragged and the anxiety has increased by the day. I go from expecting the worst and almost planning my own bloody funeral to thinking, I'll be alright and even if it is cancer, so what, I can beat anything! The rollercoaster of emotions is crazy. It's a wonder we don't all crack up during this waiting period! My wine consumption was quite high before all this. Now I may as well go live in a vineyard. X
Hello. I am going through the same thing so I totally understand how you feel. It's the not knowing and that feeling that life is spiralling out of control. I have been terible this weekend, so full of anxiety that I am now light-headed. It's the worst feeling in the world. If you ahve had the problem before, have you been checked regularly? If so, I guess if it is the worst case scenario, at least you have caught it early??? XXX