You are right Morwenna - there is alot of stuff written about 'Vaginal dryness' on this site. I've realised that I wasn't really using Replens properly e.g. every 3 days, sex or not. Once chemo is over, I am going to make a real effort to start that regime properly and see how it goes. I have also ordered the 'Yes' product and will give that a go too. If I find that when I start my Hormone Meds (don't know which one I will be on), that nothing is working, then I will ask about the topical oestrogen, but I guess that will be my last resort.
I hate that I can't / don't want to give my hubby long hot kisses anymore due to a sore mouth and the idea of germs and we make do with a loving 'peck'.
I will be glad when these SE's are over, I really will, but I know deep down, that my life, as I knew it, has changed forever and I will never completely be the person I was. Some people might change for the better and make more of their lives, but to be honest, I was always that person that did make the most of their lives and lived it to the very fullest. I was an incredibly optimistic, cheerful, cheeky, loving, happy and positive person - but by the time I get out of this, I don't know who will be left. I still pretend to others that I'm more or less the same and maybe...one day, I will convince myself.
Don't get me wrong, I am so grateful for my chance to live, but I do feel so much compassion for you all ... we have just taken what life has thrown at us with no choices, so much to deal with, so many changes. I have to believe my life will get better and some sort of normaility return... hope is everything... thank you for sharing your challenges - I don't feel alone!!