Hi Rebel. Sorry to hear you are having a hard time. I was only diagnosed in March. I found the lymph node biospy painful too, it still is (mine was only in April). I did only work with four other people, and like you find it hard to say anything. I had a bit of a meltdown a couple of weeks ago. I really felt like I was being left in a corner and ignored. I spoke to my boss who said he had not wanted to put pressure on me as he knew stree wasn't good for my illness, I explained that by not treating me 'normally' it then felt like it was all about me being ill, but on the flip side I do appreciate him not piling the work on me. He has been really good, but I do feel he doesn't really get it if I am not able to do as much as I used to. My firm merged with another 2 days after my diagnosis. I had worked at the other firm a few years ago so I know most of the people there. The senior partner used to be my direct manager, he has stomach cancer, and is due to start another round of Chemo in September, so he totally gets where I am coming from. I know its really hard, but I think you need to have a conversation with them. My 'normal boss' has been good with appointments etc, but unless you have been/are going through it you cant really understand the marks it leaves on you.