I think it's totally reasonable of you to feel better returning to work with a decent head of hair. I also feel this isn't the primary issue because yes you will want to look ok but is your body ready for the massive demands of nursing? I also can't believe someone on your rads team ie a medical professional is asking you such a pointed question!
Even working in that environment they couldn't begin to know how you feel unless they've experienced it but wouldn't he/she have a better idea than most? Doesn't sound as if they observe anything!
Take your time love over all these decisions - to me you don't sound ready to return and you shouldn't be feeling forced into that decision. You need to heal physically and emotionally.
Hope it comes right.
The male radiotherapist I had most times was wonderful - if anything he was more caring and considerate than the women, but they were great too. So different from the chemo nurses, who were anything but!
I know what you mean about going back to work without hair, Ju. Mine is a secretarial and mainly sedentary job, but I still have to see people I used to know and work with before I left to have surgery/treatment, so it's still going to be weird. Thank goodness I am only part-time, don't think I could cope with wearing a wig all day.
I think it's going to take another year before we're really back to the new 'normal' for us, whatever that is. Yet one more thing they don't tell you...xx
You're so right, we've been through enough and should be able to recover at our own pace. I know what you mean about radiographers, I had a male one in with me the other day and it made me squirm! Although there was a female as well, I decided I didn't like him when he felt the need to undo my gown entirely! The norm is that they just undo the poppers enough to expose area to be zapped, but no he wanted the full monty. I felt quite exposed and although I'm usually not bothered by these things, this did disturb me a little.
As for hair growth, I've got a couple of cms and is quite thick, although it was before the chemo. Mind you I started eating a bit more fruit and veg but I have had terrible cramps and trumping like a good un most embarrassing! Hey ho!
Enjoy the rest of your weekend
I'm in your court in terms of when I feel ready to go back to work. My GP has been a wonderful support and being a woman understands how I feel. She has known my little family for years and I think it helps. Anyway, she has just signed me off for 3 months and said if I need anything to leave her a message and she will get back to me. She has also told me to make sure I've recovered properly until I return to work, especially with reconstruction in a few months time.
I am rather fortunate to have such a good GP and the other medical services I've been involved with, Basildon hospital for my diagnosis and surgery and Southend hospital for my treatment, both in Essex. All I want to say is, you should be supported and nurtured, especially in your area of expertise. I can't believe you were subjected to such disdain and I hope that person never has to deal with what you've dealt with. My lovely only you will know when the time is right, so listen to your inner self. Tell your GP how you feel and if you need to see someone else then do it, your wellbeing is all that matters, the journey isn't over just because all the treatment has finished.
Be kind to yourself and don't feel like you have to rush.
Sending big hugs
Just to add, my Onc prescribed Adcal (vitamin D and calcium) tablets at the same time as Letrozole - some areas seem to do this while others just wait and see!
in my case i am having a bone density scan due to having a blood clot through chemo. I was then unable to take Tamoxifen as this can (very rarely) cause blood clots. I have been put on anastrozole tamoxifen does protect your bones but Anastrozole doesnt so if I am at risk of bone thinning my oncologist will give me a calcium supplement. I had a couple of complications during chemo but so far had my tenth rads without any problems, hoping that this will continue but just waiting to be hit by the proverbial truck . I have been using diprobase cream which has been good for me. Wishing everyone trouble free rads love Gill x PS i did have a funny taste but now subsiding
In my case it's to establish the current density of my bones so they can ascertain later on whether the Letrozole has affected it, although as I have now been taking the tablets for a month, they'd better get a move on!
That is rubbish for you having to wait nearly 2 years to see the oncologist! I saw mine end of November the day of my last chemo, I'm seeing him Monday next in the radiotherapy department and also have a chemo follow up with him in April. The variances across the country are scary indeed! Have you questioned this?
Hope they move it forward for you and quick.
Well that's it, last radiotherapy session complete! Feel a bit bereft if the truth be known, bit of an anti climax. Mind you it took us two and a half hours to get there, car accident then flooding that sent us in the opposite direction to where we wanted to go. I was an hour and a half late for my appointment, however quite a few people were running late so I only had to wait 5 minutes. Go back to see onc nurses in ten days and should see onc doctor six weeks after that. I also have an appointment with my surgeon in March to hopefully discuss my reconstruction. I've also made an appointment with an onc councillor, to try and get my head around what I've been through.
Still got my Herceptin injections every 3 weeks, so at least I will still feel a bit cared for. Rollercoaster, I don't think there's much difference between sub cut or intravenous except, my injection is concentrated and in a 5ml bottle. Have you finished your book yet? My husband and daughter like a bit of John Grisham too. I love to read, but at the moment, I struggle with my concentration.
Have a good weekend Maisies x
Lost a toenail yesterday!!! Didn't notice til I put my socks on this morning - thought it looked funny, sort of pale and very thin nail whereas my toenails are a bit tough normally. Had a look in the bed and on the carpet, and there it was....
Not at all painful, I just hope it grows back properly. My fingernails haven't actually fallen off but they're about half and half new and old nail. Don't you just love these unexpected chemo legacies?
Me too, Nicola, saw my Onc at the end of October and she said she'd see me in a couple of months, and am supposed to be having a bone scan, but no appointment yet. I've got an appointment to see the Radiotherapy doc in June, and one with the breast clinic in July, but that's it so far. Not been discharged/signed off or anything...
Rollercoaster, thanks so much for taking the time to reply. You've hit the nail on the head! My mind's all over the place at the moment. What hasn't helped, is that I can't have my reconstruction for 6 months, which means that I'll be deformed when I go on my holidays to Cyprus. I just can't imagine myself in a swimsuit! Mind you I spoke to the senior radiologist earlier and she gave me the number of an oncologist councillor, so I'm going to phone tomorrow and book an appointment.
As for the Herceptin, I'm on that too. I started mine in October with the 3 Docetaxcel treatments, I'm now having it as a subcut injection and only takes 5 minutes! It's a breeze compared to the other treatments.
Anyway thanks again Rollercoaster, enjoy the book
Sorry you're having problems with your feet, Lois, it does seem unfair when you've already been through so much.
Yes, thanks, I'm feeling more or less back to normal now although still have up and down days - must seriously think about going back to work soon! I have a darkish fuzz on my head but not enough to go without a hat or wig, and my eyebrows and lashes have grown back but some of them are sticking out at funny angles...Still bald as a coot 'down below' though!
Nearly finished, rosie, good luck and don't forget the radiation keeps working for several days after your last zap, so keep up with the cream etc.
Good luck and best wishes to everyone else as well xx
Thanks for your kind words Lols I'm still up and down at the moment, to be honest I think when I was diagnosed everything moved so quickly I don't think I thought about or realised what I was going through. In the past week or so, it's hit me hard and I'm beginning to really dislike my body/appearance. At least rads finish Friday, so another thing out of the way! It doesn't help when you're travelling and tired. I'm very red and a little sore now, last night it even started to itch, which was quite frustrating! Will be having a catch up with senior radiologist later, so will talk to her.
By the way, has any maisies had problems with their eyesight, as I have problems with focusing, I wear glasses and they don't seem to be doing their job. Any ideas?
Have a good day girls
Thanks very much Annie I will certainly give it a go. It's becoming quite warm too, so will also try leaving it open to allow the air to get to it.
I really appreciate your help.
Just a quick tip, rainbowrosie - smooth the cream on rather than rub it in, I did that a bit too enthusiastically and ended up with dead skin accumulating. Also, expose the area to the open air a couple of times a day (indoors of course, bit too cold to do it outside at the moment!)
I've completed 10 radiotherapy sessions now and feeling very hot and tingly at the site. Skin is very red and am rubbing in the cream like mad! Glad the weekend is here as the travelling is very tiring, so feet up and a few naps for me this weekend. Feeling really fed up and weepy, hey ho
Wishing you all a restful weekend
woo hoo congratulations Fran on finishing well done
Good to hear you can make the reunion is it during half term Ive not checked Manchester holiday dates yet but I will be able to get someone to look after Rafael if it is so I can go on Fri day during day
Hi everyone, have just returned from last rads - all over in a week, which is wonderful - I just hope it does its job as well as the 3 week course, although they can't put people at risk on clinical trials, and Fast Forward has been going for quite a while now, so I'm sure it's ok. I have my final check-up with the onc in two weeks, and that's it!
Chezz, def ok for 30/31 May -- should be fun. Hope you're beginning to feel better, don’t over-tire yourself at work. I'm due to start back at school mid- March. I'm really nervous about it although I'm getting cabin fever at home and can't seem to settle to anything. The tiredness is the main thing, makes it difficult to concentrate.
Lols, I’m glad the counselling has helped, I might try it myself because I feel in a real rut.
Susie, the sore nails sound horrible – is that caused by the chemo?
All the best to everyone who has two or more weeks left of the rads. It must be really tiring for those of you who have a long journey to the hospital
Take care everyone,
Can I confirm that Lols, Meg and Fran are all def coming on the reunion weekend think Gilly wants to try and sort it out this weekend?
glad rads went well Fran
When are you going back to school? I dont know when rads start yet but I went back in work today going to work this next few weeks til rads and then go back on a phased return a copuple of months after rads finish I think
Chezz, the dates are in my diary! Not sure if I'll be on half term that Friday so may arrive late from sunny Torquay! Thanks so much. So glad it's all over for you.
First rads today a breeze compared to chemo, only 4 more to go because on trial, so roll on Jan 10th! Thinking of everyone who's going through it now and for longer.
Guess we must all be patient with hair, looking in the mirror every morning is like watching paint dry!
Love to all lovely Maisies,
wahay all done result!!!
Chris glad to hear your first rads went well xxx
Roller hope your dad shakes that cold quick enough. Are you free for the reunion??
Lols thanks for all the text supprt xx